Pants’ Pocket

[PantsAndPencils]

I came to lit for a safe space where I could test the waters of my sexuality. I had a lot of hang-ups and quite little experience, still being a virgin and all that But the interactions I had on here really helped me so much so that I actually met someone irl… we’ve been together a few months and he’s said he was actually surprised at what a horny little slut I turned out to be hahaha

So I thought I’d let the fine folks of lit know that I’m grateful. You helped a sex-shy weirdo embrace her libido to the extent that she could actually enter a healthy, happy sexual/romantic relationship

Also I was thinking I could make this thread here to share more about my experiences of becoming sexually active and whatnot I’m not chatting with people via DMs anymore but I have permission from my partner to share sexy stories in the forums themselves

 

[GreatWhiteCock]

Thread followed

 

[PantsAndPencils]

I actually wrote a diary entry the day after I met my now-bf (I call him Daddy in the bedroom, so that’s probably how I’ll refer to him on here, though we didn’t establish that dynamic at the time I wrote the diary entry) so that’s probably good to start with Here’s what I’d written:

I got onto lit as a means to adapt to and get comfortable with my sexuality and I suppose last night was a test of my progress? It was an opportunity to be horny with someone irl basically. Overall things went…alright? It was mostly a fun night, at times being silly and ridiculous, at other times uncomfortable and ngl a little unpleasant?, but overall a positive experience I’d say I’d give it uhhhhhh like 7/10

Honestly I did not see last night’s events coming. Things fell into place through a weird and ludicrous combination of organizational politics, greek life drama, a very stupid hat and beverages with a blue dye content higher than their alcohol content Also a random dude with a moustache and backwards hat on who stuck his body through our passenger side car window and gave me a sexual ultimatum (basically saying “Lady, you’ve either got to suck this guy’s dick tonight or you’ve got to come home with me.” Yeah, neither of those things happened ). Also there were Guinea pigs but I didn’t get to pet them

ANYWAYS I ended up going from campus to the club to a car to the bed of a dude that I just met earlier that day. Totally wild but he seemed pretty nice, despite being a frat bro lol

 

[PantsAndPencils]

LEARNING CURVE (this part of my journal was, like, the reflective non-horny musings about the night. Feel free to skip )

There were some rough patches in the experience, as I’d alluded to earlier. Consent was kinda tricky to navigate? There was one really embarrassing misunderstanding wherein I said what I thought was just general dirty talk, and what he interpreted as a request/permission to penetrate me (dw, clarification occurred before any appendages entered any orifices, my “purity” remains intact ). Then, throughout the experience, it was like…it was weird On one had he was really good at checking in with me verbally, noticing little things in my body language that could have been signs of me not doing too well and just double-checking to ensure I was okay, even after I had given my initial consent for something—110% appreciate and recommend ; on the other hand, he would also ask again and again about things I had expressed as boundaries/that I told him I did not want to do. It kinda felt like he was treating me like a slot machine, pulling the lever again and again in the hopes that his desired answer (“yes”) would eventually come out He also wasn’t always great on expressing his own boundaries? Like initially he told me he didn’t wanna fuck, like as a personal rule of his he wasn’t comfortable doing that on the first date, but the second the “dirty talk/penetration” miscommunication occurred he was getting ready to dive on into me no questions asked (Friendly reminder: men’s boundaries and consent matter too!!!! Cripes )

I definitely get that consent is a fluid and ongoing thing, and the stuff you say you do/don’t wanna do at the start of an encounter won’t necessarily remain static the whole way through. I think if I go out with him again I’ll talk to him about this stuff beforehand and kinda lay out like “these acts/activities will remain off the table unless and until I bring them up” as well as asking him directly again about his boundaries

Another dumb thing I did was get overexcited and shed the panties ASAP when in hindsight I would have preferred keeping them on to provide some nice friction and to keep me from being paranoid of him accidentally (or “accidentally” ) sliding into me. Also one thing led to another and he came on me () and I later got paranoid about his jizz somehow making its way onto some part of me or him that’d then go in my pussy and I’d become some sort of not-so-holy virgin pregnancy case so like. Gotta think about how to deal with assuaging that concern I guess?

I had to ask for time-outs a couple of times to like, buffer and process how I was actually feeling Like my anti-sex brain gremlins had one voice and my libido had another and somewhere between the two was what I’d call my “real” desires in terms of comfort and feeling good. It can be hard to parse especially when sleep deprived and a little bit sauced

I did find myself eventually realizing that I was, like, starting to instinctively try and fake my enjoyment for his sake, which is not good for anyone involved so I tried to pull myself out of that and stop and be honest when I wasn’t into something, and when I got tired and honestly just wanted to sleep

There was a point where I did explain a little bit about my sexual hangups and I actually cried like 1-2 tears but we were in the dark and I don’t think he caught on which is honestly preferred for me.

(update from current-day pants: Daddy and I have since talked out consent stuff, I got an IUD, AND we’re using condoms—note to self that I should talk about the condom chaos we went through at some point ).

 

[Apisto42]

Guinea pigs are awesome.

 

[PantsAndPencils]

Guinea pigs are awesome.

Right!? I have since gotten to meet them and they are adorable I like when they try to nibble on my fingers like baby carrots

 

[Apisto42]

They’ll whistle to their owners when you come home. It’s adorable.

 

[PantsAndPencils]

They’ll whistle to their owners when you come home. It’s adorable.

They sound like little security alarms going off imo

 

[PantsAndPencils]

—oh man, I got distracted and totally forgot to post the horny stuff yesterday!!! let me find my diary again

 

[PantsAndPencils]

DIRTY DETAILS

So, yeah, I got picked up by this frat guy and we went clubbing with his friends I had a really good time! He and I got more touchy and feely as the night went on and eventually wound up in his car in the club parking lot. We vascillated between, like, really emotionally intimate conversation and just, like, the messiest making out you could imagine I felt like a creature, clawing and pawing at him to get closer.

I’d dressed appropriately slutty for the evening () and he had pretty easy access to my tits—and ohhhhh fuck he was so good with them The other times people’ve played with my tits were honestly kinda lacklustre but with his hands and fingers and lips and tongue it was like, YES, this is the shit I’ve been reading about in smut, fuuuck yes

Eventually we ubered back to his and he insisted on carrying me to his bed which I really liked bc 1) hehe strong and 2) I must sexually identify as a baby koala or something cause there’s just something about getting to wrap myself around someone else like I’m their accessory

His blankets were soft and he was so warm He’s a larger guy so he’s got this just wonderful sturdy-and-softness, and he had that little hint of prickliness on his face that I like to rub against like a cat

He tried fingering me a few times and it wasn’t…great?… but I wasn’t sure how to advise him to improve either. It was just kinda overwhelming and in hindsight I probably should have redirected back to grinding

My favourite was whenever he’d lowkey toss me around to change positions and then it felt sooo good to be on my stomach with him on top rutting against me from behind. It was the comfort from a weighted electric blanket mixed with. Yknow. The sexiness of a throbbing cock fucking my thighs

Also he slapped my ass a lot which made me yelp and giggle Felt sooooo good to be able to make whatever noises I wanted to, freely, instead of having to stifle them like I do at home

I was able to reach the level of uninhibited lust where I was talking dirty to him. Specifically there were two times where I got him to jack himself off and cum on me and hhhh, the way the bed shook as he fucking jerked his cock, and I just clung to him and kissed him and told him how fucking hot he was, how I wanted him to shoot his load all over me, how I wanted him to take control, wanted to be a good girl, be obedient to him, be his plaything, fffffuck I felt so happy when I felt his cum splatter my thighs and abdomen

In summation, I didn’t get off but I had a good time, and I was able to like uninhibit myself to an extent that felt good I did have some issues at establishing boundaries here and there but I think I’m aware of that and I can do better practising that in the future