Mskey
Witchy Woman
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- Jan 5, 2004
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Alright Lit fans and friends here's my story,
I've been married for 10 years to a guy that in all honesty I've had my ups and downs with. We've been thru a good bit and in the end we think we're better together then apart.
Recently here we've been going thru a pretty rocky patch that's been lasting for several months. We've had a lot of external stuff going on outside the 2 of us, having to move from what was essentially the hubby's childhood home, dealing with a third difficult and totally unplanned pregnancy and then some complications upon our daughters arrival, changes in work and school for both of us that have sent our schedules into an upheaval of sorts, personal health problems on my part (mostly of a reproductive nature) and the always dastardly financial problems. As a result the hubby and I have been distant with each other to say the least and almost become more like room-mates then husband and wife.
My sex drive has gone into the toilet, partly as a result of being pregnant, new mommyhood, having a tubal etc. etc. and sex has been infrequent to say the least and less then exciting when it has happened. In addittion to my sex drive being in the shitter, I've been tired as hell due to my schedule and in my opinion (hubby has not even hinted anything to this effect) I look like homemade shit! Now I don't think I'm a beauty queen by any standards but lately I've really been down on my own appearance. No matter what I do to try and fix myself up I just think I look boring and homely. Now then, knowing how things are in the house my husband has turned not suprisingly to porn for a little relief, amusement, whatever. I've looked at his collection and the women there are totally unlike my " type", thinner, better boobs, longer hair, IMO prettier. He has quite a collection too, folders of these thin, pretty, perky chested creatures who all look as if they've never even been on a maternity ward much less a delivery room.
So here's my ass kicker and where the fine advice of you folks comes in...knew I'd get to it eventually dincha?
I'm starting to feel, honestly feel, that my husband is no longer attracted to me physically. I do believe he still cares for me, otherwise he would have taken off months ago and not stuck around through some of this shit we're going through; but I just don't think I'm attractive to him anymore, or that - and I know how stupid this is going to sound- he's finally seeing me as mommy, housewife material and that's not what he's looking for as a turn on. If I fix myself up it goes unnoticed but he's quick to point out how sexy another woman is or some quality he finds attractive about her.
I've always been a big believer in the feel sexy , be sexy theory and now even when I try to sex myself up to get in the mood I find myself failing.
What should I do? It's not as if I can honestly make some huge change to my appearance, sexuality, etc. I am what I am and in my head that's no longer what I think my spouse is excited, or aroused by.
Help! Gimme some words of wisdom here my fellow litsters!
Oh yeah and sorry about the long rambling post...I do that when I'm stressed!
I've been married for 10 years to a guy that in all honesty I've had my ups and downs with. We've been thru a good bit and in the end we think we're better together then apart.
Recently here we've been going thru a pretty rocky patch that's been lasting for several months. We've had a lot of external stuff going on outside the 2 of us, having to move from what was essentially the hubby's childhood home, dealing with a third difficult and totally unplanned pregnancy and then some complications upon our daughters arrival, changes in work and school for both of us that have sent our schedules into an upheaval of sorts, personal health problems on my part (mostly of a reproductive nature) and the always dastardly financial problems. As a result the hubby and I have been distant with each other to say the least and almost become more like room-mates then husband and wife.
My sex drive has gone into the toilet, partly as a result of being pregnant, new mommyhood, having a tubal etc. etc. and sex has been infrequent to say the least and less then exciting when it has happened. In addittion to my sex drive being in the shitter, I've been tired as hell due to my schedule and in my opinion (hubby has not even hinted anything to this effect) I look like homemade shit! Now I don't think I'm a beauty queen by any standards but lately I've really been down on my own appearance. No matter what I do to try and fix myself up I just think I look boring and homely. Now then, knowing how things are in the house my husband has turned not suprisingly to porn for a little relief, amusement, whatever. I've looked at his collection and the women there are totally unlike my " type", thinner, better boobs, longer hair, IMO prettier. He has quite a collection too, folders of these thin, pretty, perky chested creatures who all look as if they've never even been on a maternity ward much less a delivery room.
So here's my ass kicker and where the fine advice of you folks comes in...knew I'd get to it eventually dincha?
I'm starting to feel, honestly feel, that my husband is no longer attracted to me physically. I do believe he still cares for me, otherwise he would have taken off months ago and not stuck around through some of this shit we're going through; but I just don't think I'm attractive to him anymore, or that - and I know how stupid this is going to sound- he's finally seeing me as mommy, housewife material and that's not what he's looking for as a turn on. If I fix myself up it goes unnoticed but he's quick to point out how sexy another woman is or some quality he finds attractive about her.
I've always been a big believer in the feel sexy , be sexy theory and now even when I try to sex myself up to get in the mood I find myself failing.
What should I do? It's not as if I can honestly make some huge change to my appearance, sexuality, etc. I am what I am and in my head that's no longer what I think my spouse is excited, or aroused by.
Help! Gimme some words of wisdom here my fellow litsters!
Oh yeah and sorry about the long rambling post...I do that when I'm stressed!