It's your birthday LordPmann? Then HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
I have huge trust issues. Even with people I've known for 20-25 years. I wish I had as close a friend as many of you have described, but I'm not sure that I can really say that I do.
Other than my husband. My husband is def my BF(Hopefully)F.
I didn't have a ton of friends in school because I was different from most of the other kids (brown). But I thought my volleyball teammates were my friends. But after I quit volleyball to focus exclusively on tennis, my former friends/teammates sort of ghosted me. I was good at tennis, some said "very good", but tennis is very much a solitary sport. Especially when you're a girl and you cream all the guys on the court. My coaches became my "best friends", until I blew out both my knees and words like "nationals" and "when she turns pro" disappeared.
Re-integrating into high school without sports as a major part of my life was very weird and definitely made me a loner. Until one of the most popular girls in school took me under her wing. I was uncompromisingly devoted to her and we ended up going down a pretty dark path together. So, viola, trust issues.
I try to be nice to everyone I meet and work with but people do get on my sh^t list (some say without much effort) so I would say that I have lots of varying degrees of acquaintances rather than outright friends in the RW.
Ironically, one of the things that has kept me a Litster for these past few years is some of the so called virtual friendships I have formed on here. Virtual or not, I have been able to tell certain people things on here I've hardly ever admitted to myself, much less anyone else.
In many ways, opening up to friends on here has enabled me to be more open and trusting with other people in the RW - especially at work.
And for that I thank both them and Lit
Dating the co-captain of the varsity cheerleaders was totally the sweetest revenge
