The "Fuck you cancer!" thread

[Shankara20]

The pain hits hot and fast and hard. To the point where I have to remember to breathe.

(( ))



ps: Fuck You Cancer

 

[cmslt2326]

Hi all

Just a quick update on my dad he's correctly in hospital with septicaemia, and he needs an Op on his bladder, which is happening on the 31st October.. Then he's got to have some chemotherapy for his brain tumour... His finished his radiotherapy all 90 days of it.. It really knocked him about..

Fair play I've got to say my life fucking sucks right now, it's having a massive affect on all of us...

Fuck you cancer......

So sorry sweetheart...I feel so bad for your Dad too that he feels there is no hope...

Please be patient with him and love on him all you can...every day counts...

 

[Winterscumming]

This month (10/25) will mark 10 years since my mom passed away from met breast cancer >> lung/brain/liver. A few months ago my aunt (mom's sister) was diagnosed with stage 2 breast/stage 1 lung. She isn't married and doesn't have kids and all the nieces and nephews live hundreds of miles away so it's super hard.

My uncle passed away a month ago (not cancer) and a few days ago my aunt (his wife) passed away from Pancreatic cancer >> colon, liver.

So yeah, a big bolder fuck you to cancer.

Wish saying that stopped the pain part...

 

[scotluvsoral]

This month (10/25) will mark 10 years since my mom passed away from met breast cancer >> lung/brain/liver. A few months ago my aunt (mom's sister) was diagnosed with stage 2 breast/stage 1 lung. She isn't married and doesn't have kids and all the nieces and nephews live hundreds of miles away so it's super hard.

My uncle passed away a month ago (not cancer) and a few days ago my aunt (his wife) passed away from Pancreatic cancer >> colon, liver.

So yeah, a big bolder fuck you to cancer.

Wish saying that stopped the pain part...

Sorry for your losses. Has to seem pretty overwhelming. FUCK YOU CANCER!!!

 

[cookiecat]

I haven't posted here in a long time. I am going to try to get through this without breaking down. Which is one of the main reasons I have been avoiding this thread.

My sister passed away almost six months ago. God! She fought. To the bitter end she fought. (aw shit.. yep here come the tears. Damn it. Thought I was through with them.)

Cancer took her sight, her mobility, her speech... but it never took her spirit. It has come pretty damn close in breaking me though. I am still dealing with the grief, still trying to process it all. I find myself calling her whenever good things happen and it isn't until I get the recorded message that her phone is no longer working that I remember. She's gone. The pain hits hot and fast and hard. To the point where I have to remember to breathe.


God damn you fucking miserable piece of shit! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUUUUUUUCCCCKKK YOOOOOOUUUUU!!!

So impressed you found the strength to share. Tears are good! Rage is good. As long as you get it all out.

Much love to you as you go through this shitty time.

 

[cookiecat]

This month (10/25) will mark 10 years since my mom passed away from met breast cancer >> lung/brain/liver. A few months ago my aunt (mom's sister) was diagnosed with stage 2 breast/stage 1 lung. She isn't married and doesn't have kids and all the nieces and nephews live hundreds of miles away so it's super hard.

My uncle passed away a month ago (not cancer) and a few days ago my aunt (his wife) passed away from Pancreatic cancer >> colon, liver.

So yeah, a big bolder fuck you to cancer.

Wish saying that stopped the pain part...

So much loss, what a heartache! I wonder if we all said fuck you enough, it would erase some pain? Maybe just a, little...

Many hugs!-

 

[Shankara20]

So much loss, what a heartache! I wonder if we all said fuck you enough, it would erase some pain? Maybe just a, little...

Many hugs!-

I'll do my part:

Fuck You Cancer!


(really really really wished this is all it took to remove cancer from our lives..)

 

[Oldenburg]

I haven't posted here in a long time. I am going to try to get through this without breaking down. Which is one of the main reasons I have been avoiding this thread.

My sister passed away almost six months ago. God! She fought. To the bitter end she fought. (aw shit.. yep here come the tears. Damn it. Thought I was through with them.)

Cancer took her sight, her mobility, her speech... but it never took her spirit. It has come pretty damn close in breaking me though. I am still dealing with the grief, still trying to process it all. I find myself calling her whenever good things happen and it isn't until I get the recorded message that her phone is no longer working that I remember. She's gone. The pain hits hot and fast and hard. To the point where I have to remember to breathe.


God damn you fucking miserable piece of shit! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUUUUUUUCCCCKKK YOOOOOOUUUUU!!!

I am so sorry you lost your sister you are living through one of my worst fears.. Let it all flow out, if you ever want a chat please pm me.. Massive hugs to you.. (((HUGS)))

 

[Oldenburg]

One of my worst fears nearly happened today

Nearly lost my dad he had a horrific seizure ( due to his brain tumour) like the worst ever he stopped breathing, if my mom had not of performed CPR on him he would be dead there are no words to describe what I witnessed today other than horrific times 10... He's now in hospital again, it's been such an rough day......

I feel soo awful for moaning, but I'm on my own and I just need an outlet, somewhere to shout fuck fuck fuck FUCK YOU CANCER... I HATE YOU

 

[Collar_N_Cuffs]

Moan and scream and rant all you need, Oldenburg. So glad your mom was there, and sorry for what you are going through

 

[Apple_of_Eden]

So many people are affected by this horrible disease. It amazes me that more isn't known about it. God knows they have enough samples of various cancers and cells to examine. My thoughts and well wishes to everyone. It's so hard on everyone involved. No one escapes the pain...not the person with cancer, not their families, not their friends...it affects everyone one way or another.

Bad news yesterday at my brother's oncology appointment. The latest chemo drug is not working on his cancer. His liver tumors have enlarged and his labs are all off. I've never seen a lab sheet that had so many high's and low's marked on it. I don't even think one number was in the normal range.

So off we go, back to Sloan Kettering to see if he will be able to start something new or enter a research study. Although, with his CML on top of his primary cancer/mets, I'm not sure he will meet the research protocol criterion.

My one wish would be that he wasn't in so much pain. Everyday...all day. It's a horrible thing to watch someone you love in so much pain and not be able to help them.

Stay strong everyone...stay strong for each other.

 

[scotluvsoral]

Nearly lost my dad he had a horrific seizure ( due to his brain tumour) like the worst ever he stopped breathing, if my mom had not of performed CPR on him he would be dead there are no words to describe what I witnessed today other than horrific times 10... He's now in hospital again, it's been such an rough day......

I feel soo awful for moaning, but I'm on my own and I just need an outlet, somewhere to shout fuck fuck fuck FUCK YOU CANCER... I HATE YOU

That is one hell of a scary episode for you and your parents! This is a safe place for any moaning, screaming, ranting and celebrate, so get what you need from here. You are among friends *S* And...FUCK YOU CANCER!!!

 

[scotluvsoral]

So many people are affected by this horrible disease. It amazes me that more isn't known about it. God knows they have enough samples of various cancers and cells to examine. My thoughts and well wishes to everyone. It's so hard on everyone involved. No one escapes the pain...not the person with cancer, not their families, not their friends...it affects everyone one way or another.

Bad news yesterday at my brother's oncology appointment. The latest chemo drug is not working on his cancer. His liver tumors have enlarged and his labs are all off. I've never seen a lab sheet that had so many high's and low's marked on it. I don't even think one number was in the normal range.

So off we go, back to Sloan Kettering to see if he will be able to start something new or enter a research study. Although, with his CML on top of his primary cancer/mets, I'm not sure he will meet the research protocol criterion.

My one wish would be that he wasn't in so much pain. Everyday...all day. It's a horrible thing to watch someone you love in so much pain and not be able to help them.

Stay strong everyone...stay strong for each other.

I hope you and your family will be able to stay strong during this horrible journey! It sucks more than words can be begin to describe! FUCK YOU CANCER!

 

[emmy_christina]

Nearly lost my dad he had a horrific seizure ( due to his brain tumour) like the worst ever he stopped breathing, if my mom had not of performed CPR on him he would be dead there are no words to describe what I witnessed today other than horrific times 10... He's now in hospital again, it's been such an rough day......

I feel soo awful for moaning, but I'm on my own and I just need an outlet, somewhere to shout fuck fuck fuck FUCK YOU CANCER... I HATE YOU

Hugs to you and your family sweet one. And please vent, moan all you want.
And sending positive healing thoughts your way.
And FYC

 

[emmy_christina]

So many people are affected by this horrible disease. It amazes me that more isn't known about it. God knows they have enough samples of various cancers and cells to examine. My thoughts and well wishes to everyone. It's so hard on everyone involved. No one escapes the pain...not the person with cancer, not their families, not their friends...it affects everyone one way or another.

Bad news yesterday at my brother's oncology appointment. The latest chemo drug is not working on his cancer. His liver tumors have enlarged and his labs are all off. I've never seen a lab sheet that had so many high's and low's marked on it. I don't even think one number was in the normal range.

So off we go, back to Sloan Kettering to see if he will be able to start something new or enter a research study. Although, with his CML on top of his primary cancer/mets, I'm not sure he will meet the research protocol criterion.

My one wish would be that he wasn't in so much pain. Everyday...all day. It's a horrible thing to watch someone you love in so much pain and not be able to help them.

Stay strong everyone...stay strong for each other.

Yes the big C effects everyone.
The only time I cried after my breast cancer diagnose was when I made the call to my daughter in CA, my mom, my family in Belgium. For them its even more harder than for me being on different continents.

I m so sorry about your brother.
Sloan is so great with new procedures, and I hope with all my heart they will find something.
My heart goes out to you and your family.
Hugs, , and loads of healing thoughts.

And yes Fuck You Cancer

 

[Apple_of_Eden]

I hope you and your family will be able to stay strong during this horrible journey! It sucks more than words can be begin to describe! FUCK YOU CANCER!

Hugs to you and your family sweet one. And please vent, moan all you want.
And sending positive healing thoughts your way.
And FYC

Thank you scot and emmy. I appreciate all of your supportive thoughts and words. I said it once before, cancer is the one thing that simply doesn't discriminate against anyone. It hits hard and affects us all in some way.

To everyone who supports, posts, and reads this thread....thank you. It is nice to be able to open up here and know that everyone understands the feelings behind the words.

FYC

 

[cookiecat]

Nearly lost my dad he had a horrific seizure ( due to his brain tumour) like the worst ever he stopped breathing, if my mom had not of performed CPR on him he would be dead there are no words to describe what I witnessed today other than horrific times 10... He's now in hospital again, it's been such an rough day......

I feel soo awful for moaning, but I'm on my own and I just need an outlet, somewhere to shout fuck fuck fuck FUCK YOU CANCER... I HATE YOU

Like CnC said - this is the place to do it. ((( hugs ))) That's all I can give you other than virtual love and support.

So many people are affected by this horrible disease. It amazes me that more isn't known about it. God knows they have enough samples of various cancers and cells to examine. My thoughts and well wishes to everyone. It's so hard on everyone involved. No one escapes the pain...not the person with cancer, not their families, not their friends...it affects everyone one way or another.

Bad news yesterday at my brother's oncology appointment. The latest chemo drug is not working on his cancer. His liver tumors have enlarged and his labs are all off. I've never seen a lab sheet that had so many high's and low's marked on it. I don't even think one number was in the normal range.

So off we go, back to Sloan Kettering to see if he will be able to start something new or enter a research study. Although, with his CML on top of his primary cancer/mets, I'm not sure he will meet the research protocol criterion.

My one wish would be that he wasn't in so much pain. Everyday...all day. It's a horrible thing to watch someone you love in so much pain and not be able to help them.

Stay strong everyone...stay strong for each other.

What sad news about your brother. It is so hard to see someone you love so much in pain -- if you could just shoulder some of it. You're a good sister for supporting him.

 

[cascadiabound]

Like CnC said - this is the place to do it. ((( hugs ))) That's all I can give you other than virtual love and support.

Dear Oldenburg... More love and support. so tough. Scream here all you need.

What sad news about your brother. It is so hard to see someone you love so much in pain -- if you could just shoulder some of it. You're a good sister for supporting him.

Dearest Apple.... I am So SO sorry. I can not imagine how hard this is for you and I am so sorry he is in pain. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.
I know that it is sometimes particularly hard when you are professionally in health care.. you just feel so damn helpless. ugh.

hugs and courage and prayers.

cb

 

[scotluvsoral]

For once, I am not coming in all whiney *L* Today, I am 10 years cancer free and I wanted to voice that here, in this great forum!!!! Positive thoughts and prayers to all who are battling this cockroach of a disease! And the same for all who have supported us and are supporting us now!!!!! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!!!

 

[cookiecat]

For once, I am not coming in all whiney *L* Today, I am 10 years cancer free and I wanted to voice that here, in this great forum!!!! Positive thoughts and prayers to all who are battling this cockroach of a disease! And the same for all who have supported us and are supporting us now!!!!! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!!!

 

[emmy_christina]

For once, I am not coming in all whiney *L* Today, I am 10 years cancer free and I wanted to voice that here, in this great forum!!!! Positive thoughts and prayers to all who are battling this cockroach of a disease! And the same for all who have supported us and are supporting us now!!!!! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!!!

Sooo happy for you my special caring friend. And so hope I can say the same thing in 10 years.

 

[scotluvsoral]

Sooo happy for you my special caring friend. And so hope I can say the same thing in 10 years.

I believe, in my heart, dear friend, that you will indeed celebrate 10 years and then 20 years and so on!

 

[cmslt2326]

Nearly lost my dad he had a horrific seizure ( due to his brain tumour) like the worst ever he stopped breathing, if my mom had not of performed CPR on him he would be dead there are no words to describe what I witnessed today other than horrific times 10... He's now in hospital again, it's been such an rough day......

I feel soo awful for moaning, but I'm on my own and I just need an outlet, somewhere to shout fuck fuck fuck FUCK YOU CANCER... I HATE YOU

This is what this thread is here for. It is the perfect spot to come and talk with others who hate this fucking disease as much as you do and have experience with all the nasty twists and turns it can take. I am so very sorry that you had to witness that seizure and I hope you are able to hang tough for your Mom and Dad... My Mom had brain cancer and I can honestly say that the seizures can be terrifying. Stay on top of his meds (i.e Dilantin/Phenytoin) levels and just know that we are here if you EVER need to vent...

Fuck

You

CANCER!!!

 

[cmslt2326]

For once, I am not coming in all whiney *L* Today, I am 10 years cancer free and I wanted to voice that here, in this great forum!!!! Positive thoughts and prayers to all who are battling this cockroach of a disease! And the same for all who have supported us and are supporting us now!!!!! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!!!

Not whiney my friend just stating things as they are...

So happy you are at 10 years and counting!!!

 

[cmslt2326]

So many people are affected by this horrible disease. It amazes me that more isn't known about it. God knows they have enough samples of various cancers and cells to examine. My thoughts and well wishes to everyone. It's so hard on everyone involved. No one escapes the pain...not the person with cancer, not their families, not their friends...it affects everyone one way or another.

Bad news yesterday at my brother's oncology appointment. The latest chemo drug is not working on his cancer. His liver tumors have enlarged and his labs are all off. I've never seen a lab sheet that had so many high's and low's marked on it. I don't even think one number was in the normal range.

So off we go, back to Sloan Kettering to see if he will be able to start something new or enter a research study. Although, with his CML on top of his primary cancer/mets, I'm not sure he will meet the research protocol criterion.

My one wish would be that he wasn't in so much pain. Everyday...all day. It's a horrible thing to watch someone you love in so much pain and not be able to help them.

Stay strong everyone...stay strong for each other.

So sorry Apple...praying they find a new program or treatment to help your brother in his ongoing battle...praying also for your family as they continue to support him during this brutal fight.