Love, Loyalty and Headaches

[smoothg103rd]

Someone once told me that "If you ever have to question would they do it for you, then you shouldn't do it for them".Is there such a thing as being to loyal? I don't think so. Like I'm the type of person if you are getting jumped by 100 people then we gone get jumped together. I'll take a bullet for my hood, but what the fuck the hood ever do for me? If I knew it was going to be like this I would've never became certified. How soon people forget.

 

[Que]

That is why such pacts as the one you find yourself in are considered a devil's bargain. The devil never holds up his end. My Mom's baby brother was in the life. Probably as much for his love of all things mechanical as any other reason. Because of a really bad situation, bad press and full-bore attention of the law, his club got pretty much wiped out. I don't think he even has a sheet, as far as I know he never got caught during any lawless behavior, although no doubt he did plenty. He managed a quiet fade. The stragglers were picked up by Hell's Angels. He just didn't transition.

A change of scenery would help. You could just not be around when things are happening, and over time, attrition takes care of the ones that even know you. To the new ones you are just some guy they heard about.

 

[smoothg103rd]

That is why such pacts as the one you find yourself in are considered a devil's bargain. The devil never holds up his end. My Mom's baby brother was in the life. Probably as much for his love of all things mechanical as any other reason. Because of a really bad situation, bad press and full-bore attention of the law, his club got pretty much wiped out. I don't think he even has a sheet, as far as I know he never got caught during any lawless behavior, although no doubt he did plenty. He managed a quiet fade. The stragglers were picked up by Hell's Angels. He just didn't transition.

A change of scenery would help. You could just not be around when things are happening, and over time, attrition takes care of the ones that even know you. To the new ones you are just some guy they heard about.

Yeah a change of scenery definitely would help. And to make shit worse my hood is beefing with another grape hood,but the other grape hood they are beefing with it's all love there for me. Like I have real family that's banging from there,real family like my mother nephews. I know this may be too much information but I got to get this shit off my chest, it's really fucking with me. It's a fucked up situation to be in, own cousins telling me how they gone play, people from my hood saying the same. Big homies questioning my loyal, I'm doing shit for people who won't do the same for me. I'm trying to be the peacemaker but talking to deaf ears. Shit fucked up Query.

 

[Que]

Bad enough to have obligations to your own set, but they have to all understand you have family obligations too. What is the point of your set belonging to a larger organization if they can't make peace from within.

Tells you that it isn't about mutual protection, it is about power and hanging on to it. You need a good reason or an invent reason that sounds like a good reason to be completely out of town until that resolves itself.

 

[parodyluvr75]

A shitty house in a better neighborhood.

 

[smoothg103rd]

Bad enough to have obligations to your own set, but they have to all understand you have family obligations too. What is the point of your set belonging to a larger organization if they can't make peace from within.

Tells you that it isn't about mutual protection, it is about power and hanging on to it. You need a good reason or an invent reason that sounds like a good reason to be completely out of town until that resolves itself.

If I leave it has to permanently, it got to be for good. I can't be somewhere drinking margaritas with my toes in the sand while this bullshit is going on. I feel like since I'm good on both sides its my responsibly to end it. Only problem is that they are beyond talking. And then my right hand mans don't want to react because he knows most of them is my family, but then I don't want his loyalty to me to backfire on him. Like I don't want him to get caught up trying to be kind hearted to me. The odds are I'm going to lose someone close to me over something that I feel like I should be able to prevent.

 

[parodyluvr75]

You make things to complicated for yourself. You can't be responsible for someone else's shit. You can't save everyone. The specifics don't matter, it's not your fight. Walk away. What will your kids do, if they lost you?

 

[smoothg103rd]

You make things to complicated for yourself. You can't be responsible for someone else's shit. You can't save everyone. The specifics don't matter, it's not your fight. Walk away. What will your kids do, if they lost you?

It's not that easy, in my heart I know how this is going to end. And I'm not ready to accept that. It wasn't my fight but it is now. I can't just walk away how bad I want to I just can't. I wasn't built like that.

 

[parodyluvr75]

It's not that easy, in my heart I know how this is going to end. And I'm not ready to accept that. It wasn't my fight but it is now. I can't just walk away how bad I want to I just can't. I wasn't built like that.

You tried to talk sense to them, they aren't listening. What can you do to stop it, really? People who want to fight, look for reasons, they always find them. This or that.

Sometimes it's okay to walk away from losing battle. A good warrior knows when to fight and when to leave it be.

Take care of your own, meaning your kids. That's the only people you owe anything to.

There's a quote: An eye-for-eye and tooth-for-tooth would lead to a world of the blind and toothless.

 

[smoothg103rd]

You tried to talk sense to them, they aren't listening. What can you do to stop it, really? People who want to fight, look for reasons, they always find them. This or that.

Sometimes it's okay to walk away from losing battle. A good warrior knows when to fight and when to leave it be.

Take care of your own, meaning your kids. That's the only people you owe anything to.

There's a quote: An eye-for-eye and tooth-for-tooth would lead to a world of the blind and toothless.

People that I care about is involved. There is no walking away, when the people that I care for are left to die. I'm not saying that I'm going to get involved, involved. But I got to do something to try and end this. The fuck up part is I'm left with no play, either way I'm going to lose.

 

[smoothg103rd]

My head hurts so bad right now

 

[parodyluvr75]

People that I care about is involved. There is no walking away, when the people that I care for are left to die. I'm not saying that I'm going to get involved, involved. But I got to do something to try and end this. The fuck up part is I'm left with no play, either way I'm going to lose.

You're missing my point, not one of those people are your kids. You are free to choose, choose for them.

 

[smoothg103rd]

You're missing my point, not one of those people are your kids. You are free to choose, choose for them.

Nah I see your point. When I said fight I didn't mean it like I was going to pick a side and fight with them. I was saying fight to end it. I'm too connected on either side for something to happen to me. I always put my kids first I wouldn't jeopardize my life or theirs.

 

[parodyluvr75]

I'm glad to hear that, them first, the rest is static.

 

[parodyluvr75]

Trying to fix other people's dumb, is usually a losing battle. Where tempers run hot, common sense is usually absent.

 

[smoothg103rd]

Trying to fix other people's dumb, is usually a losing battle. Where tempers run hot, common sense is usually absent.

True.