Bunny's Stuffie Corner

[Azuldrgon]

Well, the Sword of Damocles that's been dangling above my head for over a week finally came crashing down.

I've been having to ration my Wellbutrin because none of my blog customers will pay up. I usually take three 150 mg pills per day,. I've been down to just one for the last week, and it finally caught up with me.

I'm six hours short of having enough login hours at the company for the pay period (which ends tomorrow). I'm in no shape to work. (Can't stop sobbing like an idiot.) Daddy is either busy, sleeping, or just ignoring me.

Someone finally did pay me today, but it's only just enough for the Wellbutrin, and the pharmacy is closed today, anyway. So I can't get it until tomorrow.

I hate this shit. Why can't I just be normal?

With permission *hugs you tightly*
I'm sorry.
I wish I could offer more than that.

 

[BiBunny]

With permission *hugs you tightly*
I'm sorry.
I wish I could offer more than that.

Thank you. *hugs back* That helps a lot.

 

[twister947]

Well, the Sword of Damocles that's been dangling above my head for over a week finally came crashing down.

I've been having to ration my Wellbutrin because none of my blog customers will pay up. I usually take three 150 mg pills per day,. I've been down to just one for the last week, and it finally caught up with me.

I'm six hours short of having enough login hours at the company for the pay period (which ends tomorrow). I'm in no shape to work. (Can't stop sobbing like an idiot.) Daddy is either busy, sleeping, or just ignoring me.

Someone finally did pay me today, but it's only just enough for the Wellbutrin, and the pharmacy is closed today, anyway. So I can't get it until tomorrow.

I hate this shit. Why can't I just be normal?

Bunny, don't forget tomorrow is a Federal holiday; your pharmacy may or may not keep normal hours.

 

[dreamysub]

Well, the Sword of Damocles that's been dangling above my head for over a week finally came crashing down.

I've been having to ration my Wellbutrin because none of my blog customers will pay up. I usually take three 150 mg pills per day,. I've been down to just one for the last week, and it finally caught up with me.

I'm six hours short of having enough login hours at the company for the pay period (which ends tomorrow). I'm in no shape to work. (Can't stop sobbing like an idiot.) Daddy is either busy, sleeping, or just ignoring me.

Someone finally did pay me today, but it's only just enough for the Wellbutrin, and the pharmacy is closed today, anyway. So I can't get it until tomorrow.

I hate this shit. Why can't I just be normal?

Oh BiBunny, I am sooo sorry to read all you've been through, I didn't know......
Is your dad alright now? And did you get to see your Daddy again?? I hope you did or will soon, as I so understand how you feel girl. *HUGGS BiBunny TIGHT and holds her GENTLY in my arms for a long LOOOONG TIME*

Being out of meds messess you up, I am teary fuck when I forget to take mine just for one day. It sucks indeed, but it will get better, Bunny! As for Why can't you be normal? I ask myself the same question every fucking day.... But you know what? World would be sooo boring without people like YOU in it! I would love to spend my time with you anytime if you just lived closer. I really HATE this about Internet. It makes you feel so close to someone, but so far away at the same time. Sometimes I so need to HUGG someone for real and it kills me I can't. Like now, I would so love to HUG you right now and just hold you and I can't cuz of this bloody distance sigh.
For what its worth, I am sending you the most sincere heartfelt HUGGS my friend! PM me anytime R., ok? I have a PhD in cuddleology!!!

K.

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[IrisAlthea]

Well, the Sword of Damocles that's been dangling above my head for over a week finally came crashing down.

I've been having to ration my Wellbutrin because none of my blog customers will pay up. I usually take three 150 mg pills per day,. I've been down to just one for the last week, and it finally caught up with me.

I'm six hours short of having enough login hours at the company for the pay period (which ends tomorrow). I'm in no shape to work. (Can't stop sobbing like an idiot.) Daddy is either busy, sleeping, or just ignoring me.

Someone finally did pay me today, but it's only just enough for the Wellbutrin, and the pharmacy is closed today, anyway. So I can't get it until tomorrow.

I hate this shit. Why can't I just be normal?

Ugh, sorry to hear this Bunny!

I vote anything that lets you get your hands on the meds, as in showing up at Daddy’s, parents’, friends’ doorstep unannounced to borrow money, possibly stopping short if robbery.

 

[BiBunny]

Hey, y'all. I really appreciate your concern.
Ended up not being able to get the meds today because my Spotify came out overnight. My mom is sending a credit card by my dad (he works near where I live) tomorrow so I can get the damn things.

So that's my update for today.

 

[BiBunny]

Wellbutrin acquired. I can live normally a few more days now.

 

[dreamysub]

Wellbutrin acquired. I can live normally a few more days now.

I am glad you have the meds you need, Bunny. It definitely helps! *Big Huggs*

 

[BiBunny]

I am glad you have the meds you need, Bunny. It definitely helps! *Big Huggs*

Thank you! *hugs*

I keep thinking about my exes. Not in the "I miss them" sense because they're no longer causing drama in my life, and good riddance. But there are things they did that I wish Daddy would do.

They let me serve them. Daddy doesn't really do that. Sexually, yes, but that's all, and very rarely, at that.

I miss doing laundry and making beds and making desserts for and bathing the one who owns me. He won't let me do any of it. I don't know if he's not interested or if he thinks he has to shoulder everything himself or what. I just want to serve my Daddy. I miss having someone to take care of.

 

[BiBunny]

Y'all may not believe this, but in my professional and, to some extent, my personal life, I rarely offer my opinion on things unless someone point-blank asks. I have been sitting on a lot of stuff concerning work...and they have made the mistake of asking, "What would motivate you to log in more?"

I have never written a manifesto before, but I'm about to.

 

[BiBunny]

I texted Daddy today to tell him I'd finally stopped bleeding and I wondered if we could get together soon so I could at least give him his goddamn Christmas presents.

I got the usual "we'll have to see" spiel.

I tried talking to him a little, since we hadn't spoken for like a week.

I got "OK, kitten, Daddy is resting."

K. Fine. I just don't get why, if my company and my attention are so hateful to you, you even keep me around in the first place. And I don't know why I put up with it because God knows, I get next to nothing out of it.

 

[BiBunny]

I've hit a wall again.

Any Daddy interested in a fat, 40-year-old little girl/kitten in East-Central Alabama who enjoys ageplay and service submission? IRL only.

And, yes, I'm only half-joking.

*Sigh*

 

[dreamysub]

I texted Daddy today to tell him I'd finally stopped bleeding and I wondered if we could get together soon so I could at least give him his goddamn Christmas presents.

I got the usual "we'll have to see" spiel.

I tried talking to him a little, since we hadn't spoken for like a week.

I got "OK, kitten, Daddy is resting."

K. Fine. I just don't get why, if my company and my attention are so hateful to you, you even keep me around in the first place. And I don't know why I put up with it because God knows, I get next to nothing out of it.

I am so sorry, Bunny... *BIG HUGGS*

Will talk to you more thro PM.

 

[IrisAlthea]

K. Fine. I just don't get why, if my company and my attention are so hateful to you, you even keep me around in the first place. And I don't know why I put up with it because God knows, I get next to nothing out of it.

Sorry to hear that Bunny!

I’d say that the cost benefit analysis, consciously done or not, still comes up positive enough for both of you.
I don’t understand this type of dynamic very well, but perhaps make sure he does know how this makes you feel?

 

[BiBunny]

Sorry to hear that Bunny!

I’d say that the cost benefit analysis, consciously done or not, still comes up positive enough for both of you.
I don’t understand this type of dynamic very well, but perhaps make sure he does know how this makes you feel?

You're probably right. But I have a hard time believing he'd care if I told him sometimes.

 

[IrisAlthea]

You're probably right. But I have a hard time believing he'd care if I told him sometimes.

I get that and I’m sorry because that is not a fun place to be.
Also, how we deal with these things is so personal and I tend to prefer my cost benefit analysis conscious and I want to know where I stand, even when it is off the cliff Coyote style.
Totally get if that isn’t everyones cup of tea though.

 

[BiBunny]

After a super gaslight-y meeting at hell job yesterday, I've decided nothing is ever going to change (which I pretty much knew, anyway).

I'd been toying with the idea of running my own direct dial lines, and I think I've decided to do it. It'll be a bit of an investment to start with, with no immediate payback, but it has the potential to be something so much better.

And what can I say? I'm a sucker for anything that has the possibility to go big. So I'm gonna work a little more, save up $100 extra to drop on content, a website or two, toll-free phone number(s), and a little paid advertising and give this a go. Fingers crossed the payment processor I want to use is still accepting new websites.

The thing about phone sex is, it's a lot like gambling. Most of the time, you can't expect much. But sometimes, something hits hard, and it'll make you rich. And you know it's not very likely to make you, personally, rich, but the draw is that it *might*. And I'm a junkie for that feeling, so here we go again.

Daddy is all for this, by the way. For all his general uselessness in a lot of ways, he IS at least supportive when I do things.

 

[BiBunny]

Talked to Daddy a little yesterday about service. I told him I wanted to serve him in every way, that he just needed to let me. He admitted that he doesn't know how to let me. And I told him he was not responsible for carrying everything by himself.

LET ME LOVE YOU, DAMMIT! (I didn't actually say that, lol.)

He said he would do his best to find some things for me to do, and I told him it would mean a lot to me to be allowed to serve him. Of course, this is all for naught if I don't get to see him sometime in the next hundred years, but yeah. I tried to talk to him about it. I don't know if he understood or not.

 

[BiBunny]

The biller I wanted to use for my direct dial stuff is indeed accepting new sites. He told me I could be up in the online terminal within 24 hours and have my website(s) integrated with click to call capabilities in a couple of days. Yes!

Problem is, my hands are tied at the moment because my debit card was compromised several days ago, and I'm currently waiting for a new one to come in the mail. So I can't buy the websites and content and phone numbers until the damn card comes. They said it'd be here tomorrow, and I hope it is.

Also, the billing service pays out 75% of what you bill customers for. So charging $2.00/min. will net me $1.50/min. That's more than twice what I'm making at hell company and 25% more than what I make on my platforms.

Only problem is, launching new stuff takes time. I'll consider myself lucky if I have a sale in the next 6 months, lol.

 

[BiBunny]

Sometimes, when I see the threads complaining about lack of "Femdom" content here, I want to start a thread of my own about personal and professional Femdom experiences and why male subs are not highly sought-after.

But I expect quite a few male subs would shit themselves if I did that (or else no one would care at all, lol), so I keep my opinion to myself.

 

[BiBunny]

I am officially set up with website, phone number, and billing. I'm going to start advertising tomorrow. So excited.

 

[BiBunny]

I feel like I have no one I can talk to about my problems with Daddy.

I'm hurt that I got him birthday and Christmas presents, and he still hasn't even let me come over and give them to him. It's goddamn February.

We haven't played since last Valentine's Day.

I told him it feels like he doesn't even want me around, and he was all, "It's not that, it's just hard times right now." Yeah, but you can't convince me there was no time at all in the last year that you couldn't have made an hour or two for me.

I feel like an unwanted kitten in the animal shelter. Everyone else is getting adopted but me.

 

[dreamysub]

I feel like I have no one I can talk to about my problems with Daddy.

I'm hurt that I got him birthday and Christmas presents, and he still hasn't even let me come over and give them to him. It's goddamn February.

We haven't played since last Valentine's Day.

I told him it feels like he doesn't even want me around, and he was all, "It's not that, it's just hard times right now." Yeah, but you can't convince me there was no time at all in the last year that you couldn't have made an hour or two for me.

I feel like an unwanted kitten in the animal shelter. Everyone else is getting adopted but me.

I am sorry you still didn't get to see your Daddy, Bunny. Maybe do what I had to do to get your needs met? I am not happy about it, but I definitely feel much better now. Know your worth! I know it's easier said than done, but as someone very wise told me, you are NOT getting any younger, but older. Don't waste your days waiting for someone to notice your value and all you are and can be for them! I know you love your Daddy and I do love my bf, but theres a fine line between being loved and being taken for granted and have your needs ignored.

I had to make a very hard decision and move on with my life and I did it for myself. We are still together, but I am DONE begging for his attention. For him to even notice I fucking exist except when he needs his pants or socks washed. I am DONE asking if he would like to spend some time with me. I am DONE begging for his touch or kiss. DONE begging him to love me back. DONE hoping one day he might realise theres nothing I wouldn't do for him. DONE being the fool whos willing to wait for days, weeks, months, years... that one day, maybeee one day he MIGHT want me again. DONE being the only one whos giving it all and getting pretty much fuck all in return.

You know IF someone wanna spend their time with you they WILL find a way to do so. It's pretty simple, but it took me years to figure it out. I've always had these worries in me, but what IF he just feel bad? What IF he's going thro something I don't see or don't understand? What IF he just have a bad day. Week. Month? What IF I ask for too much? What IF he really loves me and I just can't see it? What IF I was thinner and prettier, would he want me around more then? What IF I am not what he needs? What IF I can't keep him happy? What IF I ask for things he can't simply give to me? And I could go on and on...

It was always the " BUT WHAT IF HE.... " for me, but you know what? What about YOU? What about how YOU feel? What YOU need? What about YOUR dreams and wishes? What about days and nights and how YOU would love to spend them? What about all the time and effort YOU put in and get nothing back in return, or just the bare minimum? What about all the hurt YOU feel and have to deal with? What about YOUR lonely days and nighs? You matter, Bunny!! Wheter he can see it or not. Your feelings MATTER! Your needs MATTER!! Do love yourself enough to allow YOURSELF to be happy, Bunny. With, or without him.

When it comes to relationships what YOU feel about your Daddy is irelevant, sadly. It's about him and what HE'S willing to give you and to your relationship. How much time HE'S willing to find to spend with you and how much effort HE'S willing to make to keep you happy. We both know you are giving it your all, but is HE giving you the same back? I think thats exactely where our submissive side works soooo bad against us! At least it did for me.

I know you love him, Bunny, but please allow yourself to be happy. Put yourself first! Love yourself! As you are the ONLY ONE who always gonna be there for you. Not him, not anybody else, but YOU. So please be kind to yourself and start looking for someone who WILL apreciate all you have to offer and WILL spend the time with you. I know it's easy to say and I am not telling you to break down with your Daddy, but I would make it very clear to him that THIS doesn't work for YOU, cuz it doesn't. It's alright to have needs, wants and cravings! Normal loving person would see to it your needs get met! They would hate to see you down and they would do impossible to be there for you and give you what you need. If it's NOT happening somethings wrong. Been there done that... DONE with it!!

I didn't break up with my bf, but I have changed a lot. I had too. It was or that or end up in psychic clinic soon, as I just couldn't take that shit anymore. I chose ME! And I must say I feel much better now. I get to meet people who enjoy ME. People who find ME atrractive and hot just the way I am. People who are NOT ashamed go out with ME or to be seen with me. People who thinks I AM fun to talk to and play with. People who treats ME as if I was someone special! Who apreciate the time spend with ME. Hell they keep asking me when they can see ME again! ME... Something that felt so impossible until not that long time ago. I needed that. Needed someone to help me see my worth and I see it now. Wish I could help you to see YOUR WORTH, Bunny!!

*pulls Bunny closer, HUGGS her TIGHT and whispers...'I am here for you if you wanna talk girl..'

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[BiBunny]

I am sorry you still didn't get to see your Daddy, Bunny. Maybe do what I had to do to get your needs met? I am not happy about it, but I definitely feel much better now. Know your worth! I know it's easier said than done, but as someone very wise told me, you are NOT getting any younger, but older. Don't waste your days waiting for someone to notice your value and all you are and can be for them! I know you love your Daddy and I do love my bf, but theres a fine line between being loved and being taken for granted and have your needs ignored.

I had to make a very hard decision and move on with my life and I did it for myself. We are still together, but I am DONE begging for his attention. For him to even notice I fucking exist except when he needs his pants or socks washed. I am DONE asking if he would like to spend some time with me. I am DONE begging for his touch or kiss. DONE begging him to love me back. DONE hoping one day he might realise theres nothing I wouldn't do for him. DONE being the fool whos willing to wait for days, weeks, months, years... that one day, maybeee one day he MIGHT want me again. DONE being the only one whos giving it all and getting pretty much fuck all in return.

You know IF someone wanna spend their time with you they WILL find a way to do so. It's pretty simple, but it took me years to figure it out. I've always had these worries in me, but what IF he just feel bad? What IF he's going thro something I don't see or don't understand? What IF he just have a bad day. Week. Month? What IF I ask for too much? What IF he really loves me and I just can't see it? What IF I was thinner and prettier, would he want me around more then? What IF I am not what he needs? What IF I can't keep him happy? What IF I ask for things he can't simply give to me? And I could go on and on...

It was always the " BUT WHAT IF HE.... " for me, but you know what? What about YOU? What about how YOU feel? What YOU need? What about YOUR dreams and wishes? What about days and nights and how YOU would love to spend them? What about all the time and effort YOU put in and get nothing back in return, or just the bare minimum? What about all the hurt YOU feel and have to deal with? What about YOUR lonely days and nighs? You matter, Bunny!! Wheter he can see it or not. Your feelings MATTER! Your needs MATTER!! Do love yourself enough to allow YOURSELF to be happy, Bunny. With, or without him.

When it comes to relationships what YOU feel about your Daddy is irelevant, sadly. It's about him and what HE'S willing to give you and to your relationship. How much time HE'S willing to find to spend with you and how much effort HE'S willing to make to keep you happy. We both know you are giving it your all, but is HE giving you the same back? I think thats exactely where our submissive side works soooo bad against us! At least it did for me.

I know you love him, Bunny, but please allow yourself to be happy. Put yourself first! Love yourself! As you are the ONLY ONE who always gonna be there for you. Not him, not anybody else, but YOU. So please be kind to yourself and start looking for someone who WILL apreciate all you have to offer and WILL spend the time with you. I know it's easy to say and I am not telling you to break down with your Daddy, but I would make it very clear to him that THIS doesn't work for YOU, cuz it doesn't. It's alright to have needs, wants and cravings! Normal loving person would see to it your needs get met! They would hate to see you down and they would do impossible to be there for you and give you what you need. If it's NOT happening somethings wrong. Been there done that... DONE with it!!

I didn't break up with my bf, but I have changed a lot. I had too. It was or that or end up in psychic clinic soon, as I just couldn't take that shit anymore. I chose ME! And I must say I feel much better now. I get to meet people who enjoy ME. People who find ME atrractive and hot just the way I am. People who are NOT ashamed go out with ME or to be seen with me. People who thinks I AM fun to talk to and play with. People who treats ME as if I was someone special! Who apreciate the time spend with ME. Hell they keep asking me when they can see ME again! ME... Something that felt so impossible until not that long time ago. I needed that. Needed someone to help me see my worth and I see it now. Wish I could help you to see YOUR WORTH, Bunny!!

*pulls Bunny closer, HUGGS her TIGHT and whispers...'I am here for you if you wanna talk girl..'

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Thank you so much.

I know he's very neglectful and not likely to change this late in the game. I also know the only answer is to get out of the relationship, but I'm stubborn and loyal and honestly dumb and will go down with the ship every time.

I know I should get another Daddy. But I don't want another one. I want this one not to suck. I've never been good at replacing one person with another. It's just not the same.

Thank you for being there for me. I have nobody in real life I can really talk to.

 

[IrisAlthea]

I'm stubborn and loyal and honestly dumb and will go down with the ship every time.

I can very much relate to being like that.

Over time though, I learned to swim and to not trust others to check that there are life vests and boats and I learned to be very clear and open about my thoughts on the ice berg dead ahead.

I am terrible to talk to about things like this because while I can understand where you are coming from, I can’t really in good concience tell you anything else than that I think it is time to tell him that you will be in the life boat and that he alone is in charge of either staying the course or turning around.
Doesn’t have to mean ending it, but let him know that he knows where you and the presents you spent money and effort on are and that it is up to him where you go from here.

I feel torn about answering, because I know I’ve said more or less the same before and that it might not be what you want to hear, but I also don’t want you to feel that you have to put up with this or think that I’m not sorry or get that it sucks.

And I’m a bit stubborn and loyal and don’t always know when to stop…so do tell me if you would rather want me to stay off the topic. I totally get if that’s the case and I will not get upset.