Endings

[LegendInMyOwnMind]

Today, the second-longest relationship of my life came to an abrupt end. I had finished a video call with her, but the call didn't disconnect properly. I listened to an erotic audio, and Messenger let her hear it all. I'm now the most disgusting human being that has ever lived, and everything I ever told her was a lie. So ended an on-and-off sexless romance of eight years. Sexless, except for two or three times during her alcohol relapse. No sex before marriage was her thing, but SSI rules would only let us marry at the cost of economic suicide. What the hell were we? Horny teenagers?
I gave her a lot of leeway because of her faith, but lifetime celibacy was too heavy a cross for me to carry. Then she drove in a few more nails by forbidding me to watch porn.

Ironically, she made me feel like a teenager, and if her description of her sexual "temptations" with my name on them was anything near accurate, I made her feel like one, too. A chemistry that was truly a gift from God--and she refused it in God's name. I'm angry, but the sadness of past breakups with her hasn't surfaced. I feel a sense of freedom. I am who I am without apology or excuse. And although my male parts no longer work (name of God get me some Viagra), I'm still a very sexual being.

Have any of you experienced the breakup of a long-term relationship that felt liberating?

 

[jakinov]

Today, the second-longest relationship of my life came to an abrupt end. I had finished a video call with her, but the call didn't disconnect properly. I listened to an erotic audio, and Messenger let her hear it all. I'm now the most disgusting human being that has ever lived, and everything I ever told her was a lie. So ended an on-and-off sexless romance of eight years. Sexless, except for two or three times during her alcohol relapse. No sex before marriage was her thing, but SSI rules would only let us marry at the cost of economic suicide. What the hell were we? Horny teenagers?
I gave her a lot of leeway because of her faith, but lifetime celibacy was too heavy a cross for me to carry. Then she drove in a few more nails by forbidding me to watch porn.

Ironically, she made me feel like a teenager, and if her description of her sexual "temptations" with my name on them was anything near accurate, I made her feel like one, too. A chemistry that was truly a gift from God--and she refused it in God's name. I'm angry, but the sadness of past breakups with her hasn't surfaced. I feel a sense of freedom. I am who I am without apology or excuse. And although my male parts no longer work (name of God get me some Viagra), I'm still a very sexual being.

Have any of you experienced the breakup of a long-term relationship that felt liberating?

No. Married 43 years here and counting. But as for the Viagra, Costco has the generic sildenafil at $15 or so for 30 100mg pills, which I find can easily be split in half and still grant solid wood. Prescription necessary.

 

[lifeis2short2b]

Today, the second-longest relationship of my life came to an abrupt end. I had finished a video call with her, but the call didn't disconnect properly. I listened to an erotic audio, and Messenger let her hear it all. I'm now the most disgusting human being that has ever lived, and everything I ever told her was a lie. So ended an on-and-off sexless romance of eight years. Sexless, except for two or three times during her alcohol relapse. No sex before marriage was her thing, but SSI rules would only let us marry at the cost of economic suicide. What the hell were we? Horny teenagers?
I gave her a lot of leeway because of her faith, but lifetime celibacy was too heavy a cross for me to carry. Then she drove in a few more nails by forbidding me to watch porn.

Ironically, she made me feel like a teenager, and if her description of her sexual "temptations" with my name on them was anything near accurate, I made her feel like one, too. A chemistry that was truly a gift from God--and she refused it in God's name. I'm angry, but the sadness of past breakups with her hasn't surfaced. I feel a sense of freedom. I am who I am without apology or excuse. And although my male parts no longer work (name of God get me some Viagra), I'm still a very sexual being.

Have any of you experienced the breakup of a long-term relationship that felt liberating?

You should of kept an abundant stock of alcohol on hand

 

[LegendInMyOwnMind]

You should of kept an abundant stock of alcohol on hand

I wasn't willing to kill her to fuck her. I won't say I wasn't tempted. I got her in rehab and she regained sobriety.

 

[LegendInMyOwnMind]

No. Married 43 years here and counting. But as for the Viagra, Costco has the generic sildenafil at $15 or so for 30 100mg pills, which I find can easily be split in half and still grant solid wood. Prescription necessary.

I can afford that if I can get the scrip. May need to change my BP meds dosage and not take any on dialysis days.

 

[lifeis2short2b]

I wasn't willing to kill her to fuck her. I won't say I wasn't tempted. I got her in rehab and she regained sobriety.

OK just get her loosened up a bit then. Keep it locked and just give her a shot when your horny. At leadt you wouldn't need viagra

 

[LegendInMyOwnMind]

OK just get her loosened up a bit then. Keep it locked and just give her a shot when your horny. At leadt you wouldn't need viagra

No thanks.