LITEROTICA PODCAST
LIT CAMS (200 Free Tokens)ADULT TOYSVOD MOVIES

Confessions: What Are Yours? Part IV

Status
Not open for further replies.
ICT I want a quiet hotel room, a bag full of toys, a webcam, and a willing partner to spend the day with. Then I want to go dancing, find another willing partner, go back to the room, and spend the night with them both.
 
ICT I miss every single thing about him. His slight accent, his cheesy grin, that soulful look in his eyes when he'd stare and shake his head at his own thoughts of me.
 
One of the activities I enjoy is going to the birthdays section and looking at the people and when they joined and when their last activity was. I spend more time looking at the older people to see when they joined and if they are still active. It's amazing how many people join and have zero posts yet fill out a bit in their profile. And so many joined 12-15 years ago and their last actuivity was he day they joined. I wond rnif they are still alive. If they created a different account and actually were active on here. I wonder why some people who were on here from say 2002-2007 and have thousands of posts, why they left. Do you stop being a pervert? Do you find somewhere else for your perversions?
 
For a long time I would have said that I hated giving head, that cum was gross and what not.

But the truth is, if I hated it so much I probably wouldn't do it as often as I do. I've had sex with about 10 guys, but I'll bet I've sucked off about 40.

The first lie I told myself was that I didn't want to get pregnant, then it was that it was easier in college when roommates where asleep or could come in any time.... but come on, I gotta admit, I kinda like how much of a slut it makes me feel like.

I walked in on a roommate blowing a guy once and it was simply the sluttiest thing I had seen in person, jaw extended head going back and forth a guys hand on the back of her head.... so filthy.

I like watching porn with girls blowing their guys, such a private moment. I could simply never have the same respect for a woman once I had seen her servicing a cock with her mouth. Fucking, sure that's good for you also, a guy going down on a girl, ya he's a stud, but its so submissive and dirty to let a guy cum on your face or in your mouth or even on your tits.

This isn't very feminist, I know, but it's just this one thing I can't get over. I'm actually really nervous after the first time I blow a guy, like he might look at me like some kind of filthy animal that he would never speak to again. I was incredibly relieved when my new guy I am with looked ecstatic after the first time I blew him. This is getting better as I get older.

I understand this is a huuuuuge double standard. I wish I felt it was more empowering or something like that. I don't think of myself as submissive either, but I do this thing that I find totally submissive and I feel pretty whorish and completely turned on when I do it.

IACT hoping that made sense.
 
Soma99 said:
For a long time I would have said that I hated giving head, that cum was gross and what not.

But the truth is, if I hated it so much I probably wouldn't do it as often as I do. I've had sex with about 10 guys, but I'll bet I've sucked off about 40.

The first lie I told myself was that I didn't want to get pregnant, then it was that it was easier in college when roommates where asleep or could come in any time.... but come on, I gotta admit, I kinda like how much of a slut it makes me feel like.

I walked in on a roommate blowing a guy once and it was simply the sluttiest thing I had seen in person, jaw extended head going back and forth a guys hand on the back of her head.... so filthy.

I like watching porn with girls blowing their guys, such a private moment. I could simply never have the same respect for a woman once I had seen her servicing a cock with her mouth. Fucking, sure that's good for you also, a guy going down on a girl, ya he's a stud, but its so submissive and dirty to let a guy cum on your face or in your mouth or even on your tits.

This isn't very feminist, I know, but it's just this one thing I can't get over. I'm actually really nervous after the first time I blow a guy, like he might look at me like some kind of filthy animal that he would never speak to again. I was incredibly relieved when my new guy I am with looked ecstatic after the first time I blew him. This is getting better as I get older.

I understand this is a huuuuuge double standard. I wish I felt it was more empowering or something like that. I don't think of myself as submissive either, but I do this thing that I find totally submissive and I feel pretty whorish and completely turned on when I do it.

IACT hoping that made sense.
Click to expand...

It makes perfect sense ;) glad for your whorish ways. Every guys loves them, and the ones who deny are lying lol
 
Soma99 said:
For a long time I would have said that I hated giving head, that cum was gross and what not.

But the truth is, if I hated it so much I probably wouldn't do it as often as I do. I've had sex with about 10 guys, but I'll bet I've sucked off about 40.

The first lie I told myself was that I didn't want to get pregnant, then it was that it was easier in college when roommates where asleep or could come in any time.... but come on, I gotta admit, I kinda like how much of a slut it makes me feel like.

I walked in on a roommate blowing a guy once and it was simply the sluttiest thing I had seen in person, jaw extended head going back and forth a guys hand on the back of her head.... so filthy.

I like watching porn with girls blowing their guys, such a private moment. I could simply never have the same respect for a woman once I had seen her servicing a cock with her mouth. Fucking, sure that's good for you also, a guy going down on a girl, ya he's a stud, but its so submissive and dirty to let a guy cum on your face or in your mouth or even on your tits.

This isn't very feminist, I know, but it's just this one thing I can't get over. I'm actually really nervous after the first time I blow a guy, like he might look at me like some kind of filthy animal that he would never speak to again. I was incredibly relieved when my new guy I am with looked ecstatic after the first time I blew him. This is getting better as I get older.

I understand this is a huuuuuge double standard. I wish I felt it was more empowering or something like that. I don't think of myself as submissive either, but I do this thing that I find totally submissive and I feel pretty whorish and completely turned on when I do it.

IACT hoping that made sense.
Click to expand...

I want to fuck you like any of your stories.
 
Soma99 said:
For a long time I would have said that I hated giving head, that cum was gross and what not.

But the truth is, if I hated it so much I probably wouldn't do it as often as I do. I've had sex with about 10 guys, but I'll bet I've sucked off about 40.

The first lie I told myself was that I didn't want to get pregnant, then it was that it was easier in college when roommates where asleep or could come in any time.... but come on, I gotta admit, I kinda like how much of a slut it makes me feel like.

I walked in on a roommate blowing a guy once and it was simply the sluttiest thing I had seen in person, jaw extended head going back and forth a guys hand on the back of her head.... so filthy.

I like watching porn with girls blowing their guys, such a private moment. I could simply never have the same respect for a woman once I had seen her servicing a cock with her mouth. Fucking, sure that's good for you also, a guy going down on a girl, ya he's a stud, but its so submissive and dirty to let a guy cum on your face or in your mouth or even on your tits.

This isn't very feminist, I know, but it's just this one thing I can't get over. I'm actually really nervous after the first time I blow a guy, like he might look at me like some kind of filthy animal that he would never speak to again. I was incredibly relieved when my new guy I am with looked ecstatic after the first time I blew him. This is getting better as I get older.

I understand this is a huuuuuge double standard. I wish I felt it was more empowering or something like that. I don't think of myself as submissive either, but I do this thing that I find totally submissive and I feel pretty whorish and completely turned on when I do it.

IACT hoping that made sense.
Click to expand...

Fascinating. My wife hates it, and I think she truly does, it hasn't happened since our honeymoon. It is terribly one sided, but giving pleasure/ecstasy to someone isn't always a two way street. Keep going!
 
ICT I've been ina mood for awhile now but it's finally lifted and I feel better in my head.

IACT I am now grandma to the prettiest lil girl. That makes me Nama x3 now :)

IFCT sometimes I feel like a teenager in my head and it blows my mind that I'm actually a 43yr. old mother of 5 and grandmother of 3
 
Ict I miss her as much as I ever have. The only thing that makes this so much easier to deal with, is the knowledge I will see her again. And again. And again, until she's all mine

Then I won't worry about seeing her again, I'll be busy celebrating that fact with her daily.
 
ICT I bought into the lie of being a good guy, playing by the rules, saving myself for marriage. Sure I had a few indiscretions, yet never actual intercourse. I figured that I was supposed to save myself for marriage. And that within marriage we would have the best, most frequesnt, passionate, erotic sex because it was with the person i loved and they loved me. That we would be so into each other we wouldn't keep our hands off each other. There would be flirting, passion, teasing... oh... how stupid I was.

IACT regardless of being stupid, I can't help but shake that it will happen someday (been married for 17 years)... that I feel so overly guilty trying to find an online relationship.

IFCT because of all this, I am tired of sex. Tired of reading about it, tired of dreaming about it. I want to declare my independnce of it.
 
ThirdShift said:
ICT I bought into the lie of being a good guy, playing by the rules, saving myself for marriage. Sure I had a few indiscretions, yet never actual intercourse. I figured that I was supposed to save myself for marriage. And that within marriage we would have the best, most frequent, passionate, erotic sex because it was with the person i loved and they loved me. That we would be so into each other we wouldn't keep our hands off each other. There would be flirting, passion, teasing... oh... how stupid I was.

IACT regardless of being stupid, I can't help but shake that it will happen someday (been married for 17 years)... that I feel so overly guilty trying to find an online relationship.

IFCT because of all this, I am tired of sex. Tired of reading about it, tired of dreaming about it. I want to declare my independence of it.
Click to expand...

ICT I can relate to some of this at a certain level. Some of us are definitely stupid for marrying a certain person, present company included. We get this Pollyanna view of how life should be with someone else. The problem is that it's not all sunshine and roses, now is it?

IACT when I finally figured out that he was running around on me (after denying it to myself for the longest time), I had to ask myself: am I really that undesirable? Am I really that unattractive? Am I that poor of a lover that I can't satisfy your sexual needs? You get the general idea...

IACT the one smart thing that I ever did in my life was divorce the asshole, but it took me long enough.

IACT relationships never really got better after that. It was one thing or the other: either they never wanted to see me again after one date, or they wanted to get into my pants after dinner. Gee, I didn't know I had to reimburse you with sexual favors for that dinner at Denny's (you remember, the one that you had the coupon for).

IFCT like the above, I'm sick and tired of sex. I'm tired of the bullshit, the expectations, the disappointment. I never wanted to feel this way, but I do. I read about others here having so much fun with their sex lives. And I admit that I get jealous of some of you. It like, why can't I have that? I can't even get pleasure out of masturbating anymore. How sad is that? Even sadder, I can remember the absolute pleasure I would experience. I just don't want it anymore, all the life shit has turned me off from it.

IFFCT don't feel sorry for me. A lot of this is my own doing. I've made more than my share of bad life choices, many against the advice of others, because I thought I fucking knew better. I'm just reaping that which I've sown. I have to lay in the bed of my own making.

Rant over. I'm leaving.
 
Last edited by a moderator:
ICT Getting up at 8am on a Saturday and not getting to bed til 4am Sunday is totally worth it when you wake up at 11am to hot coffee and sex
 
ICT feeling the need to help someone who doesn't want the help you're offering can be frustrating. Even when they have a good reason.

IACT that if he touches he again, there's going to be hell to pay.
 
ICT I'm a fool. And a tool.

IACT even though I am aware of it...I can't seem to fix that.

IFCT I think it would be better if I were oblivious to it and was just a complete idiot.
 
lurkingguy1978 said:
ICT I'm a fool. And a tool.

IACT even though I am aware of it...I can't seem to fix that.

IFCT I think it would be better if I were oblivious to it and was just a complete idiot.
Click to expand...

ICT- We all can be at times, but sadly many of those things that make us feel like that, are what make us who we are
IACT- I think you are great, just as you are. Tool and fool included. :kiss:
 
I am very self conscious to the point I work out mostly for the way other people view me and not the way I see myself in the mirror. I was a chubby kid and wa slicked on a lot, even now when friends joke about my "weight" it hurts.
 
ICT all this has happened before & is happening again. Do I ever learn? It would seem I don’t.
IACT I’m walking into this with more hope than I should probably have. I probably shouldn’t & yet I can’t help it because of her & who she is. Sometimes, you’ve just got to say “fuck it” & let the chips fall where they may.
IFCT sometimes you also need to remember what it means to be truly alive & let yourself feel everything that comes with that.
 
Status
Not open for further replies.

Similar threads

Q
Blackmailed by son in law
Replies
14
Views
741
Eileensmalltits
E
tnman03
Auto-Masturbators for guys what are you using?
Replies
16
Views
711
awired50
awired50
Darkchoclentine
So many threads, need suggestions where to start.
Replies
0
Views
277
Darkchoclentine
Darkchoclentine
Paguy8641
Oops wrong person
Replies
18
Views
2K
joclfc
joclfc
7inchglory
A Tool for Your Relationship: What Number?
Replies
0
Views
546
7inchglory
7inchglory
Back
Top