Whispor
Really Really Experienced
- Joined
- Aug 16, 2005
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Coercion. Blackmail. Exercise of real or perceived authority over me.
My desire to suck cock stems from my sexual submissiveness which is heightened, stimulated by the sight of a huge one much larger than my own. It has been for the past 40+ years.
That said, I had never really fantasized about being penetrated anally by a cock until about 10 years ago. I was in my early 40's and had a urology appointment and experienced my first prostate exam. My urologist was an older man, rather gruff and to the point about telling me to bend over the examination table, widen my stance, even placing his hand on my upper back to have me bend over more because I was dreading what was about to happen. A medical doctor, a symbol of authority, ordering me to prepare to be penetrated by him.
Something interesting occurred. The pad of his gloves and lubricated index finger slid up across my anus, and on the downward motion slid effortlessly inside of me despite my anus clinching so hard due to my subconscious desire to prevent the intrusion. His finger was thick and I felt its presence stretching me. Something inside me clicked and I was forever changed by the experience no matter how routine and benign it might be.
(I wrote a story about it called Penetrating Realization if you want to know more details. It turned me on so much I had to stop on the way home and masturbate.)
What turns me on so much about the scenario, and fantasies of being coerced or blackmailed into being fucked, is that I always have a choice. I could have said no to the doctor. Refused. Panicked. Yet I chose to accept the act of being penetrated by his finger. My ideal fantasy of losing my "gay virginity" from a big cock incorporates this. I can say no to the demand at the risk of losing my reputation, having secrets divulged, etc. and yet I want the man doing this to me to be aware I chose to let him fuck me despite begging him not to make me choose.
The humiliation aspect is very powerful to me and I find it extremely arousing.
I want to whimper and clench my fists from the discomfort of him being inside of me. I want him to take his time fucking me, making me endure the sensation of him being inside of me. I want my own penis, significantly smaller than his own, to become erect so that his humiliation of me is even more emphasized by betraying my enjoyment of it as well as allowing him to witness just how much larger his cock is than my own.
I want to climax and ejaculate onto the floor below me while he's fucking me, giving him the ultimate satisfaction of dominating me, humiliating me, a man who he perceives as never having desired to be penetrated by another man's cock. I want him to gloat at the sight of me getting dressed and walking out, knowing his seed fills my bowels.
Facilitating his sexual dominance and superiority over me only fuels my pleasure by fulfilling my desire to be sexually submissive for a man whose masculinity is superior to mine in every possible way.
My desire to suck cock stems from my sexual submissiveness which is heightened, stimulated by the sight of a huge one much larger than my own. It has been for the past 40+ years.
That said, I had never really fantasized about being penetrated anally by a cock until about 10 years ago. I was in my early 40's and had a urology appointment and experienced my first prostate exam. My urologist was an older man, rather gruff and to the point about telling me to bend over the examination table, widen my stance, even placing his hand on my upper back to have me bend over more because I was dreading what was about to happen. A medical doctor, a symbol of authority, ordering me to prepare to be penetrated by him.
Something interesting occurred. The pad of his gloves and lubricated index finger slid up across my anus, and on the downward motion slid effortlessly inside of me despite my anus clinching so hard due to my subconscious desire to prevent the intrusion. His finger was thick and I felt its presence stretching me. Something inside me clicked and I was forever changed by the experience no matter how routine and benign it might be.
(I wrote a story about it called Penetrating Realization if you want to know more details. It turned me on so much I had to stop on the way home and masturbate.)
What turns me on so much about the scenario, and fantasies of being coerced or blackmailed into being fucked, is that I always have a choice. I could have said no to the doctor. Refused. Panicked. Yet I chose to accept the act of being penetrated by his finger. My ideal fantasy of losing my "gay virginity" from a big cock incorporates this. I can say no to the demand at the risk of losing my reputation, having secrets divulged, etc. and yet I want the man doing this to me to be aware I chose to let him fuck me despite begging him not to make me choose.
The humiliation aspect is very powerful to me and I find it extremely arousing.
I want to whimper and clench my fists from the discomfort of him being inside of me. I want him to take his time fucking me, making me endure the sensation of him being inside of me. I want my own penis, significantly smaller than his own, to become erect so that his humiliation of me is even more emphasized by betraying my enjoyment of it as well as allowing him to witness just how much larger his cock is than my own.
I want to climax and ejaculate onto the floor below me while he's fucking me, giving him the ultimate satisfaction of dominating me, humiliating me, a man who he perceives as never having desired to be penetrated by another man's cock. I want him to gloat at the sight of me getting dressed and walking out, knowing his seed fills my bowels.
Facilitating his sexual dominance and superiority over me only fuels my pleasure by fulfilling my desire to be sexually submissive for a man whose masculinity is superior to mine in every possible way.