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Happy Saturday!!! Seems you lot got ahead of me during the night and I have to get my feces into travelling mode to go to town. Landlady to deliver to work, car parts to buy and install, and other tidbits to see and to do and to think about.


I haven't written a damned thing more complex than posts in the last several days. Also, a feeling of ambivalence has come up about my new job, like questioning whether I really want the thing. I want the money, so if that makes me a mercenary kind of h000r, then so be it. Besides, many small feelings like that come from my thinking that I know the outcome, and the truth is that I have no fucking idea what'll happen.


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Well work is sort of Like being a prostitute.

You get fucked.

They pay you.

But that’s at its worst. At best you may enjoy it, meet new and interesting people etc.

You had a lot on your plate we know you’re out there, brother.
 
I had to force myself to get out. That way people stop worrying. I'm a bit of a hermit since all the crap went down here. I'm happiest at home right now. My memories are far and few here which is odd because it's our house. When I go out and am around people I start to think about everything that has happened or I see happy couples and get mad lol. All and all for right now, I just want to be here and not there.

If I can give any advise to you, it would be to say yes every 4 times someone asks you to do something and then start making it every 3 and so on. Thats kind of how I did it.
Saying NO is the hardest thing to learn and I don’t have it right.
 
My husband tried to sneak out 2 years ago to go live with his girlfriend. I came home early while he was packing up the car. He took 40K (money for the roof to be fixed because it was leaking) and hauled ass, refused to divorce me and then moved to another state with her. I had to get a lawyer and now it's been two years, our mediation was Wednesday (finally) and I'm stuck in limbo with my crazy neighbor still next door and my wonderful smart 10 year old.
I am a commercial, mediator and arbitrator and it’s far better than the courts if you get it to work, but it doesn’t always. I just hope it went okay for you. It will take time for you to build your life back up but at least that ten year old will help the sun shine! Good Luck!
 
Lookout! Comin in for a landing on this here Cosmo!!

nom nom nom…

Zinnia are just emerging…
I love your flower pics Woderer! My Great Grandfather (didn’t know him) was a flower farmer. His fields were all flower fields and according to my mother, they’d ship the majority of them by train to NY for the shops there.

Now some more Morning Z. Hope all have a great weekend. This past week was a little trying for members of The Spoon it seems so every one do a reset this weekend!

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I have suspected ADHD and suffer depression. I get this, I hate me because I annoy the fuck out of me. My brain scrambles so quickly.

I've got worse since I found I may have adhd, too.

I suffer PTSD, and this worsens at time of stress.

The unfortunate thing is I can go into lock down, and watch loads of TV and not go out because my brain can't cope.

I'm surprised my girlfriend is still with me and the friends I have all have known me for years and are used to me.

It is exhausting.
Hun. You'll get whatever support here that we can give you.😘🤗
 
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