Bunny's Stuffie Corner

[NuclearFairy]

I think so, too!

My friend just needs people to stop using her as an emotional crutch, but everyone around her is so fucking stunted that it'd probably be easier to just fake her own death than to refer these people to therapy or get them to have the slightest ounce of self-awareness, lol.

Give your friend some hugs for me.

You know what I used to like to do when I lived alone, I'd get these two body pillows and put them on top of the blankets to either side of me while going to sleep. It felt a bit like falling asleep in a nice warm hug.

 

[BiBunny]

Give your friend some hugs for me.

You know what I used to like to do when I lived alone, I'd get these two body pillows and put them on top of the blankets to either side of me while going to sleep. It felt a bit like falling asleep in a nice warm hug.

Thank you.

I don't have body pillows, but I do have regular pillows that I pretty much do that very thing with, lol.


So to add to the fuckery that is my life, my dad's truck broke down yesterday and is in the shop. He called me today (in the middle of my religious ritual and interrupted, so the gods are probably annoyed at me for answering, which I definitely DO NOT NEED right now) and asked if he could drive my car to and from work this week. Which means I'll have no car before 4 pm every day. And to top it off, I have to drive an hour and 20 minutes tomorrow to go pick him up and bring him here and an hour and 20 minutes back. He said, "Will you be here around noon?" Yeah, why the hell not?

He, of course, had to complain about my mother not doing anything to help, but like, what did you expect? She's never lifted a finger in her life to do anything she didn't want to do. She's not about to start now.

Also, I don't know why the hurry to get up here. He's just gonna sleep in the recliner in the living room all evening, while I can't do anything work-related because he's here. I paid $100 on November's back rent a couple of weeks ago, so I've got all of November's rent but that lonely little $100 and then all of December's to pay somehow. And then January's is coming....I just can't get a break, and everybody keeps coming at me expecting me to solve their problems for them.

 

[NuclearFairy]

Thank you.

I don't have body pillows, but I do have regular pillows that I pretty much do that very thing with, lol.


So to add to the fuckery that is my life, my dad's truck broke down yesterday and is in the shop. He called me today (in the middle of my religious ritual and interrupted, so the gods are probably annoyed at me for answering, which I definitely DO NOT NEED right now) and asked if he could drive my car to and from work this week. Which means I'll have no car before 4 pm every day. And to top it off, I have to drive an hour and 20 minutes tomorrow to go pick him up and bring him here and an hour and 20 minutes back. He said, "Will you be here around noon?" Yeah, why the hell not?

He, of course, had to complain about my mother not doing anything to help, but like, what did you expect? She's never lifted a finger in her life to do anything she didn't want to do. She's not about to start now.

Also, I don't know why the hurry to get up here. He's just gonna sleep in the recliner in the living room all evening, while I can't do anything work-related because he's here. I paid $100 on November's back rent a couple of weeks ago, so I've got all of November's rent but that lonely little $100 and then all of December's to pay somehow. And then January's is coming....I just can't get a break, and everybody keeps coming at me expecting me to solve their problems for them.

 

[BiBunny]

Ok, so maybe I don't have to go pick him up tomorrow. My mother is taking him Christmas shopping, I think, and they're probably coming up here. She can just leave him with me.

In other news, I actually posted an (innocuous) status on Fet today. I rarely go on there, but I'm extremely bored, and Daddy won't answer his texts again. I'm about to post something like. "Up for adoption: Extremely neglected kitten. Free to good home," lol.

 

[NuclearFairy]

Ok, so maybe I don't have to go pick him up tomorrow. My mother is taking him Christmas shopping, I think, and they're probably coming up here. She can just leave him with me.

Awesome!

In other news, I actually posted an (innocuous) status on Fet today. I rarely go on there, but I'm extremely bored, and Daddy won't answer his texts again. I'm about to post something like. "Up for adoption: Extremely neglected kitten. Free to good home," lol.

Never been to fet. Sorry your Daddy is sucking, do what you gotta do though.

 

[BiBunny]

Merry Christmas, Stuffie Corner friends!

(Please post any stuffies you're gifted this holiday season if you feel so inclined. Thank you!)

 

[NuclearFairy]

Merry Christmas!

I got a Belibolt Squishmallow. Sorry no pictures, my phone's being a jerk.

 

[BiBunny]

Well...I got back home Friday evening, but I was a potato that night and yesterday, too. I was exhausted from all the Christmas bullshit and just drained, too.

Today is marginally better. I'm about to make my triumphant return to the salt mines. I dread it, but the bills won't get paid if I don't.

I still don't have my product photos done for my crafting site. I'm just gonna wait til I finish my 12-pointed star blanket I'm working on now so I can put it in the shop, too. Hopefully, I can get that finished in a week or so.

Creating a new character for work. I would love to leave pso altogether, but nothing has panned out yet. So I'll at least create someone I can stand to log into and play. That Mommy shit I've been doing...ugh. I mean, I'm decent at it, but the callers are so needy that it's killing me right now. So I'm making a sensual Domme specializing in pegging and bi male fantasies, and maybe that'll be easier to deal with for a bit.

 

[NuclearFairy]

Well...I got back home Friday evening, but I was a potato that night and yesterday, too. I was exhausted from all the Christmas bullshit and just drained, too.

Yeah that stuff is draining. Did you have fun playing potato?

I still don't have my product photos done for my crafting site. I'm just gonna wait til I finish my 12-pointed star blanket I'm working on now so I can put it in the shop, too. Hopefully, I can get that finished in a week or so.

Oooh, sounds neat. Hope they sell well.

That reminds me, I need to pull out my shirt and do an embroidery patch on it.

Creating a new character for work. I would love to leave pso altogether, but nothing has panned out yet. So I'll at least create someone I can stand to log into and play. That Mommy shit I've been doing...ugh. I mean, I'm decent at it, but the callers are so needy that it's killing me right now. So I'm making a sensual Domme specializing in pegging and bi male fantasies, and maybe that'll be easier to deal with for a bit.

Too bad you can't do something really outrageous, like a hyper bunny girl, on second thought, that might be exhausting.

Hope you can have some fun at least as the Domme.

 

[BiBunny]

Yeah that stuff is draining. Did you have fun playing potato?

I did, lol.

Oooh, sounds neat. Hope they sell well.

That reminds me, I need to pull out my shirt and do an embroidery patch on it.

Thank you!

Too bad you can't do something really outrageous, like a hyper bunny girl, on second thought, that might be exhausting.

Hope you can have some fun at least as the Domme.

I'm gonna try. They approved the listing itself, but I have to send in documentation to get them to approve the photo, which is a pain in the ass.

 

[BiBunny]

So I was not able to force myself to log in yesterday.

I'm honestly just...numb. I feel like I've given so much of myself to everyone around me that I have nothing left to give. And the thought of having to log in and absorb more stupid energy from stupid people is making me crazy.

I hate saying this because everyone who says it ends up being a raging asshole, but I absorb other people's energy, emotions, intentions, etc. I wish I knew how not to do it. I've tried shielding techniques, but the truth is, I don't really believe in that sort of thing, so it doesn't help, lol. I don't know how to not take on everybody else's bullshit. And that's one reason I've never been very successful in PSO because you have to have a certain callousness that I apparently do not possess in order to not burn out on a regular basis.

I have a friend (who does do well at PSO) who tells me I let things affect me too much. And I acknowledge that this is true, but what good does knowing that do if you don't know what to do to fix it?

I need a new job, but sex work is such a fucking black hole and so hard to get out of. I owe so much money to so many people, and it's the only way I know of to come up with money quickly enough. (And it still may not be fast enough, to be entirely honest. I'm living on borrowed time here.)

It feels like such a moral failing. "I can't work" sounds like a fucking excuse. And maybe it is. Maybe I am just lazy and ambitionless and spoiled and expect the rest of the world to take care of me. But I just don't have anything left in the tank right now. And I don't know what to do to get these fucking bills paid, and believe me when I tell you, there are a lot of them.

Sigh. Sorry, y'all. I know negativity sucks, and I'm sorry to bring it here. I love y'all so much.

 

[NuclearFairy]

Have some hugs.

 

[BiBunny]

About to try to do this (log in) again.

Baby steps.

 

[BiBunny]

New year...same tired Bunny.

I am, however, going to get my shit together and start trying to create more. This means working on my crafts, getting my shop up (should have already done this, tbh), writing on my crafting website's blog, and firing up my Substack.

It's gonna be a lot, but as someone wiser than me said, the time's gonna pass, anyway. I might as well do something with it.

I'm working on myself this year. I want to be a less shitty person. Choosing to be more active physically and mentally, doing more spiritual practices, and creating more are all going to be a part of that. I also called the local soup kitchen a few days ago and left a message, saying I was interested in some volunteer work. I haven't heard back from them yet, but I'm not sure if it's because of the holidays or because they don't need anyone right now. I'll try back maybe Tuesday, and if I don't hear anything then, I'll talk to my friend at the metaphysical shop. She is all about community aid and enabling people to help each other, so I'm sure she can suggest something I can do.

I'm just tired of everything being the same. I want to inject some positivity and gratitude into my life. I think it'd make a world of difference.

 

[NuclearFairy]

New year...same tired Bunny.

I am, however, going to get my shit together and start trying to create more. This means working on my crafts, getting my shop up (should have already done this, tbh), writing on my crafting website's blog, and firing up my Substack.

It's gonna be a lot, but as someone wiser than me said, the time's gonna pass, anyway. I might as well do something with it.

I'm working on myself this year. I want to be a less shitty person. Choosing to be more active physically and mentally, doing more spiritual practices, and creating more are all going to be a part of that. I also called the local soup kitchen a few days ago and left a message, saying I was interested in some volunteer work. I haven't heard back from them yet, but I'm not sure if it's because of the holidays or because they don't need anyone right now. I'll try back maybe Tuesday, and if I don't hear anything then, I'll talk to my friend at the metaphysical shop. She is all about community aid and enabling people to help each other, so I'm sure she can suggest something I can do.

I'm just tired of everything being the same. I want to inject some positivity and gratitude into my life. I think it'd make a world of difference.

I believe in you!

 

[BiBunny]

I believe in you!

Thank you! You are most awesome! And Happy New Year, friend!

 

[NuclearFairy]

Thank you! You are most awesome! And Happy New Year, friend!

Happy New Year, friend!

 

[BiBunny]

So I did a lot of admin work today, but I literally logged into my two less-busy places ten minutes ago. I've spent all day avoiding it by procrastinating by working on other stuff. I still haven't had the courage to log into the busiest place yet.

I have a headache and am achy all over and just don't feel great. My idiot relatives showed up to Christmas with two out of four of them sick. They refuse to stay at home when someone is ill because God forbid something stand between their selfish asses and something to eat and a handful of gifts. I have had a runny nose and been sneezy and headachy for several days now. I don't know if I'm actually sick with something contagious that I caught from them, or if I'm just run down. My mom says she's had the runny nose and the sneezing, too, so signs point to some sort of half-assed sinus infection or something, but I don't know for sure, of course.

In theory, I got some stuff that needed doing done. I updated my main work website and my crafting blog. I put up a new profile on a site I'm already on. I talked to one of my writing customers and got some blog topics from her that I'll work on later this weekend and send to her when I finish them. I poked around Substack a bit, but it's all Greek to me. I need to make a list of topics to write about when I feel all right enough to do some exploring and figure Substack out. Anybody got anything they'd want to know from an anonymous PSO? I want to make the blog useful to PSOs and interesting to people who are just curious about it, but are not actively involved in the industry.

But alas, all this stuff, while helpful, generates no income right now. And therein lies the problem.

I'm back to where I was a couple of months ago. My utilities are going to be disconnected, and if the property management people don't accept me throwing myself on their mercy one more fucking time tomorrow, I'm going to be evicted. I'm so far behind.

Somehow, though, I feel like there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe this is what happens before I get hit by a train, I don't know. But I somehow feel the Universe is slowly aligning to give me a life that's a little better than the one I've had for so many years. My blankie I wrote about in this post on my crafting thread has given me this weird hope that maybe my bad luck/karma is coming to an end, after so long. Yes, it's silly to feel that way about a stupid blanket. But maybe when you have very little left to hold onto, you grasp at straws. Or maybe sometimes, there is hope waiting in the wings. I don't know. I guess we'll see.

 

[NuclearFairy]

So I did a lot of admin work today, but I literally logged into my two less-busy places ten minutes ago. I've spent all day avoiding it by procrastinating by working on other stuff. I still haven't had the courage to log into the busiest place yet.

Just think of it in video game logic. If you take out the weak opponents first then you'll have fewer enemies shooting at you and so once you get to it, you'll stand a better chance of taking on the boss.

I have a headache and am achy all over and just don't feel great. My idiot relatives showed up to Christmas with two out of four of them sick. They refuse to stay at home when someone is ill because God forbid something stand between their selfish asses and something to eat and a handful of gifts. I have had a runny nose and been sneezy and headachy for several days now. I don't know if I'm actually sick with something contagious that I caught from them, or if I'm just run down. My mom says she's had the runny nose and the sneezing, too, so signs point to some sort of half-assed sinus infection or something, but I don't know for sure, of course.

That sucks. But it's also possible someone who didn't even know that they were sick is the one who passed it on. It's what makes gatherings so nerve wracking. That person that looks and feels fine, they may come down sick in a couple of days, and in the meantime they've already made just about everyone around them sick too.

In theory, I got some stuff that needed doing done. I updated my main work website and my crafting blog. I put up a new profile on a site I'm already on. I talked to one of my writing customers and got some blog topics from her that I'll work on later this weekend and send to her when I finish them. I poked around Substack a bit, but it's all Greek to me. I need to make a list of topics to write about when I feel all right enough to do some exploring and figure Substack out. Anybody got anything they'd want to know from an anonymous PSO? I want to make the blog useful to PSOs and interesting to people who are just curious about it, but are not actively involved in the industry.

But alas, all this stuff, while helpful, generates no income right now. And therein lies the problem.

I'm back to where I was a couple of months ago. My utilities are going to be disconnected, and if the property management people don't accept me throwing myself on their mercy one more fucking time tomorrow, I'm going to be evicted. I'm so far behind.

Somehow, though, I feel like there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe this is what happens before I get hit by a train, I don't know. But I somehow feel the Universe is slowly aligning to give me a life that's a little better than the one I've had for so many years. My blankie I wrote about in this post on my crafting thread has given me this weird hope that maybe my bad luck/karma is coming to an end, after so long. Yes, it's silly to feel that way about a stupid blanket. But maybe when you have very little left to hold onto, you grasp at straws. Or maybe sometimes, there is hope waiting in the wings. I don't know. I guess we'll see.

Blankets are magical like that.