A kittens hello ^..^

We had a really long and amazing talk the other night. He listened to me with openness and empathy. That talk is private, but some issues were resolved and ownership of boundary pushing was taken care of. Truth is, He is a good man. A very good man, who cares for me deeply. I have total trust that we are in a good place - we were before but He got a little carried away and I needed Him to know that I couldn't carry any seeds of distrust and go forward.

During that talk I also was able to openly express my needs and desires freely. Things I had been craving. Things that I personally wanted that made me jealous someone else got (you have to acknowledge good and bad emotions to process them) He explained to me why he hadn't ever gone as hard on me before, and I told him intellectually I knew that, emotionally it made me a bit jealous.

Yesterday I got what I asked for.

We're working on more obedience, poses, points systems and protocol. We also decided to wait on the collaring - as we rushed into the decision before.

On his point system I earned (punishment) of 45 lashes with the flogger. Though I earned 5 back for knowing a handful of poses already. I had tears in my eyes by the end of the flogging, but I felt very relaxed.

He decorated my entire torso, neck to pussy with wax...I asked for harder sessions so I got red wax. It DOES burn hotter...but Jesus, by the time he got past my belly button and started moving down I swear I almost had an orgasm from it. He scraped me off slowly in the kitchen with his sharpest knife and then ran the tip of the blade all across my neck and chest and back...dripping fucking wet....

Then we had dirty, naughty, taboo role play sex and I soaked his bed.

He showered me and dressed me in his t-shirt and cuddled with me, because he knows I drop really hard after hard play. We watched movies and cuddled, it was great. I feel ridiculously satisfied today.
 
Fair point I did not even think about the skill side of using the whip. I forget that it is quite the skill.

I have been playing with an old friend quite a bit. It is an interesting situation in that our roles have reversed recently and I have to be honest and say her skills with a flogger are far better than mine.

I am glad you had a good discussion, it is so vital especially because you are early into your journey. I have been in many "open" relationships some successful and some not. Communication is always key to success. It is often especially hard for the Dom to pull back once the session is over and not just take liberties.

I am a fan of wax play and am glad you are getting him to push you.

Best of wishes to both of you.
 
Fair point I did not even think about the skill side of using the whip. I forget that it is quite the skill.

I have been playing with an old friend quite a bit. It is an interesting situation in that our roles have reversed recently and I have to be honest and say her skills with a flogger are far better than mine.

I am glad you had a good discussion, it is so vital especially because you are early into your journey. I have been in many "open" relationships some successful and some not. Communication is always key to success. It is often especially hard for the Dom to pull back once the session is over and not just take liberties.

I am a fan of wax play and am glad you are getting him to push you.

Best of wishes to both of you.

Thank you.

Really there were one big thing, and two tiny things. One of the tiny things was an assumption I had made about something and he let me read his entire text message history with that person and I indeed had jumped to a conclusion. The other tiny thing we talked about, and resolved it.

The other one was bigger. If I own my part in it - I did leave it a gray area HOPING that the choice I wanted him to make would be made. But he did own his part. Being a sexually charged young man in a sexually charged situation where your partner is giving you the freedom to have what many men would want...yeah, he took it.

But open I am good with. He spent 4 days in Seattle...and let me tell you he had fun. I didn't mind. I like watching him fuck other people - weirdly it makes me feel closer to him.

But again, that's neither here nor there. I feel completely resolved and happy.
 
Thank you for the pics and the descriptions of your activities and discussions.

Obviously TRUST is super important in such a relationship as it relates to both the physical and emotional aspects of the relationship. High risk brings high rewards and your risk is in the play so close to the edge.

It appears that you two are working very hard on establishing solid trust, as without it the issues can be the end of the relationship.

Best Wishes :kiss::rose::kiss:
 

Fucking fantastic.
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A few little snaps...

I've been collecting some new outfits, shoes and lingerie. :heart:

We're going to a Leather Social this coming weekend and I am super excited. The couple that we met the last time we went to this club and I have been texting a lot. He's agreed to let me play so long as he can supervise and make sure I am not being hurt...I have a sexy outfit planned and I am SO excited already.
 
New dress for leather parties. :)

We went to another leather social last night and decided we really like these people and the "head" members really like us a lot too. We've decided to attend the next munch, and upcoming events! Yay. Met some potential new play partners for us...always fun.

We got to talking about it on the drive home and wound up fucking on the tail gate of his truck before we even made it to my house.

We're moving in together soon :) Like...in a few weeks. Shenanigans and pictures should be more regular!

XoXo
 
New dress for leather parties. :)

We went to another leather social last night and decided we really like these people and the "head" members really like us a lot too. We've decided to attend the next munch, and upcoming events! Yay. Met some potential new play partners for us...always fun.

We got to talking about it on the drive home and wound up fucking on the tail gate of his truck before we even made it to my house.

We're moving in together soon :) Like...in a few weeks. Shenanigans and pictures should be more regular!

XoXo
WOW PRETTY DRESS ON A PRETTY LADY WOW,

I am glad for you. Finding someones to be with and enjoy life.



hugs:kiss::rose:

old borg fred
 
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