Anorexia, Bulimia, and various other "disorders"

[Kajira Callista]

How many D/s type people suffer from or have suffered from or like suffering from these types of "disorders"?









Just wondering

 

[h_i_s]

i'm greatful to be able to say .. "Not i.". Any eating disorder is a horrible experience/existance for those who do suffer from them.

i do not, and have not ever suffered from any of eating/weight disorders. However, i have been questioned many many times, by friends (never family though, they know my history of the many attempts when i was younger with trying to gain a few pounds) & especially health care professionals (general physicians, gynocologists, midwifes, etc ect) of the possibility. Just having others ASK .. has been very frustrating. Those who know me and have witnessed my eating habits first hand, KNOW without doubt .. my slim figure is a result of genetics, & a high metabolism & not due to an eating disorder.

 

[graceanne]

Not me. But in highschool I was borderline anorexic. I only ate one small meal a day, and that's cause my mom made me. My best friend was anorexic. After I got together with K it stopped being an issue. Now I barely eat, but that's cause food makes me so ill.

 

[canadiancutie]

How many D/s type people suffer from or have suffered from or like suffering from these types of "disorders"?









Just wondering

I've done it, but I don't consider what I did suffering from a disorder, and it wasn't for too long. Throwing up or not eating for a few weeks before something you need to look hot for works pretty well.

 

[CutieMouse]

I controlled food as a teen because there wasn't anything else I could control. (had a rough couple of years there...) I think my lowest was eating about 4-5 ounces of food a day, and my weight got down to 117#/size 4- on a 5'8" frame. I'm not sure I'd go so far as to say it was anorexia, but it wasn't pleasant.

I've not done that with food since I was about 18 (33 now), but I must admit some days I still negotiate with myself as to when/what I'll eat. The difference is that now the worst I do is postpone a meal by a bit and make myself eat more salad than pasta. LOL (I've only got about 20-25# to go to get back to my "normal" pre-birthing 5 children weight. I've lost 45# over the last 2 years, and feel rather motivated about that last 25. )

 

[marieR19]

Holy crap, story of my life. Technically I've been "recovered" (doctors say) for like 3, 3 1/2 years now. And I honestly hate that people say that, say I "used to be" anorexic/bulimic, because although I don't purge or starve anymore, every single day I still battle with that mindset, that "I hate myself and my body so much that I want to hurt it and punish it and feel that weakness" mindset. I still can't try on form-fitting clothes without getting upset, can't try on bathing suits without crying and cutting myself. I was anorexic for almost five years, bulimic for about 3 years (while I was anorexic; mom found out, so I started eating 'cause when she made me and then purging). Anyways, I could ramble on and on, but I'll stop.

Marie

 

[graceanne]

Holy crap, story of my life. Technically I've been "recovered" (doctors say) for like 3, 3 1/2 years now. And I honestly hate that people say that, say I "used to be" anorexic/bulimic, because although I don't purge or starve anymore, every single day I still battle with that mindset, that "I hate myself and my body so much that I want to hurt it and punish it and feel that weakness" mindset. I still can't try on form-fitting clothes without getting upset, can't try on bathing suits without crying and cutting myself. I was anorexic for almost five years, bulimic for about 3 years (while I was anorexic; mom found out, so I started eating 'cause when she made me and then purging). Anyways, I could ramble on and on, but I'll stop.

Marie

I've actually known a lot of anorexic/bulemics and quite often they prefer not to eat, but when they get bullied into eating, they become bulemic.

 

[TaintedB]

I've done it, but I don't consider what I did suffering from a disorder, and it wasn't for too long. Throwing up or not eating for a few weeks before something you need to look hot for works pretty well.

Careful there kiddo. What you're describing are the very early stages of these disorders. It's how they start.

I tried very hard to become bulemic when I was younger, but I have a good gag reflex, I guess, because no matter how far I stuck my finger down my throat and how vigorously I wiggled it, I couldn't raise my gorge. Maybe there are drug ways that work for this? Only one I've found is huge amounts of cheap liquor, and that's not a plesant way to get rid of one's dinner. :/

I also flirted with anexoria in my early 20s but that was largely because my boyfriend at the time had a horror-hatred of overweight women. He'd see a fat woman in a public place, a complete stranger he'd never met, and he'd start having all these angry fantasies about how evil she was--and he was convinced they were true! The anexoria wasn't anything that came from within though, just a desire to please him, so luckily it didn't stick with me.

 

[curiousjen]

I've always had a healthy appetite, although when I was a teenager I used to binge eat. Owen put a stop to that and now I eat 99% healthily(I lose one percent for the ocasional sneaked chocolate bar).

My best friend had a severe eating disorder and I got swept up in that for a little while, hording and binge eating lots of junk food etc. I have a very sweet tooth and I could eat my weight in chocolate. I liked the sugar high and the rush that it gave me. It never got to the disorder stage with me though, there were just better drugs to fuck around with than food, in my book. I think it was hell for her though, trying to stop.

 

[FurryFury]

I hate food!

I love food!

Talk food to me baybee!

Now!

LOL!

What was the question again?

People have made accusations.

Don't hate me just because I seem thin.

I would never ever throw up on purpose though. Hate throwing up.

LOL!

 

[graceanne]

Well, I used to skinny dip. Now I chunky dunk.

 

[FurryFury]

Well, I used to skinny dip. Now I chunky dunk.

Hi Graceanne!

That's funny! LOL!

But now, come on beautiful girl we can see your avatar.

*hugs*

Fury

 

[FurryFury]

I controlled food as a teen because there wasn't anything else I could control. (had a rough couple of years there...) I think my lowest was eating about 4-5 ounces of food a day, and my weight got down to 117#/size 4- on a 5'8" frame. I'm not sure I'd go so far as to say it was anorexia, but it wasn't pleasant.

I've not done that with food since I was about 18 (33 now), but I must admit some days I still negotiate with myself as to when/what I'll eat. The difference is that now the worst I do is postpone a meal by a bit and make myself eat more salad than pasta. LOL (I've only got about 20-25# to go to get back to my "normal" pre-birthing 5 children weight. I've lost 45# over the last 2 years, and feel rather motivated about that last 25. )

Hi CutieMouse

I totally understand what you mean by this. I screwed up and did not see your response before I posted here. I'm sorry.

*hugs*

Fury

Holy crap, story of my life. Technically I've been "recovered" (doctors say) for like 3, 3 1/2 years now. And I honestly hate that people say that, say I "used to be" anorexic/bulimic, because although I don't purge or starve anymore, every single day I still battle with that mindset, that "I hate myself and my body so much that I want to hurt it and punish it and feel that weakness" mindset. I still can't try on form-fitting clothes without getting upset, can't try on bathing suits without crying and cutting myself. I was anorexic for almost five years, bulimic for about 3 years (while I was anorexic; mom found out, so I started eating 'cause when she made me and then purging). Anyways, I could ramble on and on, but I'll stop.

Marie

Hi Marie,

I'm sorry I didn't read this thread completely before I posted.

*hugs*

It's difficult to get away from food when it's all around you.

I'm really don't have an eating disorder. People no longer follow me around with cheeseburger's bitching at me.

I do have a distorted body image just in the last few week I discovered I was buying pants and shirts at least two sizes too big. I still made it all look good but I was honestly puzzled as to why they seemed to hang off of me so.

I have to laugh or I'll cry.

Fury

 

[sd34]

i'm greatful to be able to say .. "Not i.". Any eating disorder is a horrible experience/existance for those who do suffer from them.

i do not, and have not ever suffered from any of eating/weight disorders. However, i have been questioned many many times, by friends (never family though, they know my history of the many attempts when i was younger with trying to gain a few pounds) & especially health care professionals (general physicians, gynocologists, midwifes, etc ect) of the possibility. Just having others ASK .. has been very frustrating. Those who know me and have witnessed my eating habits first hand, KNOW without doubt .. my slim figure is a result of genetics, & a high metabolism & not due to an eating disorder.

Wow i have same problem even though i am male i am real skinny but i eat fine and am too lazy and stuff to lift weights.

 

[marieR19]

People no longer follow me around with cheeseburger's bitching at me.

Thanks for the hug. And that brings back so many memories. lol I mean back then it wasn't funny at all, but now when I look back on it... My friends literally following me around the school courtyard trying to get me to eat, actually taking turns watching me so that I didn't sneak off to the bathroom... yeah. It almost ruined friendships, because I was so frustrated that they were trying to stop me, but it really did show how wonderful those friends were. ... Those few friends that stayed around, anyways.

Marie

 

[FurryFury]

Thanks for the hug. And that brings back so many memories. lol I mean back then it wasn't funny at all, but now when I look back on it... My friends literally following me around the school courtyard trying to get me to eat, actually taking turns watching me so that I didn't sneak off to the bathroom... yeah. It almost ruined friendships, because I was so frustrated that they were trying to stop me, but it really did show how wonderful those friends were. ... Those few friends that stayed around, anyways.

Marie

Hi Marie!

You can get a hug from me anytime at all!

Like I said, I'd rather laugh than cry. I have more faith the laughter will eventually stop than that the tears will. Ya know?

*hugs and hugs*

Fury

 

[SteamyChik]

Cutting or self harm

I'm a cutter and have been for a long time. I don't really see it as a disorder, it fits right in with bdsm However, I do have a food problem which is s l o w l y melting away, thank goodness.

 

[psyche1973]

I'm a (recovering) cutter too. Although *I* don't see it as a problem, my husband does, plus I've got a little girl and I know as a mom I wouldn't want her cutting on herself everytime she got a little down, so I have to be a good role model. I also have some issues with compulsive (binge) overeating that I've got a handle on, but it's always going to be a problem. I have to remember that there's a little girl in my world who wants to be just like me, so I have to show her the best version of me at all times.

 

[shayne_mayhem]

every single day I still battle with that mindset, that "I hate myself and my body so much that I want to hurt it and punish it and feel that weakness" mindset. I still can't try on form-fitting clothes without getting upset, can't try on bathing suits without crying and cutting myself.

Hey I know how you feel. Me, too.
Only I'm too fat and lazy to even HAVE an eating disorder, so the self hate just propagates itself. It's terrible, but I guess from a psychological standpoint, it's not as bad as actually *doing* something about your poor self-image, such as starving yourself or bingeing and purging. Sometimes my emotional brain wishes I could be anorexic.

 

[Kajira Callista]

Hey I know how you feel. Me, too.
Only I'm too fat and lazy to even HAVE an eating disorder, so the self hate just propagates itself. It's terrible, but I guess from a psychological standpoint, it's not as bad as actually *doing* something about your poor self-image, such as starving yourself or bingeing and purging. Sometimes my emotional brain wishes I could be anorexic.

isn't being "fat and lazy" an eating disorder? Isnt not doing anything because you self hate just as bad as b&p or anorexia?

 

[madeleine noir]

isn't being "fat and lazy" an eating disorder? Isnt not doing anything because you self hate just as bad as b&p or anorexia?

Not officially, and possibly.