Being autistic, adhd and random stuff

[stickygirl]

Here's a weird thing, or should I say 'hears a weird thing'?

Here's a link, hopefully

I had a post on my Insta aimed at ADHDers with a tone pitched at 963Hz, a bit like the pitch from an old tv when there's no signal.
It's claimed the sound clears your head, shuts down the random thoughts and mental clutter. Google suggested there was limited scientific evidence and I saw a few spirit groups claimed it as, I dunno, maybe the Gaia God-song of your chakras or some bollocks.
I tried it and it stopped my tinnitus, or rather swapped it for a different noise. It was oddly comforting though.

 

[Strixaluco]

Here's a weird thing, or should I say 'hears a weird thing'?

Here's a link, hopefully

I had a post on my Insta aimed at ADHDers with a tone pitched at 963Hz, a bit like the pitch from an old tv when there's no signal.
It's claimed the sound clears your head, shuts down the random thoughts and mental clutter. Google suggested there was limited scientific evidence and I saw a few spirit groups claimed it as, I dunno, maybe the Gaia God-song of your chakras or some bollocks.
I tried it and it stopped my tinnitus, or rather swapped it for a different noise. It was oddly comforting though.

Nothing for me. Just a, boringly annoying minute. I happen to have tinnitus from public transport (came hommista just 15min ago) and it did definitely not change that.

 

[PMarky2]

Here's a weird thing, or should I say 'hears a weird thing'?

Here's a link, hopefully

I had a post on my Insta aimed at ADHDers with a tone pitched at 963Hz, a bit like the pitch from an old tv when there's no signal.
It's claimed the sound clears your head, shuts down the random thoughts and mental clutter. Google suggested there was limited scientific evidence and I saw a few spirit groups claimed it as, I dunno, maybe the Gaia God-song of your chakras or some bollocks.
I tried it and it stopped my tinnitus, or rather swapped it for a different noise. It was oddly comforting though.

Hmmmm... don't know about that. It did sound a lot like the old test card noise. It did very little for me and annoyed the dog.

 

[stickygirl]

This time of year can be pretty exhausting for auties. I’d planned to visit my cousin this afternoon but I’ve just had a long phone call with another family member and it’s going to take me a couple of days to recharge that family chat battery. I mean I could make myself go but socialising is supposed to be a nice activity not a trial.

 

[PMarky2]

This time of year can be pretty exhausting for auties. I’d planned to visit my cousin this afternoon but I’ve just had a long phone call with another family member and it’s going to take me a couple of days to recharge that family chat battery. I mean I could make myself go but socialising is supposed to be a nice activity not a trial.

A dead social batteries is an all too common experience for us. You are dead-on about the recharge period. I loathe having back-to-back days when I have to be polite, make small talk, yada-yada... I've got that coming next weekend.

For me, the joy of this week is that the worst of the battery flattening activities are over, and I got through last week OK. Both Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, and yesterday had the capacity to absolutely flatten me, but they did not. Mind you, I am in the yellow zone, and hope I will be left to sit in the corner, on my charger until I feel like peopling again.

My best Christmas present was that BAF and I seem to be back on terms.

 

[stickygirl]

Fuck me - when you gotta meltdown/shutdown you feel. like Canute trying to stop the tide
I'm outta here. done

 

[Strixaluco]

Fuck me - when you gotta meltdown/shutdown you feel. like Canute trying to stop the tide
I'm outta here. done

I hope you get some me-time. Where some = plenty.

 

[stickygirl]

I hope you get some me-time. Where some = plenty.

Thanks hone. Yeah - it was a case of being triggered. I've removed it and feel so relieved. Like a weight off my brain.

There's a new series of a tv show called Patience in a few minutes. The format is stolen from a French idea, but features an autistic woman who helps solve crimes, though most of her colleagues stigmatise her and resent her insight. The last run was a lot of fun

 

[stickygirl]

Here's a thing. It's 10.30pm and that tv show finished 40 mins ago. I'm trying to figure out why I have butterflies and on edge and I realise it's because I've associated with the girl in Patience, who got quite upset in the show... and here I am feeling it even though I know it's just a frigging story-make-believe.
Oh yeah, autistic people don't have emotions, they're like machines... I must be doing this to draw attention to myself then. ffs

 

[PMarky2]

Here's a thing. It's 10.30pm and that tv show finished 40 mins ago. I'm trying to figure out why I have butterflies and on edge and I realise it's because I've associated with the girl in Patience, who got quite upset in the show... and here I am feeling it even though I know it's just a frigging story-make-believe.
Oh yeah, autistic people don't have emotions, they're like machines... I must be doing this to draw attention to myself then. ffs

I have that same tendency to feel deeply for the characters with which I identify in fiction. I sometimes wonder whether it is a function of the particular Autistic variety of empathy.

Of course, NDs accuse us of not having emotions because we do not express them the same way NDs do. I am afraid with pretty much any heavy emotion I get overwhelmed and start crying, which is not good for the manly image. As a result I tend to consign my emotions to a concrete bunker until I can be on my own and let it out without fear of judgement.

 

[Strixaluco]

Here's a thing. It's 10.30pm and that tv show finished 40 mins ago. I'm trying to figure out why I have butterflies and on edge and I realise it's because I've associated with the girl in Patience, who got quite upset in the show... and here I am feeling it even though I know it's just a frigging story-make-believe.
Oh yeah, autistic people don't have emotions, they're like machines... I must be doing this to draw attention to myself then. ffs

Definitely less known that autistic people can also be hyperempaths and basically suck in all the emotions.

 

[Noor]

Definitely less known that autistic people can also be hyperempaths and basically suck in all the emotions.

I think the suck at all emotions thing is more well known.

 

[Strixaluco]

I think the suck at all emotions thing is more well known.

Maybe among family members, but the general stereotype is about autistic people not being empathic at all.

 

[stickygirl]

Thanks each. I'm sure anyone with this tendency develops strategies to avoid looking soppy and one of those is avoidance. We'll make excuses to avoid situations where we're likely to melt into a wet puddle.... and that is further proof that we "lack" emotions!
I'm very fortunate that my SO will cover for me, acting to distract other's attention from me, and not judge me when it happens
Maybe it's a form of emotional dysregulation? I reminded myself recently that anger is another thing I'm not good at reigning in ( Ooops )