attention

[Willing and Unsure]

anyone have any ideas on how to get someone's attention? i'm a little down and just lookin for a little bit of it tonite.....

 

[Guest]

Looking for anyone to talk to, or is this like a "How To" on attention getting??

 

[lavender]

 

[Willing and Unsure]

i'm just a little down on a few things... as well as confused on a lot of things.... and it doesnt help much that i cant be near my best friend right now for a bit of reassurance

 

[lavender]

 

[Willing and Unsure]

i just really miss my best friend right now (he's 200 miles away until august). i'm kinda having a small falling out with a few friends from home, i think i'm going to change my major in college from something i really want to do to something i sort of want to do. i'm just not happy with a lot of things right now and i'm having a hard time getting any attention from anyone and i've been trying just about anything to get some of any form.

 

[lavender]

 

[Willing and Unsure]

right now i'm a nuclear engineering major.... i just finished my first year of college and i just barely managed to get a 2.0 gpa which is very unlike me. i have always been an honors student with exceptional grades. and this last school year i've spent it working my butt off and just barely get c's in most of my classes (and there have been 3 that i didnt pass so far). i'm thinking of changing my major now so i can handle the course work. and i'm considering changing to a computer technology major (yes, i am a computer geek). i like computers and all.... but it's not exactly what i want to do for the rest of my life. it's not the end of the world, but i am barely passing my classes, well... i'm barely passing the classes i have passed, and i cant keep my life where all i do is study all the time and have no time to relax a little here and there or to take a shower or anything like that. i'll go insane and end up feeling worse than i am right now. i havent made a definite decision yet, but i am considering doing it an awful lot more than i was 6 months ago.

 

[lavender]

 

[Willing and Unsure]

the classes i took are the ones that i'm supposed to take for my freshman year. it really got to me with the fact that i barely passed the subjects i'm really good at. i took one elective and failed it. and actually, i didnt pass one of the ones i'm really good at. i havent made a decision yet on whether or not i'm going to change majors.... i'm going to wait until after i talk to my advisor in the fall before i make that decision.

 

[lavender]

 

[Willing and Unsure]

he's just a friend. we are really close and have turned to each other for everything since we met. since we both went home for the summer, we are now 200 miles apart and probably wont see each other until august when we go back to school. we've known each other since last september and we've pretty much been the best of friends since the day we met. everyone has always said that it's impossible to change someone else, but we changed each other in so many ways, you would never imagine (and i'm not going into that all on here cuz that isnt really anyone's business except mine and his). and considering everything i've had to think about the last few days, i really need him to be near me right now and i know he cant so it makes it that much harder for me, and for him since he wants to help. there is only so much the internet can do for us in helping us get through the summer. i know we've only been apart for about a week, but the summer still has a long way to go for us. and if it's this bad now, i dont even want to imagine what's going to happen as time goes by.

 

[lavender]

 

[Willing and Unsure]

now the friends that i'm not getting along with too well at home... that is such a fun story....

my old friend and her boyfriend (both two of my closest friends ever) were dating for a long time and recently broke up. she wants me to get involved some in their break up by giving her advice and then gets mad because i wont do it. i dont want to be partial to one without knowing what's really going on (hearing one side of a story can give bad judgement for the advice that i might give). but she proceeds to get mad because she is pretty much trying to put me into a position i dont want to be in.
then, to top it all off, when i have had problems recently with a few things, she brushes me off like there's nothing wrong. i feel that she's taken me for granted and doesnt care too much for me as a person or my feelings. i have yet to tell her any of this and i dont intend to.

 

[Willing and Unsure]

and of course now, i'm faced with making a decision pretty much on my own that will affect the rest of my life, pretty much trying to ignore and get away from one of my closest friends, and deal with the distance thing with my best friend that makes me feel like it's killing me since it hurts so much to not have him around.

and that last feeling is enough to make me feel like it's going to be a long and lonely summer. even though we still talk online everynight. we set up a time that we both will be online everynight so we can talk to each other. and that does help some, just not enough right now.

 

[lavender]

 

[Willing and Unsure]

no, i dont have icq...

and that's the thing, she knows what went wrong in her relationship, she just dwells on it and keeps asking me even though she knows i wont give her an answer. and she knows i wont because i dont want to lose his friendship (he just doesnt ask me cuz he knows i wont answer). i dont mind listening, i really dont. but this time i will listen, i just wont give my opinion and she knows that.
and its not even really that she's ignoring my feelings and concerns, she laughs at them. she tells me that i'm just being petty and that i need to lighten up. it's not like this is exactly easy for me right now.

 

[lavender]

 

[Willing and Unsure]

that's my reason for trying to distance myself from her right now.... and its kind of hard to but i have to do it despite how much more miserable its going to make me feel in the end.

but i also think i should try and get some sleep (i have to watch my 4 year old nephew tomorrow). thanx for your ear/eyes lavender... i am feelin a little bit better now

 

[lavender]