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[SecretEpiphany]

"Magnum XL," Josh said nonchalantly. Then he started rubbing her back. "I know it's a little awkward, socially, but it would be nice to be introduced to your friend here. He seems like a..."

Paul cleared is throat, interrupting Josh.

And then the two guys started… arguing about the size of Josh’s penis? This was surreal. The guy who only agreed to sleep with her because she was doing his homework seemed irritated that she wasn’t introducing him to her friends, and now it sort of seemed like two guys were having a spat because of her. That didn’t make sense. Guys didn’t even notice her, much less fight over her.

Josh was tense beside her as he cut Paul off mid-sentence. "Of course you did. You've been glaring at me since I came in and flirting with my girlfriend. Which I really don't like." He squeezed her against his side.

Girlfriend?!? She couldn’t have said anything if she’d wanted to. He’d left her absolutely speechless.

But he still wasn’t through with Paul. "So what you're going to do is ring up the condoms, thank us for our patronage and never, ever mention this night to anyone. As far as you're concerned Nora is a lady and I had better not hear about you saying otherwise to anyone."

Paul rang them up without saying another word. Josh had called her his girlfriend. She couldn’t meet his gaze, so she stared at the black and white checkered linoleum on the floor while Josh finished the purchase and then she followed him out of the pharmacy without ever looking up. He had called her his girlfriend.

"I'm sorry about that back there Nora,” he said once they were outside. “I hope I didn't cause you any distress. I understand if you're not still in the mood. We shouldn't let him ruin our night, but," Josh sighed, "yeah."

She waited to answer him until they were both in the car. Josh had called her his girlfriend. She fiddled with the keys, but didn’t start the ignition. Staring at the dash, she said, “I didn’t know he’d be here… Paul, I mean. And… I’m sorry I didn’t introduce you. He’s my lab partner in chem and physics. He’s just… a friend, and he wouldn’t say anything—not like you implied, not about me. You didn’t have to threaten him.” Or lie to him by calling me your girlfriend.

“He’ll know that I’m not…” she let her voice trail off without finishing her sentence. That I’m not really your girlfriend. And she had a feeling that Paul would also know just how desperately she wished she was.

She started the car and pulled out of the lot, gripping the steering wheel so hard her knuckles were while. Where had all this craziness come from? She was a boring person. She had a boring life. She didn’t know how to function with all this… excitement. “As for ruining our night,” she glanced over at him then back to the road. “I don’t know… I don’t know if it’s ruined. I don’t know if I’m still in the mood. Right now, I don’t know anything.”

 

[Josheb]

“I didn’t know he’d be here… Paul, I mean. And… I’m sorry I didn’t introduce you. He’s my lab partner in chem and physics. He’s just… a friend, and he wouldn’t say anything—not like you implied, not about me. You didn’t have to threaten him." Well that explained that. Paul would have to be dealt with appropriately.

“He’ll know that I’m not…” she let her voice trail off without finishing her sentence. Josh was putting on his seatbelt when Nora stopped talking. Josh turned to look at her, but she started driving and seemed very intent on it.

“As for ruining our night,” she glanced over at him then back to the road. “I don’t know… I don’t know if it’s ruined. I don’t know if I’m still in the mood. Right now, I don’t know anything.”

"Sure you do," Josh said, reachig his hand up and resting it on Nora's shoulder. "You know I'm here. You know you're here. You know that if," douchebag, "stink-butt back there hadn't been back there I'd be driving back toyour place wth two fingers buried all the way up to the third knuckle inside you, rubbing your G-spot and trying to get you to squirt all over the dashboard."

Josh moved his hand back to his lap. He dropped his voice down to his baritone and said, "I still want to be inside you Nora. Even if we just go back to your place and let you ease all of me inside you. Then you can just lay on top of me and be full. How does that sound?"

 

[SecretEpiphany]

"Sure you do," Josh said, reaching his hand up and touching her shoulder. "You know I'm here. You know you're here. You know that if stink-butt back there hadn't been back there I'd be driving back to your place with two fingers buried all the way up to the third knuckle inside you, rubbing your G-spot and trying to get you to squirt all over the dashboard."

She let out a sharp breath. The dirty talk again… She still didn’t know if that squirting stuff was real, but just hearing him say stuff like that got her hot and bothered. He was being a little juvenile in his reference to Paul, but he was right. If she hadn’t run into Paul—a very clear reminder of her real life as a nerd and social non-entity—she would have bought the condoms in a rush and been all over him as soon as they got back in the car. As she recalled, she’d been pretty eager for him to put his fingers back inside her as they went into the pharmacy.

"I still want to be inside you Nora. Even if we just go back to your place and let you ease all of me inside you. Then you can just lay on top of me and be full. How does that sound?" he said in his deep, rumbly voice.

A shiver went through her and she whimpered. She could picture it—them. She would straddle him and he’d hold her hips while she eased down, taking him in just a little at a time so it wouldn’t hurt too bad. Just a little more, and a little more… Until she was…full. Oh god…her heart pounded and she was instantly wet.

This whole situation was still probably a stupid mistake. She’d have to see Paul in class tomorrow and that was going to be awkward. Once Josh had his paper, he’d disappear and she’d be right back to where she was before he showed up at her lunch table with his crazy proposition. But for once, for the first time in her life really, she was doing something exciting.

And she was going to embrace it, consequences be damned—at least for now. They were being careful—they’d bought condoms. She could do this. She could have fun. She would do it.

They were almost back to her apartment before she finally reached over and grabbed his hand. She held it to her lips and pressed a kiss to his palm, then lightly bit the side of his thumb.

“It sounds…” She put his hand over her breast, laying her hand on top and squeezing as she swallowed hard, “really, really good. I want to feel you inside me, to feel full… of you.”

 

[Josheb]

They were almost back to her apartment before she finally reached over and grabbed his hand. She held it to her lips and pressed a kiss to his palm, then lightly bit the side of his thumb. Josh suppressed a moan. It felt nice to have her lips on any part of his body but fingers, well, he started imagining her lips were on his cock without a conscious decision.

“It sounds…” She put his hand over her breast, laying her hand on top and squeezing, “really, really good. I want to feel you inside me, to feel full… of you.”

Who was this girl and what had happened to the shy Nora who needed to be coaxed, prompted and pushed just to think about saying what she wanted.

Josh let her fingers guide him and when she stopped squeezing he squeezed harder, enjoying the feel of her supple breast.

"Mmmm, good girl. I like it when you tell me what you want."

He continued to fondle her breasts as they came to a stop at her apartment.

Josh didn't stop fondling her when he said, "I want you to tell me what you want to do now Nora. Can you do that for me?"

 

[SecretEpiphany]

Josh was kneading her breasts, and when Nora came to a stop, she put the car in park and leaned her head back against the seat and closed her eyes. Just feeling his hands on her. She sighed.

"I want you to tell me what you want to do now Nora. Can you do that for me?" he asked.

Could she? She wanted to. And he’d just said that he liked it when she voiced her desires. Swallowing hard and keeping her eyes closed, she said, “I want…” The words weren’t coming. Why was this so hard? She couldn’t look at him. She kept her eyes closed tight.

“I want to go in… And I want you to take my clothes off. One piece at a time. I want your hands and mouth on me, on everywhere you uncover. And… And then…” She was so bad at this… Her sentences were choppy, her voice was wobbling and she sounded like a child. This wasn’t sexy. But it was all she could get out. “And I want to undress and touch and kiss you too.”

 

[Josheb]

“I want to go in… And I want you to take my clothes off. One piece at a time. I want your hands and mouth on me, on everywhere you uncover. And… And then... And I want to undress and touch and kiss you too."

Josh kissed her then, covering her mouth with his, letting uis tongue dance against her teeth until she opened her mouth and let him in. his right hand mpved off her left breast and in an instant was between her legs, under her dress, rubbing Nora's wet, naked pussy. Before he broke the kiss there was two fingers pressing inside her.

"That made me hot. You make me hot Nora." He was kissing her again urgently, needfully, his hand on her breast squeezing her harder, his fingers starting to pump in and out of her in a curve, his thumb trying to find her clit, "And I will take you inside and kiss you all over." He was kissing her again, his thumb finding her clit, rubbing on it a bit harder than normal, his fingers practically bouncing in and it of her. "But first I want to make you cum. Here, in the car, where anyone could see us. I want you to squirt all over the dashboard, or at least puddle in your seat." Josh kissed Nora again. When his fingers found her g-spot he really went to town, doubling his finfer speed and concentrating on the super senative rough spot.

 

[SecretEpiphany]

The lights from the parking lot were shining through her car windows. Yet she spread her legs wide for him, let him hike up her skirt, let him squeeze and fondle her breasts. And she rested her head against the back of her seat and breathed hard through her mouth as he shoved two fingers in and out of her.

Would her neighbors see? Would her landlord? What if they said something to her mother when she popped in for an unannounced visit? The well lit lot right outside her apartment wasn’t the best place to be doing this. But all her concerns drifted away when he pressed his mouth to hers again and kissed her like he could never get enough.

Faster, harder. Almost rough. His fingers pounded into her. And she liked it, wanted it, needed it. He made her mad for him. And when he said, “I want you to squirt all over the dashboard, or at least puddle in your seat,” she let out a guttural groan put her own hand on the breast he wasn’t squeezing.

She’d never squirted, and she really didn’t think she was going to start now, but she was going to come—hard. His fingertips had found that spot inside her that made her senseless and desperate. He created sparks that flew through her body in every direction every time he tapped on it, and she was writhing and whimpering and begging.

“Please,” she moaned, pulling hard on her nipple. “God, don’t stop. Please don’t stop, Josh…”

 

[Josheb]

"Don't stop what Nora? This?" His fingers werd buried to the hilt, deep in her pussy, his middle finger pressed up on her g-spot. The heel of his palm was squooshed down on her clit. his left hand had her right nipple between thumb and fore finger, squeezing as his other three fingers grasped her breast. Everything his hands and fingers were doing came to a complete and total stop as he kissed her again, deeper, hungrily drinking her essence, needing more of Nora than he could realize.

Before he broke the kiss Josh started up his hands, teasing her nipple, squeezing her breast, grinding her clit and rubbing back and forth across her g-spot. The freeze had been an eternity, or two seconds by any accurate clock.

"Because I don't think I could stop Nora. I need you to come for me, need your sweet juices all over my hand and then have you slyrp them clean. Cum for me Nora, and cum hard. Out here in public where anyone, no everyone can see us. Cum hard, feel the pleasure wash over your body. Right here, in your car. I want you to cum so damn hard everytime you get in your car the memory will be so strong you'll have to fight the urge not to masturbate!"

 

[SecretEpiphany]

It was the dirty talk that tipped her over. The thought of flashing back to this moment every time she got in her car. She came apart with a loud and guttural, “Ohhhhhhhh..” as she exploded from the inside out. Every muscle in her body tensed, relaxed, tensed again. Her legs jerked. Her back arched. And she had no control over any of it.

Somehow she grabbed him, got her arms around him and just clutched him to her. His head rested on her shoulder, his warm breath tickled her neck, and her fingers dug into his back every time she jerked with an aftershock. He had to be uncomfortable, twisted over the console, but she couldn’t let go. If anything, she squeezed him tighter, whimpering as her body slowly returned to normal.

When she could move, she buried her face in his hair, breathing him in, letting the silky strands tickle her nose. She rubbed his back, trying to soothe the places she’d clawed.

“How do you do this to me?” she whispered. “I don’t know how you do this to me. You make me lose my mind.”

 

[Josheb]

Just because a girl was orgasming is no reason not to keep fucking her. Or finger-fucking her in this case. When Nora had started jerking in orgasm Josh had redoubled his efforts. For his reward, Nora was still cumming. After the scream and the earthquake she was still having aftershocks.

In response to her question Josh pushed himself up off her slightly and repositioned. "That was just the start. You might have drenched the seat, I don't have time to check, we've got squirting to do and it's time for you to cum again." By repositioning her clit was now between the middle and forefinger of his left hand while his right fingers were still inside her, spread slightly so as not to hit her g-spot yet. His head was repositioned so his lips over her left nipple. He bent his head and sucked hard on her nipple. He grinned and looked up at Nora.

"The car orgasm is going to be a multiple orgasm." His left hand started swinging back-and-forth, her clitoris was at the apex of his fingers and started getting buffetted back and forth while his right hand started jerking, shaking at the wrist, his fingers inside her, jerking in and out of her pussy at a dizzying speed. His head descended and he began sucking on her tit in earnest.

 

[SecretEpiphany]

“Josh, no…” she moaned. She honestly didn’t think she could take any more. Her clit was so sensitive, she didn’t think she could stand for him to touch it right away.

He ignored her protest. “We’ve got squirting to do and it’s time for you to cum again.”

She shook her head and tried to push his hand away, but he wouldn’t budge. Instead he latched onto a nipple—right through her t-shirt and thin cotton bra. Her pebbled nipples were so hard they made distinct protrusions through the fabric and he caught one with his teeth, tugging and sucking.

With a pathetic whimper, she relaxed against the seat and gave in. She moved her hands from his wrists to his hair, stroked the sides of his face and neck.

He looked up at her and grinned. Then he moved his fingers and she whimpered pitifully. She had been reduced to a puddle of sensation, and she bordered on over-stimulation, but she couldn’t stop him.

“The car orgasm is going to be a multiple orgasm,” he said and grabbed a nipple again.

She didn’t have the strength to protest. And his mouth on her breast did feel good. It was just her clit that she didn’t think could handle any more contact.

But he didn’t touch it directly. He kept his fingers around it, moving it from side to side. His other hand finger fucked her, and within seconds she was writhing and bucking and crying out softly. The build up was fast since it was so soon after she’d come the first time.

He kept losing his mouthhold on her nipple, so she yanked her shirt up and slipped her right arm free of the sleeve. She didn’t take it all the way off, she was cognizant enough to realize they were still in a car in the parking lot, but she popped the front closure on her bra, cupped her right breast in her hand, and offered it up to him. The soft cotton of the t-shirt draped the other side of her body—the side closest to the driver’s window, the side where people were most likely to see in.

When his tongue touched her naked breast she moaned feverishly and buried her hands in his hair, needing to grab something. She pulled and tugged, hoping she wasn’t hurting him, but she couldn’t stop. And he couldn’t stop—she wouldn’t let him. She held him too tightly to her breast for that.

 

[Josheb]

Your mouth says no but your body says yes!

It was a stupid old saying, but this time it wad true. Nora had all but started to cum as soon as he touched her. And once he started sucking on her nipple she was the one who half stripped, undid her bra and now she was holding his head in place as he suckled on her tit. He had no idea this turned her on so much. She was still gyrating and jerking in her chair. Well, seat.

Shortly after Nora pulled him hard to her breast, Josh grinned on the nipple he was sucking. His fingers in her twat came together and found her g-spot, pistoning in and out of her faster then ever. His left hand started giving her clit a squeeze after every few shakes of his left hand.

He wanted to talk dirty to her, but he couldn't with his mouth held to her breast with a kung-fu grip. So instead he started to hum when he wasn't suckung as hard as he could.

 

[SecretEpiphany]

He started rubbing her g-spot again and she let go of his head. If she were laying down, she thought she would have gone completely limp. That spot was like a magic button inside her—instant ecstasy. Honestly, Josh could probably get her to agree to anything as long as he asked while he was doing this to her.

She moaned and shifted restlessly in the seat. This wasn’t the most comfortable position. The angle wasn’t as good as when they’d done this in the hall. At some point, they really should try a bed. But he was still kindling a fire—sending sparks throughout her body from that one spot.

She lifted her hips up and moved around, trying to find a way to lean back a little more, when suddenly she felt like she had to pee.

“Stop,” she groaned, pushing at his hands again. “Josh, really, we have to stop. I feel like I need to go to the bathroom.”

 

[Josheb]

"I feel like I need to go to the bathroom."

There was no end to how turned on Nora made him. He didn't expect her to squirt, not really, but she alresdy could cum in buckets so he thought maybe she could. Everything he'd read or watched about it said you had to work the g-spot hard. They'd been working it all night. Nora was like a little orgasm machine. He hoped she came with a huge squirt, drench the dashboard and steeringwheel. That would be awesome!

Josh grinned and redoubled his efforts, his fingers inside Nora moving faster and faster. He closed his fingers over her clit and started rubbing it faster and harder. Josh pulled his lips off of Nora's nipple and grinned.

"You're supposed to feel that way before you squirt. It's a good sign." Then Josh frowned. "Unless you mean number 2. That's just bad all over."

Before she answered Josh was back on her nipple, sucking and slurping away at the sensitive, hard bud.

 

[SecretEpiphany]

“What? No… How can that be a good sign?” she gasped.

He was making her crazy with his mouth and hands, but she squirmed against the seat, trying to get back in the position she’d be in before—the position where she didn’t feel like she had to pee. No matter what he said, thinking she might pee on him was not a good sign.

His fingers were bunched over her clit, which was still super sensitive from before. It wasn’t painful for him to touch it, it didn’t hurt, exactly. But it wasn’t the sweet pleasure she’d gotten used to over the last few hours either. It was like supercharged jolts of energy randomly shot through her, like little shocks.

But the way he was rubbing her g-spot kind of balanced that. It gave her that limp, I’m-at-your-mercy feeling, but now she was paranoid about peeing, so she couldn’t relax.

Her body was giving him all the signs that she was about to come. She was dripping wet. His fingers squished and sloshed as they drove into her. Her hips and legs twitched and bucked. Needy sounds tore from her throat, but mentally, she didn’t think she could do it now. She couldn’t relax and let herself go.

She pushed at his hands. “Josh, really. Let’s go in. I’ll pee really fast and we can finish this. Maybe we can even make it to the bed this time.”

 

[Josheb]

She pushed at his hands. “Josh, really. Let’s go in. I’ll pee really fast and we can finish this. Maybe we can even make it to the bed this time.”

When he felt her hands trying to push his off her he relented. With a sigh Josh sat upright in his own seat. He looked at Nora askance and took in a deep breath, holding it. There were a dozen things he wanted to say. He knew what he was doing. It was supposed to feel that way. This isn't the memory I wanted you... This wasn't how the memory should end. He let the breath out slowly.

"Ok. If you're sure. Oh and leave the bra in the car. When I said no panties I meant no bra too. Easy access to your fantastic tits is a must."

Josh grabbed up the pharmacy bag and shook it. "And figure out how you want
our first time to go. Position and place and
what-not."

And with that Josh opened his door and git out, walking toward Nora's apartment.

 

[SecretEpiphany]

Nora sighed as she watched Josh walk away from the car, away from her. She’d aggravated him by insisting they stop. With a shake of her head, she slid her bra off and pulled her t-shirt back down, making sure she was covered. She didn’t see the point of leaving the bra in the car, but she wouldn’t do anything else to tick him off.

She locked the car and hurried to unlock the apartment door, not wanting to keep him waiting. They seemed to be stuck in this cycle of explosive sexuality followed by uncertainty, misunderstandings, and lack of communication. But then, they didn’t really know each other, so that explained a lot. She wanted to know him though.

She unlocked the door and followed him inside, catching his hand and leaning in close to him. “I’m sorry. Don’t be upset or anything, okay? It just felt… I didn’t want…” She was making a mess of this. “I’m going to run to the restroom. Then I’ll meet you in… the bedroom? Is that okay?”

She darted down the hall and into the bathroom. Where she sat on the toilet for several minutes, but couldn’t pee. She even got up and turned on the sink, hoping the sound of running water would help, but she still couldn’t. What the hell? In the car she’d suddenly felt like she was going to pee all over Josh, and wouldn’t that be a great way to endear herself to him. Shit.

Finally she gave up and went into the bedroom where Josh was laying on the bed. She glanced at the pharmacy bag on the nightstand and grinned at him before crawling into bed and stretching out beside him. She really hoped he wasn’t still mad about her calling a halt to their fun in the car. They could have fun now. Maybe he’d forget all about it.

“Hi,” she whispered, trailing her fingertip along his jaw to his chin, then down his neck. "I seem to remember an earlier discussion about orgasm fairness where it became obvious that I was way ahead in that department. I'm even more ahead now, so I think it's your turn." She tried to look confident and sexy while she said it, but she wasn't sure she succeeded.

 

[Josheb]

“Hi,” she whispered, trailing her fingertip along his jaw to his chin, then down his neck. "I seem to remember an earlier discussion about orgasm fairness where it became obvious that I was way ahead in that department. I'm even more ahead now, so I think it's your turn." She tried to look confident and sexy while she said it, but she wasn't sure she succeeded.

Josh took a deep breath and let it out slow. He was going to ask her how her pee went. Actually he had considered going into the bathroom and eating her out, but that would have been kind of weird. But all that was abolished by Nora's body pressed up against him, he could feel her hard nipples through her shirt and the warmth of her sex through her skirt. He was turned on again, his body shivering slightly as she ran her finger down his chin and neck.

Josh let out a breath he didn't know he was holding. He was still looking at the ceiling when he said, "That sounds nice Nora. What does milady have in mind?"

 

[SecretEpiphany]

He didn’t look at her, but he didn’t rebuff her either. She guessed that was a good sign. She rubbed his chest, starting just below his neck and working her way down in steady circles. Over his pecs, over his ribs, over his abs, until she was rubbing his belly above the waistline of his pants.

“I don’t really have a plan,” she said and slid her hand under the hem of his t-shirt and upwards to the base of his neck, where she started the whole massage over again on bare skin. When she had worked her way back to the waistline of his pants she pushed his shirt up, baring his stomach, and pressed a wet kiss just above his belly button.

She looked up at him. “We can do whatever you want.” She slid her tongue over his warm skin again, letting the tip dip into his naval, then swirl over the skin right above the button of his pants. “As long as you don’t stay mad at me.”

She caught the belt loop just to the right of his fly in her teeth and tugged.

 

[Josheb]

Josh sighed. "I'm not mad, I just..." The words didn't come to him. The greatest actor in the known world, ok maybe in a 50 mile radius, and he was fumbling for words. Josh shook his head. He was done with words.

He sat up slightly and took off his shirt. Then he lay back and lifted his hips, pushing his jeans down to his knees. He hadn't put on his boxers, so his uncut cock sprang into view. It was half hard, erect but with the foreskin still covering the cockhead.

"What I want," is to fuck you into unconsciousness and watch my
cum leak out of your pussy while you sleep, "is for you to explore my body, to familiarize yourself. Touch, taste and smell whatever you want to. Pretend I'm not here." And with that Josh draped his t-shirt over his face, put his head on a pillow and tried to relax.

 

[SecretEpiphany]

Nora stared at his t-shirt covered head in shock for a few seconds. She’d been mustering up all her courage, trying to enact one of the scenes from one of her erotic short stories. She’d read the story about make-up sex numerous times. As an apology to her husband a woman gave him a full body massage with her hands and mouth and then a blow job. Nora didn’t really know how to give a blow job and the story hadn’t given detailed instructions, but she’d been prepared to figure it out. The part with her teeth on the belt loop was supposed to turn him on. Reading about it had turned her on.

But Josh had just covered up his face and flopped back like he could care less what she did. ‘Pretend I’m not here’?!?! What kind of response was that when she was making an effort, putting herself out there to stretch her limits? Did he think this was easy for her? His attitude was bullshit.

And while he’d said he wasn’t mad, he obviously was. He was practically pouting for god’s sake.

With an exaggerated sigh, she sat up. When he still didn’t move, she reached up and snatched the t-shirt away and tossed it across the room.

“You just what?” she asked pointedly. “You said you weren’t mad, you just… what? Finish it. Because you obviously are still pissed or you wouldn’t cover up your head and tell me to pretend you’re not here. I may not be a beauty queen, but even Miss America would feel like a dog if her boyfriend covered up his face so he didn’t have to look at her while she was trying to turn him on. So spit it out. You just what? Tell me.”

 

[Josheb]

"I JUST WANTED TO GIVE YOU PLEASURE!" he roared at Nora. "Duh, what have I been doing all night? Did you know there's a valve or flap or something that cuts out the bladder? You can't pee during sex," Josh's rant came to and end with a ragged sigh. He let out a slow breath and wasn't looking at her when he said, "But you can squirt. It feels alot like peeing, or so they say. I definitely feel similar pressures when I come. Not two seconds before you pushed my hands away you were praising how I always know what to do to make you crazy."

Josh looked up and smiled. "Some of the stuff I want to do with you is new, different from anything you've done before. So when you want to back off, I'm gonna back off. I respect you, ok? Like I said, I wasn't mad. Just a little dissappointed, but that's ok."

He sighed and pointed toward the t-shirt. "As for that, well, imagine it was a blindfold. Would that have been ok? I wanted you to explore my body, to really get to know it without me, I don't know, pressuring you. I want you to be comfortable with my body, and that takes time. And sometimes I like not being able to see what you're doing, what you're going to touch next and with what. You could rub your pussy on my legs, stomach ir face, or press your tits up against me, or whatever. Haven't you ever just wanted to have a guy in front of you so you can explore him, at your own leisure?"

Josh shrugged and smiled. He didn't know what else to say.

 

[SecretEpiphany]

The fight went out of her in a woosh. Once again, she’d been stupid. She wished she could just shrink into herself and disappear. This was probably tedious for him. She’d falsely advertised that he’d get a weekend of wild sex for his end of the deal, but she didn’t know anything about wild sex. Or multiple orgasms. Or squirting. Or blindfolds. Well, she’d learned a lot tonight, but a few hours knowledge didn’t compensate for a lifetime of ignorance. Erotic stories could only take a girl so far in the experience department.

She’d been pretty darn proud of herself for being so assertive just now, and her confidence had wilted when she thought he didn’t want to deal with her. She wished they understood each other better.

With a sigh, she rubbed her hands over her face. “I’m sorry.” She couldn’t look at him when she said the rest. “I didn’t… I didn’t know about the peeing sensation. I just knew I felt like I needed to go to the bathroom and the last thing I wanted to do was pee on you. But I guess you’re right. Because I couldn’t… you know… go. Not once I was in the bathroom.” She couldn’t believe she was telling him whether she could pee or not. When she’d imagined sex and relationships—and she’d done a lot of imagining—conversations like this, with all their awkwardness, weren’t part of the scene.

Sex took a lot of work, apparently. And a lot of communication.

She got off the bed and rummaged in her dresser, finally pulling out a white satin sleep mask that had been in a spa gift basket. She’d never used it.

She tossed it to Josh. Then she walked to the foot of the bed and grabbed the ankles of his jeans, pulling them the rest of the way off so that he was completely naked on the bed.