original_pk10
Beautifully Obedient
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- Aug 16, 2014
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We had a really long and amazing talk the other night. He listened to me with openness and empathy. That talk is private, but some issues were resolved and ownership of boundary pushing was taken care of. Truth is, He is a good man. A very good man, who cares for me deeply. I have total trust that we are in a good place - we were before but He got a little carried away and I needed Him to know that I couldn't carry any seeds of distrust and go forward.
During that talk I also was able to openly express my needs and desires freely. Things I had been craving. Things that I personally wanted that made me jealous someone else got (you have to acknowledge good and bad emotions to process them) He explained to me why he hadn't ever gone as hard on me before, and I told him intellectually I knew that, emotionally it made me a bit jealous.
Yesterday I got what I asked for.
We're working on more obedience, poses, points systems and protocol. We also decided to wait on the collaring - as we rushed into the decision before.
On his point system I earned (punishment) of 45 lashes with the flogger. Though I earned 5 back for knowing a handful of poses already. I had tears in my eyes by the end of the flogging, but I felt very relaxed.
He decorated my entire torso, neck to pussy with wax...I asked for harder sessions so I got red wax. It DOES burn hotter...but Jesus, by the time he got past my belly button and started moving down I swear I almost had an orgasm from it. He scraped me off slowly in the kitchen with his sharpest knife and then ran the tip of the blade all across my neck and chest and back...dripping fucking wet....
Then we had dirty, naughty, taboo role play sex and I soaked his bed.
He showered me and dressed me in his t-shirt and cuddled with me, because he knows I drop really hard after hard play. We watched movies and cuddled, it was great. I feel ridiculously satisfied today.
During that talk I also was able to openly express my needs and desires freely. Things I had been craving. Things that I personally wanted that made me jealous someone else got (you have to acknowledge good and bad emotions to process them) He explained to me why he hadn't ever gone as hard on me before, and I told him intellectually I knew that, emotionally it made me a bit jealous.
Yesterday I got what I asked for.
We're working on more obedience, poses, points systems and protocol. We also decided to wait on the collaring - as we rushed into the decision before.
On his point system I earned (punishment) of 45 lashes with the flogger. Though I earned 5 back for knowing a handful of poses already. I had tears in my eyes by the end of the flogging, but I felt very relaxed.
He decorated my entire torso, neck to pussy with wax...I asked for harder sessions so I got red wax. It DOES burn hotter...but Jesus, by the time he got past my belly button and started moving down I swear I almost had an orgasm from it. He scraped me off slowly in the kitchen with his sharpest knife and then ran the tip of the blade all across my neck and chest and back...dripping fucking wet....
Then we had dirty, naughty, taboo role play sex and I soaked his bed.
He showered me and dressed me in his t-shirt and cuddled with me, because he knows I drop really hard after hard play. We watched movies and cuddled, it was great. I feel ridiculously satisfied today.



