To this day I give my heart and soul

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I am just so tire of holding back because of the fear of failing...like the is some guarantee I will even get another day...***** just won't wait till I am ready,I need to just jump...Do you get sick of that negative voice in your doubt?
 
I am just so tire of holding back because of the fear of failing...like the is some guarantee I will even get another day...***** just won't wait till I am ready,I need to just jump...Do you get sick of that negative voice in your doubt?

:D:cool:
 
I thought you were going to say that you were giving your heart and soul to Heathyr Hoffman. If that's the case, you better watch your back.
 
Maybe that's my problem, no negative voice in my doubt.

I doubt that.
 
Eh, you can get used to failing, most things are a numbers game anyway. Next!

Also, sometimes when it looks like you are failing, you really aren't.

A person who has never failed is not reaching high enough.

On some level we will all fail, our bodies will fail us before we are ready, some sooner than others.
 
Afraid of heartbreak, disappointment and at the end of the day losing what matters most hence we hesitate and put things off.. I am with u time to live for the moment and make things happen... :heart:
 
Today, my birthday, I am about a 3rd of the way thro my radiation treatments.
It has made me a little introspective.
I am realising what's trully important as I go through this journey.....

And tbh - almost none of what I used to think was 'essential', actually is.
Family, loved ones, loving them, that's all the important stuff.
Everything else (job, home, possessions) is completely incidental to achieving a lasting harmony with the people that matter.
 
Today, my birthday, I am about a 3rd of the way thro my radiation treatments.
It has made me a little introspective.
I am realising what's trully important as I go through this journey.....

And tbh - almost none of what I used to think was 'essential', actually is.
Family, loved ones, loving them, that's all the important stuff.
Everything else (job, home, possessions) is completely incidental to achieving a lasting harmony with the people that matter.

Happy Birthday!

Agreed.
 
If you're standing on a diving board you should listen to that voice and jump. Because everyone else wants their turn too.
 
Eh, you can get used to failing, most things are a numbers game anyway. Next!

Also, sometimes when it looks like you are failing, you really aren't.

A person who has never failed is not reaching high enough.

On some level we will all fail, our bodies will fail us before we are ready, some sooner than others.

I am not reaching far enough...
 
Today, my birthday, I am about a 3rd of the way thro my radiation treatments.
It has made me a little introspective.
I am realising what's trully important as I go through this journey.....

And tbh - almost none of what I used to think was 'essential', actually is.
Family, loved ones, loving them, that's all the important stuff.
Everything else (job, home, possessions) is completely incidental to achieving a lasting harmony with the people that matter.

Essentailism makes so much sense...
 
I have a thing about completion. I have not fulfilled any real task to completion since I was a child. There's some psychological block in my head. I don't follow through. Like i'm afraid of what's going to happen at the end. Failure? Rejection? Higher expectations from others? I really don't know. A therapist would have a field day with me.
 
Cannot get YouTube to stream....

Ah, well, it was a comemoration speech that David Foster Wallace gave before he passed and I thought it was sort of going along the lines you were talking about but he said it better than I could. I always found his words to be profound, so, thank you for making me watch it again! :rose:

That whole kind of "default settings have ME at the center of the universe and the way I experience the world" and choosing to see beyond our place in the World Weave to notice and pay attention to what others are going through and how they're experiencing the world rather than looking at everyone as an object that affects only yourself.
 
there comes a point where you just have to step out and free fall, if you want to move forward.
 
That whole kind of "default settings have ME at the center of the universe and the way I experience the world" and choosing to see beyond our place in the World Weave to notice and pay attention to what others are going through and how they're experiencing the world rather than looking at everyone as an object that affects only yourself.


That kind of reminds me of a quote from Camelot. "Oh, the insensitivity of sensitive men. Always suffering so much for themselves, they can suffer nothing for others."
 
That kind of reminds me of a quote from Camelot. "Oh, the insensitivity of sensitive men. Always suffering so much for themselves, they can suffer nothing for others."

Very true. I think honestly, that's what this journey is all about and true enlightenment is. Seeing the bigger picture or enough of it to treat each day like a child does, living at ease in uncertainty(which is extremely uncomfortable to deal with) and connecting with our integral humanity by connecting with it in others. Still a struggle for me literally every day, moment to moment. :eek:

Early pain in our lives isn't put there to make us withdraw and clam up at the risk of getting hurt again... it's to allow us to empathize, to reach further.
 
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