Assisted Self Torture

[catalina_francisco]

As the renovations here continue, and the plans for our bedroom/playroom go through a variety of changes and additions I find my mind wandering (with more than a little help from a certain sadistic man I love and adore) to all things anticipated and desired, and some perhaps not so desired. One of those I find myself thinking much about is assisted self torture. Why do I think of it as 'assisted self torture'? I figure I am in a position where I can choose and be instrumental in delivering my own pain, though it is not of the by myself realm as much as having my wonderful Master place me in that position where I slowly begin to suffer more and must make the decision as to how it ends, what is the best or worst outcome. I welcome any delicious ideas or experiences people want to share.

The one which seems to occupy my thoughts most days of late is hands tied above my head and loosely suspended from the beam above. The delicious part is a metal clip with sharp teeth on clit, both labia, attached by a light chain to 2 more such clips on each nipple, the metal biting into the flesh painfully. A chain then runs up to the beam above, but more taut than the arm suspension, making me stand on tiptoes to avoid ripping the clips off painfully. As time passes I imagine there would be a battle inside my head as to which pain was the best/worst to endure, the one in muscle and foot to remain on tiptoe, or the one of giving in to the strain and lowering the heel to feel the clips tugging and tearing from the flesh. No wonder I have trouble sleeping some nights!!

Catalina

 

[Esclava]

<snip>As time passes I imagine there would be a battle inside my head as to which pain was the best/worst to endure, the one in muscle and foot to remain on tiptoe, or the one of giving in to the strain and lowering the heel to feel the clips tugging and tearing from the flesh. No wonder I have trouble sleeping some nights!!

Catalina

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

The masochist in me just rolled over and played dead so this thought wouldn't seek refuge in my subconscious mind whereby it would tourture me in my dreams...

Esclava

 

[silver_inari]

As the renovations here continue, and the plans for our bedroom/playroom go through a variety of changes and additions I find my mind wandering (with more than a little help from a certain sadistic man I love and adore) to all things anticipated and desired, and some perhaps not so desired. One of those I find myself thinking much about is assisted self torture. Why do I think of it as 'assisted self torture'? I figure I am in a position where I can choose and be instrumental in delivering my own pain, though it is not of the by myself realm as much as having my wonderful Master place me in that position where I slowly begin to suffer more and must make the decision as to how it ends, what is the best or worst outcome. I welcome any delicious ideas or experiences people want to share.

The one which seems to occupy my thoughts most days of late is hands tied above my head and loosely suspended from the beam above. The delicious part is a metal clip with sharp teeth on clit, both labia, attached by a light chain to 2 more such clips on each nipple, the metal biting into the flesh painfully. A chain then runs up to the beam above, but more taut than the arm suspension, making me stand on tiptoes to avoid ripping the clips off painfully. As time passes I imagine there would be a battle inside my head as to which pain was the best/worst to endure, the one in muscle and foot to remain on tiptoe, or the one of giving in to the strain and lowering the heel to feel the clips tugging and tearing from the flesh. No wonder I have trouble sleeping some nights!!

Catalina

*smile* My husband travels a good deal for his job. Actually, his job involves 100% travel on the weekends for most of the year. But there are a few times during the year when he is gone for a week at a time, like right now. Last year I did some redecorating while he was gone and he was pleased.

This year I've thought about installing a few eyehooks and such in the bedroom to facilitate play a bit better.

I'm guessing he would be even more thrilled about this years renovations. *sigh* I suppose it can be viewed as assisted self torture, as he's expressed an interest lately in whipping me until I'm in genuine tears. It makes me nervous, but thrilled in the same exciting fashion. The sound of the crop, the difference between a strike with the shaft of the crop as opposed to the tip.

*argh* talk about assisted torture, I'm getting myself worked up.

silver_inari

 

[caela]

note to self...no more reading catalina's threads...lol...girl i think you are going to have us all staying up late tossing and turning with you!!

 

[Netzach]

self bondage is one thing, self PREDICAMENT bondage is taking it to the next level all right.

 

[catalina_francisco]

Re: Re: Assisted Self Torture

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

The masochist in me just rolled over and played dead so this thought wouldn't seek refuge in my subconscious mind whereby it would tourture me in my dreams...

Esclava

LOL, sweet dreams.

Catalina

 

[catalina_francisco]

Re: Re: Assisted Self Torture

*smile* My husband travels a good deal for his job. Actually, his job involves 100% travel on the weekends for most of the year. But there are a few times during the year when he is gone for a week at a time, like right now. Last year I did some redecorating while he was gone and he was pleased.

This year I've thought about installing a few eyehooks and such in the bedroom to facilitate play a bit better.

I'm guessing he would be even more thrilled about this years renovations. *sigh* I suppose it can be viewed as assisted self torture, as he's expressed an interest lately in whipping me until I'm in genuine tears. It makes me nervous, but thrilled in the same exciting fashion. The sound of the crop, the difference between a strike with the shaft of the crop as opposed to the tip.

*argh* talk about assisted torture, I'm getting myself worked up.

silver_inari

We are hoping to add a few well placed hooks to the room. At the moment the room is about 18 m2, and we are going to likely remove a wall to make it bigger. Thought a whipping post might be good as well as at last we have a comfortable space for the bullwhip to be used.....is getting too cold for forest whippings!! ...and whippping to tears can be wonderful, especially if tears turn him on.

Catalina

 

[catalina_francisco]

note to self...no more reading catalina's threads...lol...girl i think you are going to have us all staying up late tossing and turning with you!!

Always good to have company.

Catalina

 

[catalina_francisco]

self bondage is one thing, self PREDICAMENT bondage is taking it to the next level all right.

Delicious ain't it? Thought about the addition of something under the heel which would add another pain dimension to giving in to temptation, but the thought that could be saved for another time.

Catalina

 

[silver_inari]

Re: Re: Re: Assisted Self Torture

We are hoping to add a few well placed hooks to the room. At the moment the room is about 18 m2, and we are going to likely remove a wall to make it bigger. Thought a whipping post might be good as well as at last we have a comfortable space for the bullwhip to be used.....is getting too cold for forest whippings!! ...and whippping to tears can be wonderful, especially if tears turn him on.

Catalina

It is getting a bit chilly for outdoor play now, at least where I am. It's rainy and miserable. *ick* I've totally stayed inside today drinking coffee at the coffeeshop.

I'm quite sure whipping to tears can be wonderful...its just a bt scary to think of something so harsh. Although that is part of the fun, I think. *sigh*

silver_inari

 

[catalina_francisco]

Bump?

 

[minx1]

Bump?

*laugh* very much a bump! thanks Cat I didn't know this existed....I feel I may be a regular here