rosco rathbone
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Often, a jack resembles something like a proper golf swing. If all the factors don't come together correctly; one is sure to make a poor showing on the marble floors of the roman ejaculatorium. The ball will veer drunkenly off to the right or left and land in the rough, or to continue the metaphor, the club may well miss the ball entirely leaving the duffer contorted into a preposterous and undignified overextended pose.
I've gone 0 for 3 in jacks the last 2 days. I don't even know if they are worth toting up on the big board. I get jacking and think I am going to pop the orgone bubble with an explosive O, I hurry to the roman ejaculatorium, and then something distracts me and the result is a wet squib.
The build-up today was pretty intense. I kept thinking about this nurse I once knew who had a great mass of soft curls and a big feather bed with so many comforters and down pillows and teddy bears and what not that it makes my lower back ache just thinking about it. She had a perpetually mournful face. She used to cry and say "why do you always have to hurt me before we can have sex?", because the I could never resist the urge to turn her across my knee prior to the physical act of love. In fact not only did I not resist the urge but actively sought occasion to inflame myself with the desire to chastise. But anyhow this is the jacking off log, not tales of bygone days.
Like all the ghosts in my bag of tricks; she is associated with a fleeting moment or two. Proustian sense memories which I suppose will pass before my eyes when the time comes for me to reckon with my Maker. With her; there are two such moments: First, the feeling of waking, with my eyes closed, and reaching out to grasp that headful of curls and gently force it downwards; second the way she had of holding my member in her mouth with a touch that was both incredibly light--seemingly too light---yet utterly inexorable and knowing. I will always somehow associate that with nurses and ministrations.
In the roman ejaculatorium, I had that pressure at the base of my spine which should have lpresaged the explosive ejaculation which frees the mind from vile thoughts for the day and leaves me Apollonian. Instead, I began watching my contortions in the glass and the jack became a meta-jack rather than an immersion in a quasi-realistic virtual masturbation reality. My body came, but my mind was elsewhere. With seed dripping into the basin; I leaned forward and began to inspect my face for signs of aging and approaching death. Prognosis negative.
I've gone 0 for 3 in jacks the last 2 days. I don't even know if they are worth toting up on the big board. I get jacking and think I am going to pop the orgone bubble with an explosive O, I hurry to the roman ejaculatorium, and then something distracts me and the result is a wet squib.
The build-up today was pretty intense. I kept thinking about this nurse I once knew who had a great mass of soft curls and a big feather bed with so many comforters and down pillows and teddy bears and what not that it makes my lower back ache just thinking about it. She had a perpetually mournful face. She used to cry and say "why do you always have to hurt me before we can have sex?", because the I could never resist the urge to turn her across my knee prior to the physical act of love. In fact not only did I not resist the urge but actively sought occasion to inflame myself with the desire to chastise. But anyhow this is the jacking off log, not tales of bygone days.
Like all the ghosts in my bag of tricks; she is associated with a fleeting moment or two. Proustian sense memories which I suppose will pass before my eyes when the time comes for me to reckon with my Maker. With her; there are two such moments: First, the feeling of waking, with my eyes closed, and reaching out to grasp that headful of curls and gently force it downwards; second the way she had of holding my member in her mouth with a touch that was both incredibly light--seemingly too light---yet utterly inexorable and knowing. I will always somehow associate that with nurses and ministrations.
In the roman ejaculatorium, I had that pressure at the base of my spine which should have lpresaged the explosive ejaculation which frees the mind from vile thoughts for the day and leaves me Apollonian. Instead, I began watching my contortions in the glass and the jack became a meta-jack rather than an immersion in a quasi-realistic virtual masturbation reality. My body came, but my mind was elsewhere. With seed dripping into the basin; I leaned forward and began to inspect my face for signs of aging and approaching death. Prognosis negative.