The "Fuck you cancer!" thread
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Yep it wasn't good, you know it's bad when the Doctors start telling the patient how sorry they are. Pancreatic cancer that has spread to his liver, four to six months left. They want to try double chemotherapy where they do 6 hours at the hospital then more at home. I don't see the point as they can't cure it. Life is short, consider doing what matters now rather then later.
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I'm sorry Vorpalone.
Strength to you both
Strength to you both
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Best wishes for a speedy return home. Positive energy sent your way cmslt. Be well and stay strong.
Vorpalone...so very sorry your loved ones and you have to deal with cancer in your lives. Pancreatic/Liver cancer is horrible. I know from my own family experience.
To those of you who have read my posts regarding my brother, things have gone from bad, to really bad, to beyond definition. As I write this, I'm at my brother's home in the mountains. After spending weeks with me, at my home, as his health deteriorated from his cancer, we have called in hospice and decided to stop all cancer treatment. His one wish was to die in his own home. A few days ago, I brought him home to do that.
No more doctor's appts. No more four hour jaunts to Sloan Kettering. No more meds, shots, IV's, or lab work. Now, we focus on a positive death process. Now, we focus on comfort and doing whatever is possible to lessen his pain. Now, we say all the "I love you's" we possibly can. Now, we cry and say our good byes.
He has suffered far more than any one person should have to suffer. He lived through his entire illness with dignity and grace. His death will be the same. He will die with dignity in his own home and surrounded by those who love him the most.
I pray for him. I pray for all of you who suffer from cancer and your family and friends who suffer in a different way. I cry just about every other minute. The one thing I know is that I don't want him to suffer any more.
So, I tell my brother, one of my best friends, "I love you. I love you so much." I tell him, "Your fight is over sweetie. Let go and kiss Mommy and Daddy for me."
I've been with him through this all and I have no regrets about anything we did or the choices we shared. The only regret I have is that I can't take him in my arms and hug him with all my might. His pain is too great to touch beyond the lightest of caresses. So, I caress his head, touch his heart, kiss his forehead, his cheek, his hand, and I tell him...."I love you."
Tell those you love, "I love you" as much as possible. Let them know how much they mean to you now and always. Never let it go unsaid or unknown. I'm thankful that those words were said often and there is nothing left unsaid between us.
God Bless and the most positive of wishes and thoughts to you all.
Apple
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Best wishes for a speedy return home. Positive energy sent your way cmslt. Be well and stay strong.
Vorpalone...so very sorry your loved ones and you have to deal with cancer in your lives. Pancreatic/Liver cancer is horrible. I know from my own family experience.
To those of you who have read my posts regarding my brother, things have gone from bad, to really bad, to beyond definition. As I write this, I'm at my brother's home in the mountains. After spending weeks with me, at my home, as his health deteriorated from his cancer, we have called in hospice and decided to stop all cancer treatment. His one wish was to die in his own home. A few days ago, I brought him home to do that.
No more doctor's appts. No more four hour jaunts to Sloan Kettering. No more meds, shots, IV's, or lab work. Now, we focus on a positive death process. Now, we focus on comfort and doing whatever is possible to lessen his pain. Now, we say all the "I love you's" we possibly can. Now, we cry and say our good byes.
He has suffered far more than any one person should have to suffer. He lived through his entire illness with dignity and grace. His death will be the same. He will die with dignity in his own home and surrounded by those who love him the most.
I pray for him. I pray for all of you who suffer from cancer and your family and friends who suffer in a different way. I cry just about every other minute. The one thing I know is that I don't want him to suffer any more.
So, I tell my brother, one of my best friends, "I love you. I love you so much." I tell him, "Your fight is over sweetie. Let go and kiss Mommy and Daddy for me."
I've been with him through this all and I have no regrets about anything we did or the choices we shared. The only regret I have is that I can't take him in my arms and hug him with all my might. His pain is too great to touch beyond the lightest of caresses. So, I caress his head, touch his heart, kiss his forehead, his cheek, his hand, and I tell him...."I love you."
Tell those you love, "I love you" as much as possible. Let them know how much they mean to you now and always. Never let it go unsaid or unknown. I'm thankful that those words were said often and there is nothing left unsaid between us.
God Bless and the most positive of wishes and thoughts to you all.
Apple
Apple, your brother has had a wonderful gift...you love him and you have said so over and over again. I have been the one whose hand was held before cancer surgery and the one holding the hand of a loved one coming to the end of the battle, and at those moments, the only thing that matters is that you can share your love. The knowledge that we are loved makes the unbearable, almost bearable, and brings a peace that nothing else can provide. Please believe you are blessing to him and I hope you can take solace in believing he will be with your mom and dad after leaving you! God bless, my thoughts and prayers are with you!
*huge hug* FUCK YOU CANCER!!!! 
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You all know that I've had my dealings with cancer, both personally and in my immediate family. Yet before today I haven't felt compelled to utter (type) the words that make up the title of this thread. I still can't, for my own reasons, but today I am closer to primal anger than I have been in a long time. Last week we buried my mother, who had suffered with breast cancer for 6 years. Over the course of the time that I was with my family to celebrate her life, I met so many people who had themselves dealt with breast cancer, or lost a sister or brother to cancer, that I lost count. I doubt that Joe Biden's Cancer Moonshot would have given us a quick and universal solution even if he had been able to continue it under a new administration, but I beg our scientific community to work even harder to solve this deadly puzzle that robs our world of so much beauty.
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Yankee
So sorry.
So sorry.
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So sorry for your loss. When I finished reading your post...my reaction was simply "Amen" So, Amen FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!!
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Keep posting, midwestyankee, should it be helpful.
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Sorry that it was so resistant to begin with but very happy for you that they have gotten it all. Hoping she continues to progress so very well...FYC
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So sorry Yankee and I agree...hoping the scientists of the world figure out a way to kill this nasty invader once and for all...sending you positive vibes as you struggle with your grief. Hugs my friend.
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I appreciate this...
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cmslt - keeping you in thought and prayers.
Thank you so much...
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The worst kind of news...so sorry to hear this. Sending thoughts and prayers your way...
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Blessings to cmslt.
Thanks cookiecat...blessings to you as well.
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Well maybe you can't utter the words, but I sure did on your and your Mom's behalf, when I heard about the news. Just didn't post because I thought that was your right.
Huge hugs Yank.
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Thank you all for your kind thoughts and virtual hugs.
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My thoughts and prayers are headed your way, cmslt2326! *super big hug*
Super big hug too my friend and thanks for the prayers...out of the hospital now...
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Best wishes for a speedy return home. Positive energy sent your way cmslt. Be well and stay strong.
Thanks Apple and please know I have been praying for you and your whole family as you help your brother transition from this life. I am so very sorry you are going through this and I think of you and pray for you often...
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Apple,
My heart aches for you for so many reasons. What an amazing family you have. The gift of dying at home, in peace is immeasurable.
Much love to you and your brother.
Thank you cookie. I know you have faced your own challenges and sorrows. Know that you have been in my thoughts and prayers. What I told you some many weeks ago is still true, the "I love you's" are all that matter at these times. So, I continue to tell him with every chance given me. I pray tomorrow brings me another day to share with him, and yet, I pray harder that he is free from his pain and suffering.
Thank you for your thoughts and all the love. We need them and accept them graciously.
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Apple, your brother has had a wonderful gift...you love him and you have said so over and over again. I have been the one whose hand was held before cancer surgery and the one holding the hand of a loved one coming to the end of the battle, and at those moments, the only thing that matters is that you can share your love. The knowledge that we are loved makes the unbearable, almost bearable, and brings a peace that nothing else can provide. Please believe you are blessing to him and I hope you can take solace in believing he will be with your mom and dad after leaving you! God bless, my thoughts and prayers are with you!
Thank you so much scot. I've been on the "hand holding side" one too many times. In fact, one is too many. I do take solace in the thought/belief that he will be with our parents. I'm comforted by the fact that he believes it too. It's the only thing that brings me peace.
Thank you for the thoughts and prayers; they are most welcomed and very much needed.
