.... and I thought a Dom would save me

[unfoundiamond]

I have taken a short break from my postings here, and in my absence I have learned so much about power play and submissives...

Most of you wont rememeber a post I made a long time ago about male submissives, and my lack of both understanding and expirience with them, I basically had my cyber-ass handed to me by the other posters/regulars for my post... and while ill admit it was a little presumptive and offbase, you better believe life had the oppertuity to throw a male sbmissive in my path that both taught me, and made me realize things, I had never had the life expirience or privledge of learning.

The one thing that has stuck with me the most is: though we may call the mainstream world "vanilla"... there are hundreds if not thousands of us out there that are not priviledged to the self awareness we are, not to say they arent submissive, or dominant.... and not to say they dont live their lives being true to their natural tendancies to shift to one side or the other throughout their lives.... but many people are who they are, with no actual knowledge or awareness of what it means or why they are who they are... (which also includes the sad fact they also dont know enough about themselves to enjoy what they like, the way we do)

I worked side by side with one of the most submissive (not weak, not dishonorable, not unchivalrious, just submissive) men I have ever seen or met.... and he has helped me to see and learn why the comments I made and the opinions I formed where based on the mainstream brainwashing we all suffer as a child comming up in this world where the media and whoever else force feeds us a idea about what a person should be based on sex...

the sad thing/good thing is the revelation I had,

I had been taught to expect based on sex, a certain bank of behaviors and expectations, (a man should be dominant, masculine, sadistic) but at the same time, I dont allow anyone to force me to be what is typically expected of a woman... I am a socially dominant, independent, leader... and if someone told me I couldnt be (because of my sex) I wouldnt stand for it, so.... why didnt i see that I was doing to another demographic of people, what I wouldnt tolerate for myself...

(mind you I am one of the few who hold themself to the standard of behavior they expect from others, I *try* to treat other as id like to be treated)

I am glad I had someone to show me I was wrong,

He saved me, as submissive and docile as he is, he saved me from what could have cause the domino effect to cause me to take myself out of the running in this game called life...

As dominant as I could ever have considered myself, a male submissive who to this day doesnt know what that means/is/entails to be submissive, saved me from loosing it all, (including my life and mind)

and here I was waiting for a Dom...

Life is a wild ride.

 

[notalwaysweak]

What a wonderful, positive experience. I'm happy for you.

 

[madetotakeit]

*double post~stupid browser...*

 

[madetotakeit]

Glad to hear you've had some positivity while you were gone.

We never know who we meet in our lives that will effect us. I tend to think that if we leave expectations alone as much as possible we can learn something from everyone we meet. Sometimes it isn't who we are looking so hard for that can offer what we really need. I'm glad to see you left yourself open to that possibility. It would have been a shame if you had missed out by assuming he had nothing to offer. Appreciate him for the lessons he taught you. He will always be an important person you encountered in your life because in a way he changed who you are.

Good to see you back safe and sound.

 

[shy slave]

There is a great deal to reflect on in your post UD.

Thank you for sharing,

madetotakeit comments remind me of a book called 'Five People You Meet In Heaven' by Mitch Albom which is about the lives which affect us, or those we affect and yet we never knew it at the time.

 

[shysilverwing]

That was a thoughtful well written introspection, thank you for that. I'm glad you became a little more enlightened, and by sharing it with us helped us.

 

[Netzach]

That's cool.

One of the strongest arguments for pre-programming I suppose is the fact that I felt like I never *got* that social "memo" or if I did, I had no choice or ability to comply with it. My attractions have overridden it, much to my chagrin at times.