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This is where I had problems. I was great with the work, and got by for years on client referrals, but I am horrible at marketing myself.

Part of it is I am very shy (stop laughing). Once I get comfortable with someone, or someplace, I'm fine, I'm me, more comfortable to share--and you can determine if that is a good thing or not, heh. But before I get comfortable? All my insecurities, my inadequacies, my fears win. I am awkward, or just quiet on the side. It is easier than facing rejection. I don't break ice, I don't even flirt untill I am comfortable, or someone flirts with me first. I don't think I was always like this, I am pretty sure I wasn't. But here I am.

I have two novels mostly done, and a third I am working on. And I can give you reasons of what needs to be done -- tighten this up, or make another pass at the dialogue there. But if I am honest with myself, something I avoid, I admit that if I finished them, I would then have to submit them, and face the rejection that would come. So I keep revising.

So for me, too often, the fears win.
I feel so much of this and what you guys are saying. I've dabbled in at a few different art forms over the years. I've done some writing, had a little bit of a music career at one point, even did comedy.

Putting myself out there is the part I easily like the least. Always has been. Couple that also with several straight up bad experiences. Venues ripping me off, two-faced people trying to freeze me out with others, stolen equipment, devastating band breakups. I'm just sitting there like fuck man, I just want to play music and have fun. It gets rough.

A few things I've learned over the years, though.

You can make any kind of art in and of itself on its own. You can completely take out the "trying to make it" part and just make art that makes you feel good. You can construct your own artistic career and do it the way you want in a way that's legit. Technology and various streaming and hosting services have basically cut out the middle man and you can still make your art and get it out there. Bandcamp pages for one are legit.

Putting yourself out there is indeed scary. You may get haters. Lord knows I have. Shit, look at my writer's page. 🤣 But in a way haters and dipshits that feel like they need their stupid, stupid, shitty voice be heard, validate you. You provoked a reaction. Good. Let them choke on it. No one worth a damn feels the need to tear down others.

Keep doing the work and keep getting better. You will also get positive reactions too. That's how you find your people.

Okay, I'm tired of typing. Lol. I just love conversations about art and being an artist. :p
 
Just popping in to check on all you crazy kids. It seems many of you had fun while I was gone the past few days as I had another 43 notifications of ridiculous tags. 😜

Glad to know I’m loved, I suppose. At least that’s what I’m telling myself this is all about. 😂

In other news, thanks for the prayers and thoughts. Healing up nicely. 🦵

I’m sure there were plenty of boobs shared that I missed and even more dicks that were sent to @OrdinaryPerson
 
Today is May 1st. It's known as the International Worker's Movement Day, and in Sweden it's a national holiday.
We celebrate it because almost 100 years ago, the movement managed to rectify an 8 hour workday for all workers.

Nowadays, an 8 hour workday seems almost like torture.
Most of the time, I do nothing. Just sitting there and watching the day pass by.
Maybe some have it different. Maybe some enjoy their work. I don't mind mine, but it's not fun.

Here's to hoping things will be different, another 100 years from now.
 
I know the business well enough to know I wouldn't be making any real money. But to actually get published? That is a dream. That someone else could hold something I made, that they could enjoy it. That a story could make some iota of difference, even if just to one person reading it.

And technically, I finished my first novel, but I don't count it among these. It was terrible, and not my voice at all. More a bad Tolkien pastiche. Make that a horrible Tolkien pastiche. But I sat on the beach and had a lovely time burning it page by page in a bonfire. I finished it, that was the point. But it was better off in flames, trust me.
You know you can self publish on Amazon Kindle
 
Today is May 1st. It's known as the International Worker's Movement Day, and in Sweden it's a national holiday.
We celebrate it because almost 100 years ago, the movement managed to rectify an 8 hour workday for all workers.

Nowadays, an 8 hour workday seems almost like torture.
Most of the time, I do nothing. Just sitting there and watching the day pass by.
Maybe some have it different. Maybe some enjoy their work. I don't mind mine, but it's not fun.

Here's to hoping things will be different, another 100 years from now.
In my family it's if not a holy day, it is at least full of respect for those who took the battle to be were we are today. That is not only for the workers but also for all the women and their supporters who took the battle and got us to were we are today. It's not equal by far but still better than it was.

I work in a factory as a machine operator and have done so for 38 years now. It has not always been fun but my coworkers are a great bunche, I love to solve mechanical problems and the money is ok.

I hope you'll find something more fun to work with. :heart:
 
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Someone is selling this on Facebook in my neighborhood…

Do I want to be haunted by a “Thinker” monstrosity that is probably gonna come to life at night and murder me?

No thank you.
I did Asia as my post college tour instead of Europe. I used to have a shit ton of these that I brought home to stock as last minute gifts for acquaintances.
 
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