LikeableMe
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I've been in that situation as well. I worked at a job that I loved with people that were great to work with. While the company president could be a nice guy, he could also be a manipulative jerk. Two employees had nervous breakdowns in the relatively short time that I worked for the company.
I became disillusioned when he did some rather underhanded financial things with regard to a customer that were designed to line his pockets. We wound up losing that customer as a result. He also was cooking the books with the sales director to change the way order bookings happened to maximize the payout the company made in commissions for the sales.
Ultimately, he and I had a falling out over something that had nothing to do with work - a fundraiser for a local non-profit where he didn't do the things he needed to. The co-ordinator for the non-profit took the event away from my boss without telling him and put it in the hands of another businessman. My boss blamed me for his shortcomings and abused me verbally in front of other staff about it at work, but it was his own fault.
After weeks of stress and sleepless nights over the whole deal, I decided that my health wasn't worth it and gave my notice, telling HR that I would stay to train my replacement - which I did. I left without another job and it took me a few months to find a situation that was right. Tough times. My long-time girlfriend at the time and I had been on-again and off-again due to life's ups and downs and the distance and we were in the process of reconciling and making a decision to be together. Leaving the job and some other things about it made me lose some self-confidence at the time and we separated for good.
Ultimately, that decision was good for me professionally, but not personally. The company president's financial malfeasance was later found out by corporate and the board of directors and he was fired. I was asked to come back as the VP of R&D by the new president, but decided not to take the job. I probably should have.
Thank you for sharing. It’s really reassuring to hear about these things, and know people have put themselves first, and that if I do so, it doesn’t make me a horrible person. Like you, I’m also going through similar in my personal life, I think I’ve lost my closest friend, and I’m mourning like someone has passed away - it’s making me feel even more alone in all of this. He was such a great influence on me, so I’m trying to implement the things I know he would say, such as not to let people use/walk on me, to stand up for myself and not be scared to do so, but it hurts as I know he’s not around to say them. I already contacted my doctor and had the stress and effects work is having on me added to my patient file, so I know my doctor will sign me off work if I go in, but I also know it won’t do me any favours in terms of the complaint I’m planning to file, as they will need me. I’m working every single day until Christmas Day.
Before this job, I was a workaholic. For my last job, I would happily work 14 hour shifts, and do prep from home. I work six, sometimes seven days a week. So to go from that, to someone who doesn’t want to go to work at all is a major change. Hopefully the complaint will at the very least get me the reduction in hours I was promised, and after Christmas I am going to make sure I focus on things in my personal life that make me happy. I’m not going to let them affect the time I’m off shift, as well as the time I’m there!
Thanks again for the response, it really does help to know others understand!