A time to reflect

[Ladybird]

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/PURPLE.GIF About this time last year, on the Aussie thread, Blue Dolphin wrote a couple of paragraphs reflecting on the year almost gone. Most of us soon followed suit. What started as a very sensitive post by BD, soon became almost therapeutic for many of us.

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/PINK.GIF So here it is, a thread for you to look back on the year, and reflect on all that has happened. You may find it helpful in coming to terms with some things.

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/BLUE.GIF To get the ball rolling... I'll go first.



~ While last year was one of change, 2002 has been a year of personal growth for me.

I've lived 2002 as a single woman, relying on myself to achieve things that I want and need. I've learnt that I enjoy living alone, without the pressure of living up to someone elses expectations. My confidence has soared as I've achieved much more this year on my own, than I have previous years, with a partner. I've learnt what it's like to be happy.

As well as that, our family has grown. In June, my daugher gave birth to a beautiful little boy. She and her hubby were thrilled.. I took one look at him, and almost cried for joy. He's a beautiful baby that has given us all so much love.

Then, just a few weeks later in July, my daughter in law delivered a precious little girl. She and my son were estactic. Little Imogene is one of the prettiest baby's that I've seen, I love her very much.

So 2002 has seen a lot of personal growth for me, and physical growth for our family as my two grandchildren join us. All in all, it's been a good year.

 

[tonitits]

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/PURPLE.GIF About this time last year, on the Aussie thread, Blue Dolphin wrote a couple of paragraphs reflecting on the year almost gone. Most of us soon followed suit. What started as a very sensitive post by BD, soon became almost therapeutic for many of us.

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/PINK.GIF So here it is, a thread for you to look back on the year, and reflect on all that has happened. You may find it helpful in coming to terms with some things.

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/BLUE.GIF To get the ball rolling... I'll go first.



~ While last year was one of change, 2002 has been a year of personal growth for me.

I've lived 2002 as a single woman, relying on myself to achieve things that I want and need. I've learnt that I enjoy living alone, without the pressure of living up to someone elses expectations. My confidence has soared as I've achieved much more this year on my own, than I have previous years, with a partner. I've learnt what it's like to be happy.

As well as that, our family has grown. In June, my daugher gave birth to a beautiful little boy. She and her hubby were thrilled.. I took one look at him, and almost cried for joy. He's a beautiful baby that has given us all so much love.

Then, just a few weeks later in July, my daughter in law delivered a precious little girl. She and my son were estactic. Little Imogene is one of the prettiest baby's that I've seen, I love her very much.

So 2002 has seen a lot of personal growth for me, and physical growth for our family as my two grandchildren join us. All in all, it's been a good year.

My 2002 was a year of mix emotions:

I came to Lit and met many great friends and learned and experimented some with my sexuality. I never really thought of myself is a very sexual person. I loved sex, but did not really know much about my own sexuality before coming to lit and lurking and posting and getting to know so many wonderful people.


I met and feel in love with a wonderful man, something that I NEVER thought would happen to me. Even though we have not been able to meet face to face yet. I know that our love will last and survive anything or any obstacle. And we will be together when the time is right.

In October my world came crashing down around me. I lost my mom and did not know what I would do without her. I miss her deeply, but even through losing her, I realize like she told me so many times before, that I am a survivor, and though it is not easy I am getting by. I have the love of my family, something I did not always think that I had. I was always told that I was strong and I could handle anything. I did not believe it. But like I was taught as a child God does not put anything on us that we are not able to handle with his help. I guess it was my time to be tested.

So in a way I guess this was definitely a year of growth for me, too. I am looking forward to a great year in 2003 and hope to grow next year also, but hopefully, not in as painful a way as this year has been. I am so ready for 2002 to be over!

 

[Hornymama]

As I look back on the year 2002 I can honestly say it was a good year for me. I am surrounded by a family who loves me very much..not just husband and children but neices, nephews and also friends.
I have been on Lit sinece June and have met some wonderful people whom I would like to call my friends.

My nephew and his wife are expecting their second child in feb.....They have a beautiful 2 yr, old daughter

My daughter has moved out and id a live-in-babysitter for a wonderful couple with 2 little boys. She got all her credits for high school last week so she has finished school..Will actually graduate in May.
I am very proud of her.

i have learnt a lot a things about myself which i think I was afraid to admit before...But i have realized this is me.....i am who i am and I'm proud to be this person...I learnt i must be happy with who I am in order to be happy in general.It takes a lot of work but I'm getting there.....

so if 2003 is as good to me as 2002 i have no complaints...
I hope everyone has a very Happy New Year!

God Bless each and everyone of you......

 

[Ladybird]

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/RED.GIF My goodness Toni, you have had a lot happen to you this year. Have you ever noticed how things tend to balance out? On one hand, you've 'met' a wonderful man, and love him dearly, while on the other, your mother passed on to her next life.

The balance is there... the higher the highs, the lower the lows. It's nature.

Love and hugs to you hon. Seems we both have a lot to look forward too in 2003.

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/YELLOW.GIF Hi Hornymama.. it's great to her that you've been surrounded by happiness this year. You've also had some personal growth, and that's a good thing. Someone once said to me, "if you continue doing things the same way, you always get the same results." In other words, if we want change, we must instigate it ourselves.

Happy New Year to you too... I'm sure it'll be a good 'un.

 

[Hornymama]

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/RED.GIF My goodness Toni, you have had a lot happen to you this year. Have you ever noticed how things tend to balance out? On one hand, you've 'met' a wonderful man, and love him dearly, while on the other, your mother passed on to her next life.

The balance is there... the higher the highs, the lower the lows. It's nature.

Love and hugs to you hon. Seems we both have a lot to look forward too in 2003.

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/YELLOW.GIF Hi Hornymama.. it's great to her that you've been surrounded by happiness this year. You've also had some personal growth, and that's a good thing. Someone once said to me, "if you continue doing things the same way, you always get the same results." In other words, if we want change, we must instigate it ourselves.

Happy New Year to you too... I'm sure it'll be a good 'un.

Thank you Ladybird.....I hope so..it seems as you get older it's much easier to admit things about yourself and youre feelings that you used to be ashamed to admit...it's time to grow and expand....And I'm looking very forward to the ride...

 

[Bandit58]

Whew this year has been quite a rollercoaster for me. I started a part time job, the first paid work I'd had since my marriage. In March I told my husband of 23 years that I'd had enough......we didn't have anything in common apart from the kids and the farm, and I hadn't been happy for a very long time. I moved out a month later leaving my 14yr old daughter with him (her choice, she is a farm kid through and through and wouldn't have been happy living in the village with me).

Three weeks later (May 10 to be exact ) I met a lovely man online and we fell in love. He's married and still with his wife but it's all going downhill and was before I met him. I've learned to drive long distances and in places I've never been before. I've discovered how wonderful making love is with someone who is kind and caring and loving. I had my first orgasm with a partner, learned to suck cock and experienced anal sex for the first time I bought my first vibrator. I admitted my bisexuality to myself and to my lover (and a couple of close female friends, who don't treat me any differently than they used to). I got a couple of tattoos, and pierced my ears 3 more times I learned to cope with living alone, and with the loneliness of not being able to be with the man I love - yet.

I've gained confidence and self-esteem. I go out and have a few drinks with friends, something I never used to do when I was married. I can't believe how quiet and shy and inhibited I used to be, my husband had over the years managed to take away my joy in living, and I didn't even realise it until I left. I've lived alone for just over 8 months now and I am still amazed with the fact that I can do what I want when I want.....I'm looking forward next year to sharing my life with someone who wants me to be myself, who loves me for me and wants me to be happy. And if I'm with him then I definitely will be

I started coming to Lit at the beginning of September. In that short time I've made several wonderful friends and had lots of support. Much love to everyone

 

[Ladybird]

Whew this year has been quite a rollercoaster for me.

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/PINK.GIF Boy oh boy, it's been quite a rollercoaster ride for you, hasn't it Bandit. But look at how far you've travelled, and the changes that have taken place.

Looks like 2003 is a year to look forward to hon. I'm very happy for you.

 

[tigerjen]

2002 was a year of up and down feelings, but also
growth........

First, my job. There have been many chances (as many of
you know) where I work over the past year, esp. since
the summer, esp. w/ new staff coming in. I had to deal
with that, plus w/ the fact that I have been there 5 years
and only make $11.91 an hour........this and other factors
have prompted me to look for another job, if not another
career........still no luck on the job front but hopefully 2003
will bring better luck in the job world.......I want to thank
those who stood by me and listened to me and gave me
their shoulders to cry on when I was frustrated as hell
with my job........

Second, I have expanded my social life outside of cushy
Fairfield, CT and have had the good fortune to meet people
from elsewhere in CT, also in the NYC area, and elsewhere in
the New England area at different get togethers and meetings.
Many of the people whom I met are some of the most wonderful
individuals and I hope to see them again, and to also meet
more new people in the next year.

Thirdly, 2002 was the year of the Playground being "born"........
and while I was peeved about the "split" of the original personals
board at first, after a while, things worked out and gelled
together, and have not only kept in daily contact w/ people whom
I knew before the "split" but also met new people as the Playground
grew........and no matter what thread I see person or persons on.....
esp. those who I interact w/ on a daily basis, it puts a smile on
my face

Happy 2003, and may next year be one of peace, love, happiness,
and hope!


tigerjen

 

[~Dream~]

wow bandit hun

i swear i was gonna start my post off the same as far as the rollercoaster thing goes ... this year had alot of bad and good things happen to me .. I met alot of very good friends here at Lit ,
I had a relationship that altho it was very meaningful to me at the time ,it took a major downfall when the person I was with (artful) turned out to be somebody totally different that what I felt I wanted or needed .. Noone likes to be hurt and I am NOT a hurtful or mean person by no account at all. I appreciate the ways each and everyone of you have touched my life and that includes those who seem to dislike me for whatever reason , its their right to their opinion but like I said walk in my moccassins before you cast judgement ...

my grandbaby is 2 now and into everything ,the true love of my life visited me recently and my heart has never been so full as it was since he was here , I know many of you associated me w/ another on Lit for so long but times change and so do ppl , enough said .. All I can do as a person is grow ,learn and hopefully NOT repeat past mistakes .. I am taking things 1 day at a time now which is a real switch for me being the emotional person I am however I feel it is best as this is so meaningful to me and my son is even happier than I have seen him in a long long time... His mom is happy so he is as well , as far as the BDSM thing , well , I know I am submissive and whether or not Dracoa decides to become my NEW Master or not will have no bearing on my feelings for him at all, I may not have always 'behaved' as 'others' feel I should have but none of us is PERFECT .. I just wanna live my life in peace and full of love , I think God has taught me that life is precious and time is NOT to be wasted so much of my time WAS wasted this past summer but not anymore .. I live life to the fullest now.. I am in love and maybe really for the very 1st time as I am feeling things deeper than I have ever felt before ..I have done alot of soul-searching and have grown as both a person and as a mother .. it's really hard raising kids alone but then again I am not really alone .. None of us are .. I thank God every day for my health , my children , even my daughter who is 18 and thinks she knows ALL there is to know about life and who thinks she is the almighty most MORAL person on God's green earth !!! lol Rof gotta love her ...
I thank God for living in a country where it is at least so far not at war , I have alot of freedoms we all take for granted ... I love Dracoa from the bottom of my very soul and I am gonna do my very Best to make him happy and at the very worst case scenario if our relationship does not progress at least I will know I have made yet another TRUE friend ..everything happens for a reason....I truly believe in that... my destiny awaits me as do all of ours .. i WISH ALL of you and I truly Do mean ALL of you all the love luck and happiness in the world !!! Happy 2003!!! may it bring peace love and harmony for all ~

by the way .. Online love IS real but bringin it to skin -to skin is the bomb!! mmmm my baby is coming back formy Birthday and i can hardly wait !!

 

[~Dream~]

Re: Re: A time to reflect

My 2002 was a year of mix emotions:

I came to Lit and met many great friends and learned and experimented some with my sexuality. I never really thought of myself is a very sexual person. I loved sex, but did not really know much about my own sexuality before coming to lit and lurking and posting and getting to know so many wonderful people.


I met and feel in love with a wonderful man, something that I NEVER thought would happen to me. Even though we have not been able to meet face to face yet. I know that our love will last and survive anything or any obstacle. And we will be together when the time is right.

In October my world came crashing down around me. I lost my mom and did not know what I would do without her. I miss her deeply, but even through losing her, I realize like she told me so many times before, that I am a survivor, and though it is not easy I am getting by. I have the love of my family, something I did not always think that I had. I was always told that I was strong and I could handle anything. I did not believe it. But like I was taught as a child God does not put anything on us that we are not able to handle with his help. I guess it was my time to be tested.

So in a way I guess this was definitely a year of growth for me, too. I am looking forward to a great year in 2003 and hope to grow next year also, but hopefully, not in as painful a way as this year has been. I am so ready for 2002 to be over!

_________________

((((HUGGS to ya Sweetheart ))) and yes you ARE STROND and soo full of LOVE too x24

 

[Orlanth]

2002. The year of change.

The year started off with my online/offline relationship falling apart, which it did. Not long after that, she met a new man and fell pregnant to him. This hurt, because she refused to have a child with me.

Then I hard started to get into swimming, and it went will, and still is. I am much more fit for it, and all. It doesn’t make me happy though, but I’m doing it to prove every one in this Town wrong.

I also came to terms with being bisexual, and had some experiences. I also “came out” and told my 2 best friends. I’m yet to tell my parents, as they do have a little “homophobia” to them. I am starting to fall in love with a man who came into my life at the beginning of the year.

My ‘7 year deep depression’ has, and still is getting worse. On one side I have doctors begging me to go on anti-depression, but on the other hard is everyone else saying no. My depression is because of my disease, “bottling emotions/problems”, loneliness, rejection, failing, family splitting in two.

One of my best friend’s girlfriends cheated on him, and like left it to me to tell my best friend, which hurt him deeply. His ex-girlfriend now has abused the hell out of me, which doesn’t help my state of mind.

Around May, I came into the warning zone of having a 2nd stroke, or facing a heart attack. Today, I am still in that zone, mostly due to my stress levels. No one in my real life knows my level of stress so they add to it.

The split up in my family happened 4 years ago, but today it still weighs heavy on me. With my brother cutting me, and the rest of the family out of his life to please his wife. We once had a very close brother friendship, now we dislike each other, and we’re in a rivalry. I am determined to raze out of his shadow, and stop being compared to him.

My eye sight really started to get bad, and I became legally 65% blind, with the warning that I have a 78% of being 100% blind in 6 years. My left eye often fails to move at all, further hurting, and destroy my eye sight.

The doctors looked at my deformed foot (or dead foot) and believe they can “remold it” into a “normal” foot. I’m yet to hear more about when they will do it. Like a 6-8 month waiting list.

My right hip is not far from popping out of joint, and my left hip is starting to go on the same line. I fear my right hip will pop out within 3 months, and my left in 6 months.

My Christmas was disgusting, with my family being lied to from my brother. This drove the wedge in deeper, living little chance for things to be fixed up.

My loneliness is driving me mad, I long to have a partner.

 

[OzSteamer]

Wow, I'm gunna be the FIRST MALE to post something!

I think...

Hey LadyBird...just having a squiz around...hmm, do i have everyone's permisison to bore you all RIGID?

I suppose I could call it "a year in the non-existant life of a wetsuit fetishist" OR "If you don't confess to your ugly crime,s we WILL make you read all of my drivel". How about "My life as versus watching PAINT DRY...the bordom metre is having a difficult time picking the difference".

So if I obtain the "resident's" permission, I'll post a little of what i get up to - and a word of warning - I am seriously boring!

 

[Ladybird]

Re: Wow, I'm gunna be the FIRST MALE to post something!

I think...

Hey LadyBird...just having a squiz around...hmm, do i have everyone's permisison to bore you all RIGID?

Hey you, post to your hearts content. Share with us your year hon... that's what this thread is all about.

 

[Ladybird]

2002. The year of change..

{{{{{{{{((((Orlanth))))}}}}}}}}

You've had a tough year honey, with still more challenges ahead of you.

I know the pain of loneliness hon, but neither of us are truly alone while we have each other, and so many good friends here at Lit.

http://www.geocities.com/~perkinshome/images/aniang02.gif

 

[Orlanth]

Re: Wow, I'm gunna be the FIRST MALE to post something!

I think...

Nope, I was.

 

[nostress]

as I am new here I will start with a bit of history first
I have been seperated now for just over two years but still have heaps to do with my two kids
when I moved out I had an empty house here and found it very hard but with the help of my firends I have been slowly rebuilding my life
and 2002 has seen a major upgrade in all aspects of my life
from a materialistic point of view I have managed to pick up a few things for the house so its now looking more like a home, nothing flash just clean and comfortable
I also managed to take my kids away for three weeks, hired a small caravan and went as far as the gold coast I have traveled a bit but it was a first for the kids and it went wonderfully
on a personal side of things life is great I enjoy the single life and the abilty to do as I please when I please I do have a lady friend that i enjoy weekends with its a nice realationship but will only be as friends as I am very happy with my life as it is.
not sure what ese to put here its hard to sum up a years life in one posting but would have to say I am very happy with my self with my firends and the way I treat friends, nice to see a year pass and know you have helped friends when ever its needed
as for the roller coaster idea well the only downside to my life is my ex, she is a wonderfull woman and a great mother unfortunatly she also has a drinking problem which means I seem to spend a bit of my time helping her sort out her problems as the rest of her family have sort of given up on her after she has upset them one time to many.
the bottom line is if 2003 is as good to me as 2002 was I will be very happy
take care all

 

[tonitits]

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/RED.GIF My goodness Toni, you have had a lot happen to you this year. Have you ever noticed how things tend to balance out? On one hand, you've 'met' a wonderful man, and love him dearly, while on the other, your mother passed on to her next life.

The balance is there... the higher the highs, the lower the lows. It's nature.

Love and hugs to you hon. Seems we both have a lot to look forward too in 2003.

http://www.vineland.org/webart/BULLETS/FLOWER/YELLOW.GIF Hi Hornymama.. it's great to her that you've been surrounded by happiness this year. You've also had some personal growth, and that's a good thing. Someone once said to me, "if you continue doing things the same way, you always get the same results." In other words, if we want change, we must instigate it ourselves.

Happy New Year to you too... I'm sure it'll be a good 'un.

You know ladybird I always said that if my personal/love life, work, and finances and family were all going well then I was nervous....because I always thought that it is too good, something is about to happen... and usually did, but this year took me totally by surprise...I was not looking to find love, let alone find my soulmate, the work and finances were not all that hot they could definitely use some goodness brought to them. But at least I am able to pay most of my bills and I do still have a job, even though I hate it. I know that there are alot of people out there out of jobs and cannot find jobs, due to lack of jobs, or they will not hire them because of the age, experience, etc...

But when my mom died it was total surprise. I talked to her the nigth before for a few minutes before I had to get ready for work and we told each other that we loved each other and she said she would talk to me tomorrow when she got home, she talked to my son and basically did the same thing. I got home from work and got the phone call from my brother. I could not believe it. I agree about the balances, but I have never understood why I can be happy in all areas of my life at once!!! I guess that is one of the wonders of life.

 

[tonitits]

Re: Re: Re: A time to reflect

_________________

((((HUGGS to ya Sweetheart ))) and yes you ARE STROND and soo full of LOVE too x24

thanks Dream! I think I just do what I have to do. And I try to show love and kindness to everyone. I hope that you have a very happy new year and that you get all that you want and can be truly happy. (((((((((Dream))))))

 

[tonitits]

2002. The year of change.

The year started off with my online/offline relationship falling apart, which it did. Not long after that, she met a new man and fell pregnant to him. This hurt, because she refused to have a child with me.

Then I hard started to get into swimming, and it went will, and still is. I am much more fit for it, and all. It doesn’t make me happy though, but I’m doing it to prove every one in this Town wrong.

I also came to terms with being bisexual, and had some experiences. I also “came out” and told my 2 best friends. I’m yet to tell my parents, as they do have a little “homophobia” to them. I am starting to fall in love with a man who came into my life at the beginning of the year.

My ‘7 year deep depression’ has, and still is getting worse. On one side I have doctors begging me to go on anti-depression, but on the other hard is everyone else saying no. My depression is because of my disease, “bottling emotions/problems”, loneliness, rejection, failing, family splitting in two.

One of my best friend’s girlfriends cheated on him, and like left it to me to tell my best friend, which hurt him deeply. His ex-girlfriend now has abused the hell out of me, which doesn’t help my state of mind.

Around May, I came into the warning zone of having a 2nd stroke, or facing a heart attack. Today, I am still in that zone, mostly due to my stress levels. No one in my real life knows my level of stress so they add to it.

The split up in my family happened 4 years ago, but today it still weighs heavy on me. With my brother cutting me, and the rest of the family out of his life to please his wife. We once had a very close brother friendship, now we dislike each other, and we’re in a rivalry. I am determined to raze out of his shadow, and stop being compared to him.

My eye sight really started to get bad, and I became legally 65% blind, with the warning that I have a 78% of being 100% blind in 6 years. My left eye often fails to move at all, further hurting, and destroy my eye sight.

The doctors looked at my deformed foot (or dead foot) and believe they can “remold it” into a “normal” foot. I’m yet to hear more about when they will do it. Like a 6-8 month waiting list.

My right hip is not far from popping out of joint, and my left hip is starting to go on the same line. I fear my right hip will pop out within 3 months, and my left in 6 months.

My Christmas was disgusting, with my family being lied to from my brother. This drove the wedge in deeper, living little chance for things to be fixed up.

My loneliness is driving me mad, I long to have a partner.

(((((((((((((((Orlanth)))))))))))))))) I hope that you are able to resolve your family situation and when you tell your parents about your sexuality that they accept you for you. I have seen so many times when they turn on the person, but most of the time they accept them and love them. I could never stop loving my son, no matter what!! I hope you are able to forgive and get past all of the relationship mess, I know sometimes it takes time. But hang in there. There is someone out there, just waiting for the right time and you will be truly blessed and loved. As far as the medical situations I hope that they are all resolved quickly, too. I don't know you real well, but I have seen your posts and have posted with you some. You seem like a very, loving,caring person and deserve to have only the best, sweetie! Hang in there. Take care and hope that 2003 is your best year yet!

 

[Blue Dolphin]

Ladybird, my dear friend
you are a true sweetheart
thank you for the honour of mentioning me in first post.
I am a little pushed for time right now
But i promise my reflections later today
hugs, to a wonderful lady

LB

Simply the best
BD

 

[~Dream~]

2002. The year of change.

The year started off with my online/offline relationship falling apart, which it did. Not long after that, she met a new man and fell pregnant to him. This hurt, because she refused to have a child with me.

Then I hard started to get into swimming, and it went will, and still is. I am much more fit for it, and all. It doesn’t make me happy though, but I’m doing it to prove every one in this Town wrong.

I also came to terms with being bisexual, and had some experiences. I also “came out” and told my 2 best friends. I’m yet to tell my parents, as they do have a little “homophobia” to them. I am starting to fall in love with a man who came into my life at the beginning of the year.

My ‘7 year deep depression’ has, and still is getting worse. On one side I have doctors begging me to go on anti-depression, but on the other hard is everyone else saying no. My depression is because of my disease, “bottling emotions/problems”, loneliness, rejection, failing, family splitting in two.

One of my best friend’s girlfriends cheated on him, and like left it to me to tell my best friend, which hurt him deeply. His ex-girlfriend now has abused the hell out of me, which doesn’t help my state of mind.

Around May, I came into the warning zone of having a 2nd stroke, or facing a heart attack. Today, I am still in that zone, mostly due to my stress levels. No one in my real life knows my level of stress so they add to it.

The split up in my family happened 4 years ago, but today it still weighs heavy on me. With my brother cutting me, and the rest of the family out of his life to please his wife. We once had a very close brother friendship, now we dislike each other, and we’re in a rivalry. I am determined to raze out of his shadow, and stop being compared to him.

My eye sight really started to get bad, and I became legally 65% blind, with the warning that I have a 78% of being 100% blind in 6 years. My left eye often fails to move at all, further hurting, and destroy my eye sight.

The doctors looked at my deformed foot (or dead foot) and believe they can “remold it” into a “normal” foot. I’m yet to hear more about when they will do it. Like a 6-8 month waiting list.

My right hip is not far from popping out of joint, and my left hip is starting to go on the same line. I fear my right hip will pop out within 3 months, and my left in 6 months.

My Christmas was disgusting, with my family being lied to from my brother. This drove the wedge in deeper, living little chance for things to be fixed up.

My loneliness is driving me mad, I long to have a partner.

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Darlin , bottling your emotions is NEver good , believe me I know...Please know that alot of us at Lit really DO care and I am sorry you have been hurt in so many ways dear ,I truly am that's just soo NOT right ,I have a diability myself so I know all about having (special) feet
You have to take the strength and goodness God gave to you and latch onto it ,Dont let all these things get ya down love..

You are a very sweet ,kind man , use us your friends at Lit and talk to us ,ok share your problems as well as your joys .. >>you can Pm me anytime ok?? ((huggs))) lots of love and kisses to ya sweety

 

[cookiejar]

2002 was truly a year of ups and downs for me , as I came to grips with who I really am. I had been in a two year relationship with the so-called "man of my dreams." In late 2001 I found out he had been cheating with not one but many women....the pain and the humiliation of being the last to know was incredible. Unfortunately I turned bitter and cold , the saving grace being my 6 year old. I came to Lit in March of this year....immediately went to chat determined to be a "bad" girl. It didn't work out that way.....
I quickly realized this may be online but there were limits to what I wanted to do and I began to meet people who have become close friends , even closer then some in my real life. I tend to open up to people in here more......I have ran the gamut here , love , sorrow and pain. I wouldn't trade it for anything , I realize how strong I could really be.
My highs and lows from my bi-polar disorder make it tough and I've met many here with the same problem. Depression...that giant black hole you never seem to dig yourself out of , I truly am the joker who cries underneath.
I am blessed having a beautiful daughter , a job I love , a warm , loving and supportive family.....my parents , my two brothers and their wives , who are the sisters I never had and my nieces and nephew.
I bought a house which I love and I realize I love the independence I have being a single mom.
I came to the boards in August and loved it.....I started to write stories on Lit and I hope to improve with each one....and I'm thinking of fulfilling a dream and write that novel I've had in the back of my head.
Lastly I met a few people who have become my family in here.....Rosylady , my best friend.......biggbear8 , a man who truly epitomizes the word goodness and love.......STUDDOG , who understands my ups and downs like no one else .......Tequila Sunrise , an incredible man I met in chat......and RAW1966, the quiet Aussie who was there for me always.
Thanks to all of you here and I am constantly meeting new friends everyday. I hope to meet more of you in 2003!


cookiejar

 

[omahaman2]

2002 was different
although i lost my job of ten years
and the woman I love
still hadnt found work
in the beginning months
after searching for 2 years
Other things other than jobs
made it magical

DREAMS DO COME TRUE
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In l 2001,right here here at Lit in chat,Imet many wonderful people including the wonderful person everyone calls ladybird but i prefer to call her dear friend. In late 2001,one of these people I got to know better and she became very dear to me.Our relationship grew and she became the most important person in my life.As we entered 2002, we knew there could be no other for each other. WE shared our love via chat,aim the boards and phone. My apologies to those who had to suffer through the
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We had to find out if this was just another virtual relationship,just acroos the internet or true love. During valentine week( what a week to chose) I flew to NYC to meet her in person.
After downing loads of mouthwash and emptying out tons of right guard cans,I found myself riding the elevator to her apartment.LOL, had to make sure i didnt ask the doorman for her by her LIT nick.As the elevator openned,our eyes met and before we even touched,we knew our love was our destiny.After nine days of heaven,it was hell to fly back home. Due to finances, we could see no future meetings. After much job searching in both
our areas,to no avail, we decided to try to share our search and our love full time. Imoved back to the city where my family lives
and she being the wonderful person she is gave up everything
she knew,the only part of the country she knew, to live with me. Many compared us to
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With her moving from NYC to nebraska.

I found a job,although Im looking for something better,so if youre hiring LOL and wooooooohoooooooo jenny just got hired here.
We still dont have the best cash flow but we have each other now 24 hrs a day 7 days a week and thats all that matters.Like I
said DREAMS DO COME TRUE.

aS WE ENTER 2003 We enter not just another new year but
the beginning of our life together,our love together and our happiness together..A new beginning for both of us, but finally
with someone who means the world to us.


Jenny,
if youre reading this



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[Bandit58]

I haven't told my family that I'm bi sexual either. It's something that was always there just pushed so far down that I forgot to feel it.........in fact I forgot to feel a lot of things. When I was married I didn't enjoy sex. I hated my husband touching me. It wasn't so bad in the beginning because I was a virgin when we met and I didn't have anything to compare it to. I remember thinking "Is that all there is"....and I really thought that was true.

I couldn't talk to my mother about it.....she is very straight laced and prudish. I remember asking at 8 or 9 what a period was and she wouldn't tell me. I had to wait until I hit puberty for her to tell me which she seemed to do reluctantly. So when I developed a crush on a girl in high school I was utterly confused. She was a friend of mine and we shared showers together when I stayed at her house though there was no sexual touching. I knew I wanted something I just didn't know what it was. I didn't have anyone to talk to about it so I tried to ignore it and switch it off. It would come out in fantasies though......the first time I masturbated to orgasm it was to a lesbian scene in a book when I was about 22. I'd been married 3 years by then.......

My husband subtly made me think it was my fault I didn't enjoy sex. For 23 years I put up with it. Check out Gil's thread on the How To board for all the gory details ("How do you help someone get over being abused"). I really did think there was something wrong with me......until I met a wonderful man who showed me what love should be like. I thought I was unable to respond - he proved me so wrong! He reckons I won't be complete until I explore all the sides of my sexuality. That hasn't happened yet but will definitely be a part of our future.

I don't know if I will ever tell my parents, but maybe I'll tell the kids.....one day.......

 

[Orlanth]

Thanks everyone for the kind words.

My mother and farther are actually open-minded people. I have seen the things they enjoy, and well, they are defiantly open-minded! Just when it comes down to any form of homosexuality, weather it be woman on woman, or man on man; they just don’t like it.