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Thanks, Mel.
That was lovely.
That was lovely.
Colleen Thomas Memorial Thread
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meekomn said:
Perfect! Thanks again, Mel.
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lilredjammies said:Truly a wonderful and appropriate poem, Mel. My condolences as well.
I think Colly might have enjoyed knowing the story of the poet, Mary Elizabeth Frye.
Colly probably knew the story of the poet.
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dizzylia said:
I agree.
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*with tears in my eyes*
I recieved this from Laurel this morning:
I recieved this from Laurel this morning:
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Missing you, Colly x 100
x 100
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Still missing my friend...
strangely, it's not here that it is getting me most...it's the sportswriting. I find it hard to write about baseball right now, because Colly and I shared discussions about it that were of basically NO interest to other people in the thread we were posting about slugging percetnage on...
writing and baseball are both things we talked about...writing ABOUT baseball is hard for me right now....
strangely, it's not here that it is getting me most...it's the sportswriting. I find it hard to write about baseball right now, because Colly and I shared discussions about it that were of basically NO interest to other people in the thread we were posting about slugging percetnage on...
writing and baseball are both things we talked about...writing ABOUT baseball is hard for me right now....
I still don't think it's fully sunk in with me. It took me days to even process that she is gone. I was telling a friend the other day of the first time that Colly influenced me, and she wasn't even here.
When I first came to the AH I was on late at night. I hung around ABSTRUSIONS a lot and just tried to get to know people. Minsue was on often and I chated with her a bunch. She kinda kept talking about one thing though. Colly. I was like, "Who?" And she told me about Colly, but she really couldn't describe Colly she said. She said that Colly was just someone that you had to know. She went on so much as to say that the AH just wasn't the AH without Colly. I didn't know who she was then, or where she was. She was on vacation on her scuba diving trip. That whole week she was gone it felt like the AH had stopped. It felt like the world stopped revolving. I didn't know it then of course. To me it just seemed normal, but I found out when Colly came back. When she first came back I was sorta scared. I'd been around boards where the popular people were jerks and felt like they owned the place. Colly wasn't like that at all though. She greeted me with a pixalated smile
and a very warm heart. That's just the way she was and is. I'm glad to have known her. To be honest though, it just hasn't sunk in that she's not around. When it does I'm sure it'll hit me hard, like everyone else.
Colly you are loved. Always.
When I first came to the AH I was on late at night. I hung around ABSTRUSIONS a lot and just tried to get to know people. Minsue was on often and I chated with her a bunch. She kinda kept talking about one thing though. Colly. I was like, "Who?" And she told me about Colly, but she really couldn't describe Colly she said. She said that Colly was just someone that you had to know. She went on so much as to say that the AH just wasn't the AH without Colly. I didn't know who she was then, or where she was. She was on vacation on her scuba diving trip. That whole week she was gone it felt like the AH had stopped. It felt like the world stopped revolving. I didn't know it then of course. To me it just seemed normal, but I found out when Colly came back. When she first came back I was sorta scared. I'd been around boards where the popular people were jerks and felt like they owned the place. Colly wasn't like that at all though. She greeted me with a pixalated smile
and a very warm heart. That's just the way she was and is. I'm glad to have known her. To be honest though, it just hasn't sunk in that she's not around. When it does I'm sure it'll hit me hard, like everyone else. Colly you are loved. Always.
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meekomn said:
Thank you for sharing that with us.
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rikaaim said:I still don't think it's fully sunk in with me. It took me days to even process that she is gone. I was telling a friend the other day of the first time that Colly influenced me, and she wasn't even here.
When I first came to the AH I was on late at night. I hung around ABSTRUSIONS a lot and just tried to get to know people. Minsue was on often and I chated with her a bunch. She kinda kept talking about one thing though. Colly. I was like, "Who?" And she told me about Colly, but she really couldn't describe Colly she said. She said that Colly was just someone that you had to know. She went on so much as to say that the AH just wasn't the AH without Colly. I didn't know who she was then, or where she was. She was on vacation on her scuba diving trip. That whole week she was gone it felt like the AH had stopped. It felt like the world stopped revolving. I didn't know it then of course. To me it just seemed normal, but I found out when Colly came back. When she first came back I was sorta scared. I'd been around boards where the popular people were jerks and felt like they owned the place. Colly wasn't like that at all though. She greeted me with a pixalated smile
Colly you are loved. Always.
Beautifully said, Rik.
It’s taking me a few days to really come to terms with this, not that I’m sure I’ve completely accepted it. I know that none of you know me, with the exception of Raphy, but because this was where Colly called “home” it seemed right somehow.
I met Colly back around ’99 in a chatroom for an online game that someone else had led me to. Battlefaeries… not around anymore, and didn’t require as much skill as it did just the ability to click the mouse as many times as possible. There were a lot of us addicted to that damn clicking.
She and I started talking, and soon were fast friends. The more we talked, the more we wanted to talk. We had a lot in common, including being two of the “older” women in a game that was dominated by teenage boys. We had a blast! Colly’s favorite story was Watership Down. She named all her faeries after characters in the story. I’ll be damned if I can remember what I named mine…
There was a group of about 20 of us I guess that were regulars in the chatroom and were all pretty good friends. Fortunately there were some older people there to defray some of the inane chatter of the youngsters. But we all got along well. It was home.
Colly wasn’t one to get out much. Her anxiety kept her from it. But online, she could do and be whatever she wanted. It wasn’t long after I met her that I started reading some of her stories. They were good, had real potential. She wrote several around the characters in the game that we played. Real adventures where she cast us all and somehow seemed to capture who we were in real life and meld it seamlessly with who we were in the game and online.
She wrote a couple stories specially for me, and I was amazed with who I was in her eyes. I remember telling her “You have made me this fantastic, beautiful warrior! It’s like you wrote me just as I want to be.” Colly said “I just wrote you as I see you.” She did that with all of us. She could see past the veneer and write who we were in our hearts.
Battlefaeries died the death that many games online do, and there were quite a few of us floundering around, looking for a new home. We found one on Star-Fury. There the group went and made new friends. Once again we all had a home. Once again we had a blast.
During those years, Colly kept writing. She started working more on erotica, and with her descriptive abilities she excelled at it. Raphy was busier with real life, and didn’t have as much time to edit her work anymore, so I did my best to help out as much as I could. I tried and tried to get her to post something because I knew if she heard praise from someone other then those that she knew, she’d believe it.
I kept telling her “Colly, if it’s crap I’ll tell you it’s crap!” “No you won’t, katt. You are biased.” And she’d just smile.
“One night at the Jefferson” was the story that Colly wrote for us. I’m not gay, nor even bisexual, but I loved her dearly and I wanted a story that was ours. I knew that we would never actually get to live it, but I could see us through her eyes. It was phenomenal. It was overwhelming in a lot of ways. It was definitely print worthy. I finally got her to let me post it on erotic stories. We didn’t know about Lit at that time. We changed the names, just in case one of our other friends were to see it and not understand. It took me forever to convince her, but I am now so glad that I kept on at her because she found her final home here.
I was starting to pull away from the online world at that point. Too many things had happened, and I decided that it was time that I spent more time in the “real” world. I was able to overcome my anxieties. They weren’t as bad as Colly’s were. Then, about a year ago, I fell in love with a wonderful man and my time online dipped to nil. Between work, and the time I was spending with Dave there was no time for anything else and I was happier then I’d ever been.
Colly and I kept in touch via email, but not like before. Up until now, I’d always felt like I had to be able to fill a page with things that were going on in my life, and I couldn’t. Life was just day to day stuff. Nothing worth writing about. Now I realize that sometimes it’s ok to just send a line or two to say “hello, how are you? I was thinking about you and just wanted to tell you I love you.”
I feel guilty about not writing her as often as I should have, even though I know she’d tell me to quit being silly, she was glad that I’m happy. I’m going to try not to make the same mistake with other friends in the future.
I guess I just wanted you all to know what I knew about her before she came here. I was so relieved that she was obviously comfortable and loved here. I never really posted, but I’d often log on to see what she was up to, and how things were going when I couldn’t find her online.
Colleen never failed to make friends wherever she went. I will always miss her, but I’ll always keep a piece of her in my heart, and I’ll always have the stories to read again and remember the “good old days”. Thank you to all of you who took her in your arms and hearts and kept her safe and loved.
My heart goes out to Melissa and Colleen’s family. I can’t imagine their loss. But I’m jealous too that they got to really hug her and know her and love her.
I’m going to hold out a little hope, that one day I see her standing in my house to tell me that she’s doing well, there’s no more pain and she’s sorry that it took her so long to get to Texas to visit me. She always did have a wicked sense of irony.
You will always be in my heart lovely Colly.
katt
I met Colly back around ’99 in a chatroom for an online game that someone else had led me to. Battlefaeries… not around anymore, and didn’t require as much skill as it did just the ability to click the mouse as many times as possible. There were a lot of us addicted to that damn clicking.
She and I started talking, and soon were fast friends. The more we talked, the more we wanted to talk. We had a lot in common, including being two of the “older” women in a game that was dominated by teenage boys. We had a blast! Colly’s favorite story was Watership Down. She named all her faeries after characters in the story. I’ll be damned if I can remember what I named mine…
There was a group of about 20 of us I guess that were regulars in the chatroom and were all pretty good friends. Fortunately there were some older people there to defray some of the inane chatter of the youngsters. But we all got along well. It was home.
Colly wasn’t one to get out much. Her anxiety kept her from it. But online, she could do and be whatever she wanted. It wasn’t long after I met her that I started reading some of her stories. They were good, had real potential. She wrote several around the characters in the game that we played. Real adventures where she cast us all and somehow seemed to capture who we were in real life and meld it seamlessly with who we were in the game and online.
She wrote a couple stories specially for me, and I was amazed with who I was in her eyes. I remember telling her “You have made me this fantastic, beautiful warrior! It’s like you wrote me just as I want to be.” Colly said “I just wrote you as I see you.” She did that with all of us. She could see past the veneer and write who we were in our hearts.
Battlefaeries died the death that many games online do, and there were quite a few of us floundering around, looking for a new home. We found one on Star-Fury. There the group went and made new friends. Once again we all had a home. Once again we had a blast.
During those years, Colly kept writing. She started working more on erotica, and with her descriptive abilities she excelled at it. Raphy was busier with real life, and didn’t have as much time to edit her work anymore, so I did my best to help out as much as I could. I tried and tried to get her to post something because I knew if she heard praise from someone other then those that she knew, she’d believe it.
I kept telling her “Colly, if it’s crap I’ll tell you it’s crap!” “No you won’t, katt. You are biased.” And she’d just smile.
“One night at the Jefferson” was the story that Colly wrote for us. I’m not gay, nor even bisexual, but I loved her dearly and I wanted a story that was ours. I knew that we would never actually get to live it, but I could see us through her eyes. It was phenomenal. It was overwhelming in a lot of ways. It was definitely print worthy. I finally got her to let me post it on erotic stories. We didn’t know about Lit at that time. We changed the names, just in case one of our other friends were to see it and not understand. It took me forever to convince her, but I am now so glad that I kept on at her because she found her final home here.
I was starting to pull away from the online world at that point. Too many things had happened, and I decided that it was time that I spent more time in the “real” world. I was able to overcome my anxieties. They weren’t as bad as Colly’s were. Then, about a year ago, I fell in love with a wonderful man and my time online dipped to nil. Between work, and the time I was spending with Dave there was no time for anything else and I was happier then I’d ever been.
Colly and I kept in touch via email, but not like before. Up until now, I’d always felt like I had to be able to fill a page with things that were going on in my life, and I couldn’t. Life was just day to day stuff. Nothing worth writing about. Now I realize that sometimes it’s ok to just send a line or two to say “hello, how are you? I was thinking about you and just wanted to tell you I love you.”
I feel guilty about not writing her as often as I should have, even though I know she’d tell me to quit being silly, she was glad that I’m happy. I’m going to try not to make the same mistake with other friends in the future.
I guess I just wanted you all to know what I knew about her before she came here. I was so relieved that she was obviously comfortable and loved here. I never really posted, but I’d often log on to see what she was up to, and how things were going when I couldn’t find her online.
Colleen never failed to make friends wherever she went. I will always miss her, but I’ll always keep a piece of her in my heart, and I’ll always have the stories to read again and remember the “good old days”. Thank you to all of you who took her in your arms and hearts and kept her safe and loved.
My heart goes out to Melissa and Colleen’s family. I can’t imagine their loss. But I’m jealous too that they got to really hug her and know her and love her.
I’m going to hold out a little hope, that one day I see her standing in my house to tell me that she’s doing well, there’s no more pain and she’s sorry that it took her so long to get to Texas to visit me. She always did have a wicked sense of irony.
You will always be in my heart lovely Colly.
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Thank you for sharing with us.
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Thank you katt. That was lovely.
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'One Night at the Jefferson', was the first online story I'd ever printed off to read....and I'd been reading stories on a daily basis for months on Nifty.
The story completely blew me away. The characters, scenes, dialogue...not to mention the incredible sex scenes. Abso-fucking-fantastic. I couldn't believe that anyone who could write this well was not a published author. After that story, I searched specifically for her work (on the site I was using at that time, I didn't know about Lit), it was difficult to find work by specific authors - Nifty doesn't file them by author, but merely by category and in date order. It was shortly after that, when she posted, and I read, The Office Party, I just had to write to her.
Katt, thank you for telling me about the origins of 'Jefferson', its always been one of my favourite 'full-length' lesbian stories, and one which I returned to over and over again. She told me that Roxy was loosely based on herself, but would never tell me who was the basis for Lauren.
I guess I'm lucky in that a couple of years ago, Colly started writing a story, specifically about me, and for me. She sent me the first draft, which she wrote after extensive and hilarious questioning of me and my lifestyle, and I just loved it. Her characterisation of myself was masterly, if a little unsettling. Unfortunately, she never managed to finish it, and I simply didn't have the heart to push her, as her health wasn't good. It is a piece of unpublished Colly which I will always treasure. 18 pages of genius and intimacy.
The story completely blew me away. The characters, scenes, dialogue...not to mention the incredible sex scenes. Abso-fucking-fantastic. I couldn't believe that anyone who could write this well was not a published author. After that story, I searched specifically for her work (on the site I was using at that time, I didn't know about Lit), it was difficult to find work by specific authors - Nifty doesn't file them by author, but merely by category and in date order. It was shortly after that, when she posted, and I read, The Office Party, I just had to write to her.
Katt, thank you for telling me about the origins of 'Jefferson', its always been one of my favourite 'full-length' lesbian stories, and one which I returned to over and over again. She told me that Roxy was loosely based on herself, but would never tell me who was the basis for Lauren.
I guess I'm lucky in that a couple of years ago, Colly started writing a story, specifically about me, and for me. She sent me the first draft, which she wrote after extensive and hilarious questioning of me and my lifestyle, and I just loved it. Her characterisation of myself was masterly, if a little unsettling. Unfortunately, she never managed to finish it, and I simply didn't have the heart to push her, as her health wasn't good. It is a piece of unpublished Colly which I will always treasure. 18 pages of genius and intimacy.
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Colleen saw in everyone their ideal selves - what they could be if they were their most courageous and most beautiful. I loved that in her. She knew my weaknessses, and yet she believed only the good; she makes me strive to be it.
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I read throught all the experiences you all had with Colly. I know she would talk alot about different people and conversations she had with all of you. It always helped me to know when I was at work or doing something and was not home she was never truly alone. Mel
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meekomn said:
That's lovely, Mel. I know we all feel the same way about you. I was greatly comforted to learn that you were there for Colleen and that you were with her all the way. I am so sorry for what must have been a terrible and shocking day for you; my heart goes out to you. But I am deeply thankful, too, that you were there, for you and for Colleen.
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meekomn said:
It was our pleasure, Mel. Colleen was a joy to be around.
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I just joined Lit today, and I've been reading through this thread. Colleen sounds like a wonderful person, and it's my loss that I'll never get to know her.
