Bi Married and closeted

[bimori]

A new one of me. Love to chat with other cross dressers. I’m 52, not passable but I’m working on that and live just outside NYC.

Love your look.

 

[SoCalex]

Openly bi/bi-curious to my girlfriend… she knows MMF porn is my go-to and I talk about it a lot while we are fucking. One of my favorite things to do is when she feeds me our dildo as I’m inside of her, then we suck it together. It makes me cum really hard, I just wish it was a real cock that would explode cum all over my mouth and throat.

I also tell her while I’m fucking her that I’d love to watch another guy fuck her so I could pull his cock out and suck her pussy off it, then eventually eat his cum out of her. At this point in my life, I’d probably actually do this all if she was into it for real but sadly, it’s all fantasy to her and would never be something she’d do in real life.

I also fantasize about her watching me suck another guy and fuck my ass. I’ve never been with another guy but it’s something that I’ve been wanting to do for at least 30 years. For now, it will have to remain a fantasy/dream.

 

[Britishguy66]

How many are similar to me in that this and reading the stories becomes your outlet?
58 orally bi mwm who is overly cautious almost paranoid about meeting someone and the repercussions of coming out are more than I wish to deal with.

I can;t be alone in this

Im exactly the same as you, it's tough

 

[tristantrotsky]

Im exactly the same as you, it's tough

So sad to live in regret and unfulfilled need.
Maybe you should be just a little braver?

 

[Britishguy66]

So sad to live in regret and unfulfilled need.
Maybe you should be just a little braver?

I need to be and meet the kind of people I want to

 

[tristantrotsky]

I need to be and meet the kind of people I want to

This is a great forum to meet the right like-minded kind of person...

 

[Britishguy66]

This is a great forum to meet the right like-minded kind of person...

I certainly hope so. Looking for a mature cd/trans for fun

 

[Curiousmn]

i guess Lesbians just don;t want to chat lol..

I’m not a lesbian, but I’d love to chat.

 

[packy26]

Thinking back on things, I've probably always had bi tendencies. When I was younger (much younger) actually acting on such desires was still pretty taboo. There was also a ready supply of young ladies willing to play, so there was no pressure to act on same sex urges. As I've aged I have become more openly interested in pursuing those urges. As the thread title says, however, bi-married-and-closeted. I'm lucky that I am not in a sexless marriage even though our levels of desire are quite different. I would never act in a way to risk my marriage with either a male or a female so, for now at least, my bi tendencies stay in the realm of internet chat, crossdressing, and fantasy. It could be worse.

Reading your story and many others in here, I know I am privileged to be with the amazing woman that I am.
Married forever, and have managed to introduce her to me being completely shaved and her fucking me with a range of dildos (started off pretty small/lifeless and now she uses 7" realistic cock in a strapon) in a range of positions, including me sucking her off.
My favourite - cowboy/girl, whatever its called in this situation. Its an amazing feeling seeing her watch my cock bounce as I ride hers.
With that tho, I would love to experience the real thing, but like most in here, am too scared of the consequences.

 

[jakie69]

I’ve always known I was bi, over the years I’ve come out to partners and hid so far in the closet I was in the dark. The stories on this site always kept me going even when I couldn’t express myself and be who i am. Some partners were open and accepting others were definitely not. When I met and married my wife I went through phases of indulging my self behind her back and then closeting myself as far as I could. Eventually I came out and not only did she accept and encourage me to express who I was she also helped me embrace my sissy and eventually trans side. I think without this forum and the stories on lit I would’ve struggled more than I did. Sometimes porn videos don’t cut it.

 

[Crios]

I've embraced my bisexuality...I've fallen in love with Taylor Swift and her music!
Not to mention the fact I'd love to be able to wear her clothes.

 

[farmertrappe]

Happy Saturday

Like a lot of you, I am a bi married guy who's wife lost interest in any sex many years ago. I have had playmates over the years seeking to fill the void, but have not been with anyone of the last few years. My interest has revealed itself again and am interested in meeting a friend close to my location. If anyone is near Central Ohio and interested in chatting, please PM me.

5' 9", 145 pounds, athletic build, 7" cut and thick, more sub(femme even) than dom.

Hi from. NOBLE COUNTY, checking g to see if you are still around here.Dave

 

[BlueEyes1969]

Seemed like a pretty specific niche to me....till I read all of the responses.

Similar here, though I want, need, and have had it all...but not in a long time. I'm also closeted to everyone....except my supportive wife.

That said, looking forward to a trip to San Diego in the next couple of weeks to help a friend with a very technical project. Recent conversations have led me to believe he has more diverse, shall we way "inclinations", than I previously realized. I'll find out. If not, there's always the Hillcrest district. - (On edit: BTW, trip didn't happen. The project needs good weather and we haven't been able to meet that requirement and squeeze it in between other commitments. Still in the works though.)

San Diego provides some great opportunities! Hope it happens for you!

 

[OlderBtm4U]

Hi from. NOBLE COUNTY, checking g to see if you are still around here.Dave

Im in Noble Co. Indiana

 

[AmandaKellyUK]

My husband, friends, family have no idea about my bi side, i think by now I quite enjoy this secret side thats just for me

 

[Joeyinla]

Yes to all three

 

[HidingOutinTX]

How many are similar to me in that this and reading the stories becomes your outlet?
58 orally bi mwm who is overly cautious almost paranoid about meeting someone and the repercussions of coming out are more than I wish to deal with.

I can;t be alone in this

Exactly the boat I am in…

 

[peter49parker]

My husband, friends, family have no idea about my bi side, i think by now I quite enjoy this secret side thats just for me

I can appreciate that. It's nice to have that 'special' secret.

 

[PleasePeesMe]

My husband, friends, family have no idea about my bi side, i think by now I quite enjoy this secret side thats just for me

No-one knows I'm a cocksuscker, but sometimes, I wish the world did!

 

[Patticd]

No-one knows I'm a cocksuscker, but sometimes, I wish the world did!

Well said!!

 

[Crios]

Thought this was appropriate

"Masculine" Dudes Admitted All The "Stereotypically Feminine" Things They Love

1, 2, 3, 10, 12 and 15 would be my favs.

 

[wetsawdust]

I'm a couple of months in on my journey. Can I share? I spoke a bit on other threads, but it was a little glossed over.
Right around the time I turned 50, I decided to get rid of barriers to feeling daily joy. My youngest would ask me why I was always grumpy....and at one point about a half a year ago I asked myself the same question. Why am I always grumpy? Turns out, I was grumpy because I was living as how I assumed a man like myself should be. I realized that I am effeminate, sensitive, and vulnerable. Not what society expects of a man. But fuck that, right? I have three daughters, a wife, and a lady dog. It's fucking estrofest in my house every day. It's bound to rub off and I AM FUCKING THANKFUL FOR THAT. I take pride in being hard to define.
So I started to heal that. One morning I woke up and EVERYTHING changed. Like, my brain did a ton of heavy lifting overnight and saved me the trouble. I woke and realized that I'm queer. I acknowledged that and instantly felt a HUGE weight lift off of me. I didn't know what it meant, what it was going to bring to me, but it was here, and it was awake. And look, I know this is some classic midlife crisis bullshit from a 50 year old guy who has it all, great family, job, house. But it's real to me. So real. I didn't want it, didn't ask for it.....but I'm not fighting it anymore.
I'm sad, excited, horny, and terrified. I don't want to lose my marriage, my family, my home. But fuck, I am obligated to be true. If it can't be honest, I can't be.

So what's next? I'm hoping I found someone to help guide me. Not sexually, but just navigationally. This IS SO FUCKING HEAVY because it isn't about sex. It's about identity and feelings, and time.

In an ideal world, I'd have known this 25 years ago. And looking back 25 years, there are clues everywhere. I'm just now ready to decipher them.

Fuck.

On the up side, I'm 50, and I'm told I get more handsome every day. I'm content to come out to myself. But I just came out to you. Oof, that's kinda heavy.

Love is real, not fade away.

 

[PFWilly]

How many are similar to me in that this and reading the stories becomes your outlet?
58 orally bi mwm who is overly cautious almost paranoid about meeting someone and the repercussions of coming out are more than I wish to deal with.

I can;t be alone in this

Similar, but as others have mentioned, not completely closeted.

My wife has known for a long time (57 years…lol) about my bisexual side. She’s been interested in hearing details about my contacts with two other guys. One prior to our marriage, and another several years after we were hitched. But after that second guy, who she also had an encounter with separately, I entered a long dry spell as my focus became on career and family. Then…early retirement for me because of heart disease, reignited my interest in guys. She made it crystal clear that she didn’t want to hear, or know about any new encounters. Our own personal don’t ask, don’t tell sort of situation. Only a couple of close family members and friends know of my predilections. Which is just fine.

 

[badonkadoku]

How many are similar to me in that this and reading the stories becomes your outlet?
58 orally bi mwm who is overly cautious almost paranoid about meeting someone and the repercussions of coming out are more than I wish to deal with.

I can;t be alone in this

You're very much not alone in this. Personally I have a lot to lose for 'coming out', so I have no such intention. I have been able to act on my desires with a friend I met through CL back in the day when that was more available. But I since moved away and have become more inhibited in acting out my urges any further.

 

[Funguy63]

Great sharing guys. I too had some blowjobs at arcades in the 80s. Shared with my new wife who loved to hear me recount the events during sex. But she has always said I was homophobic. Well one day I told her, I'm not! all the guys who sucked my cock were gay!
She is always very pro LGBT so another day I said I could be BI and all she said was no screwing around.
What she didn't know was I blew my first of 3 cocks the month before. I haven't since but want more. The subject is like smoke, it's there, if you try to focus on it, it disappears and I am scared/nervous to bring it into the light. We are going to Vegas soon, it would be great to go to a gay club with her but I know its just a wish.