Ok.. only Dom/Domme's allowed in this topic..

Hey everyone, what's up? How have you all been? :)

Doing well, Betticus, thanks for asking. How are you?

Also, what's the over/under on posts from Doms and Dommes before the brats invade the thread? Whatever it is, I'll take the under! :D
 
Been busting my ass for work. 60 hour workweeks are NOT "semi retired". And SHE has been out of town for a week.

You got that heart thing of yours under control yet?
 
Doing well, Betticus, thanks for asking. How are you?

Also, what's the over/under on posts from Doms and Dommes before the brats invade the thread? Whatever it is, I'll take the under! :D

I'm still alive and kicking. The heart issue actually feels like it is getting worse. I am kind of getting used to the flutters and stuff but it's weird. I suppose that other than being on medical leave and facing the end of my career and a medical retirement and disability I'm doing okay. Other than a few weeks ago getting arrested and then thrown in a psych ward for almost a week which was kind of just a little misunderstanding.

As for the / thing it is just a way of including both male and female dominants as their own entities. I suppose one could just say doms and that covers everyone as a group.

I'm pretty sure that since the topic says doms only every sub will be like "f this" and jump in to see what is up.
 
I'm still alive and kicking. The heart issue actually feels like it is getting worse. I am kind of getting used to the flutters and stuff but it's weird. I suppose that other than being on medical leave and facing the end of my career and a medical retirement and disability I'm doing okay. Other than a few weeks ago getting arrested and then thrown in a psych ward for almost a week which was kind of just a little misunderstanding.

As for the / thing it is just a way of including both male and female dominants as their own entities. I suppose one could just say doms and that covers everyone as a group.

I'm pretty sure that since the topic says doms only every sub will be like "f this" and jump in to see what is up.

Which is your master plan?
Glad you are feeling better.
 
Life is good. On a train home from New York. Had a great time but learned trips like this are great for draining all the excess energy from my kids. Can't wait to be home and sleep in my own bed. Will also be nice to have some time without the kids in the same room lol.

Curious though as to why you requested Doms only? Just requesting it for no apparent reason is just begging this group to challenge it.
 
Graceanne would cut me if I supplied sneaky cookies.. She is a chocolate chip cookie girl to the core..

I love the awesome warm and chewy ginger cookies.. NOM!

One of my pals in Colorado Springs is a pastry chef and he had a cookie cart.. also two stores in local malls.. Name is no shit Otho.. He is so amazing.. not only cookies which are his passion but caters events, does holiday specials like a whole thanksgiving spread one can buy and take home or have catered to your home...

He is also a big ol gay teddy bear and sweet as the day is long. He used to shamelessly flirt with my gf and since he was gay it was really just honest appreciation of her so she gave him the best hugs..

He is some kind of cookie guru and dammit.. I would almost go gay for those cookies just maybe one time.. as a favor..
 
I just got the worst news this morning. My sub went and married someone a few months ago. She never even gave me a clue. I was so giving her space to work out her life and even though it has been a long time she and I never dissolved our M/s relationship. She says that this marriage to another is just for insurance and that he is not even a Dom.

I asked her how I failed her as a dom so badly that she could not even talk to me about this a long time ago. I never abused her, not even once on accident. I did spank and choke her but never did it ever go past I am just learning who you are.. At the first sign of her body language going into focus I backed it off and let her slip into subspace and just held her there until she gave the signal to come back.. I spent a lot of time getting into tune with her but for the past about three years she said he loved me but needed space to find herself..

I am trying to talk with her just openly and honestly with no angst.. I even told her if she wanted him that I would freely let her go and at this point she seems to be hung up and can't even answer me.

I claimed her as mine and told her that our agreement never expired. that she is still my sub no matter what and that I would only let her go if that is what she wants in her life..

I am stuck waiting on a response and it is killing me inside. I love her and she has a beautiful little girl who I also love to the end of my soul as if she were my own.

I am now thinking what did I do wrong to fuck this up? I have to wait on her response but damn... I might be a dom and all of that shit but my heart is no different than anyone elses and it gets broken sometimes.

If it is going to come down to breaking my heart I would rather her just be honest with me and if I hurt then that hurt is my problem and not hers.. I just want honesty.

I could use a hug
 
^^^ hugs ya, sort of from afar because i'm not super huggy.

Sometimes it's not about the love or the connection or the submission. Sometimes, it's about safety, financially and emotionally. It's shitty but it happens.

I hope you find an explanation that soothes your heart.
 
Yea... what she said...
Also.
You didn't fail... remember that. There is no "you" in relationship...
 
^^^ hugs ya, sort of from afar because i'm not super huggy.

Sometimes it's not about the love or the connection or the submission. Sometimes, it's about safety, financially and emotionally. It's shitty but it happens.

I hope you find an explanation that soothes your heart.

This is not about finance at all.. I can only share what I do for a career in private messages.. I mean it.. just pm me for that..

It is not about her submission.. The first time she and I ever met it was like a puzzle snapping together and she and I both felt it and knew instantly who we were for each other. It is also not about safety.. fuck that.. I have been professionally trained by .. no shit lesbian biker Dommes who taught me that my respect for women as a dom comes first.. I love them all so much for helping me to find who I am and to defuse my past and to just be a good person..

Even at first meet if someone asks me to dom for her or him I tell them that I do not know them so any play would be so light it would be not what they want..

I only ever love one person and only her at a time.. I am an asshole and I get that some of my posts are over the top but in reality I am so by the book and professional about everything that it turns most people off.

Maybe my heart is just broken and I need to let that happen.. no matter what this is not her fault.. it is my failure as a dom.

I hate failure
 
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