schizochick
Really Experienced
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- Jul 21, 2020
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....and if you are really crazy in your head, you will actually, willingly, jump into it. And then, it will eat you, or you will eat it, either way something will.. come, out of it. Then it wont make any difference, believe me, it wont make any difference. Nobody understands when i talk about it, they give me my meds to shutmeup, but it wont make any difference. Because then you are in it and it is in you, you are it and it is you. You realize something that cannot be put to words. You can show it to someone if they can look deep into your eyes, and are willing to get lost in it, that infinite madness, inside you, thats also inside them. Its inside everything, it is, everything. It is you. You are.. dreaming and when you dream, sometimes you realize you are different, different body different mind, whole different person, whatever you dream becomes real to you as long as you are dreaming that dream it is real to you, you will feel that whatever you dream as is you and the world around as yours, as your reality. I fell into it the first time when i was a little baby, i was just very little, they sent me to sleep... and.. i just.. i was gone? I was there but i was gone. I just couldnt tell the difference. I was scared but i was not. I was not scared but i yet was. i was falling into that madness, and it was endless, it was infinite, there was no time, because there was no me, yet i was, me, without being, me. Nobody will understand, but it doesnt matter anymore because i know, everything is me. Different dreams i dream, i feel as a different person when i dream different dreams but yet im the same person. I can neve die, because there is no time for death to exist there. When i jumped into it, or when it jumped into me, i realized its all just stories that we choose to believe in that became so real to us, it doesnt matter in the end. One should feel free to make their own story into reality. Im you, im me, everything you wanna be. Im perception. Im existence and nothingness, energy and consciousness. Im nothing.. yet everything exist inside of it or i exist without existing inside everything. Im pure consciousness. I have no name no fame no shame no aim never the same yet eternal and timeless and ageless. They keep asking me which came first chicken or egg and i tell them, nothing, because there is no chicken ir egg or im both chicken and egg because both chicken and egg exists in the dream im dreaming, they are made of me and im made of them, i create myself, myself, nothing came first or last and nothing can live and die because there is no time, because im dreaming up time too. I exist beyond space and beyond time. When you feel it atleast for a moment you feel that you can never die because you are light. Everything is made of light and light cannot die. Light is both particle and a wave at the same time, just an infinite wavy potential of nothing or everything made of subatomic particles of energy somehow at the same time. What a miracle? There is no blue pill or red pill or black even as they say because im dreaming it all up its part of my dream and when im willing to wake up, it wont matter which pill, its the willingness to feel the truth that does the trick. And that moment, even just for a momemt, from the Second Attention, You fall into The Third Attention, The Superconscious Awareness, that you, are God itself.

