Shy Sexy Texan

[sereneone4u]

So this isn't an "am pic" post - it's personal - but I feel like this is my own little spot in these threads so here I come to vent.

I became friends with a man over a year ago through these forums. He and I became very close and I shared personal details of my life with him. One of these being that I'm married and the other being that I have a child.

For those of you who have befriended me over the past couple years, this is not news to you as these are not details that I hide. In short, my marriage is crap. There are several things that led to this situation but in the end we live like roommates and are far from being in love. Life is expensive and complicated - especially when you have a child. Divorce is certainly in my future, as I desperately want to finally be happy - to find "the one". But as I get finances in order so that I can adequately care for myself and my daughter, I am still married to my husband.

I don't like to label myself as a cheater - but I know that's what I am. It's not something I make a habit of or something I take lightly. I don't get off on cheating. More so than physical - I've emotionally cheated a few times. I know every "cheater" has their reason and mine really falls to finding a connection.

So back to the friend I made on here...
He disappeared for several months and reappeared back tonight. He assumed I had divorced by now - I wish I had, but no. When he found out I was still married, this is the reaction I get:
"...you disgusting leech of a selfish excuse for a woman. Seriously. You should be thrown in hell. It makes me sick that people like you even exist."
(There was more but you get the point...)

What people who aren't in situations like mine don't understand is that life sucks. (I sure we all know that). Life puts us in situations that aren't black and white. Life makes us choose between seeing something as 50% good or 50% bad. Sometimes you make choices that aren't perfect but are what you have to do to keep your head above water. And yes, the stabing pain of loneliness feels like you're drowning.

So am I really that awful? I know cheating is wrong, but when neither party is in love and are just moving through the motions, is what I'm doing that bad? And mind you, I'm the bread winner this house so I'm not exactly "leeching". But maybe I am...maybe I'm just a horrible person that really does deserve hell - or at least "friends"like this guy.

(Stepping off my soapbox) Thanks for letting me vent....

No you are not awful at all. You are making the best of a tough situation and when you can do better, you will do better. This guy sounds unhinged and certainly not worthy of you. Don't give him another thought. He is making excuses for his own shortcomings.

 

[FukenDubbin]

So where did this guy disappear too....did he say he was leaving the site? l don't think there is anything wrong with chatting and looking for compassion on here...Like someone else said a few posts up....a lot of people are in a loveless marriage....people stay in a marriage for a lot of reasons. Kids is number one. Finances is a second....l really want to know where this guy went for a few months. If he was into you then he would understand your situation.

If I had a nickel for every time a woman told me she was in a loveless/sexless marriage because of her children/financial situation/etc, I'd have a stable of Ferrari's. I think it's the biggest cop out in the world for ANYONE, male or female, to use that excuse. If you're that unhappy, you do need to nut up and leave because using someone for a roof over your head, money in your pocket, or as a spoon to feed your kids is ridiculous.

 

[Superman2008]

No you are not awful at all. You are making the best of a tough situation and when you can do better, you will do better. This guy sounds unhinged and certainly not worthy of you. Don't give him another thought. He is making excuses for his own shortcomings.

Yep...

 

[DiJiT]

So this isn't an "am pic" post - it's personal - but I feel like this is my own little spot in these threads so here I come to vent.

I became friends with a man over a year ago through these forums. He and I became very close and I shared personal details of my life with him. One of these being that I'm married and the other being that I have a child.

For those of you who have befriended me over the past couple years, this is not news to you as these are not details that I hide. In short, my marriage is crap. There are several things that led to this situation but in the end we live like roommates and are far from being in love. Life is expensive and complicated - especially when you have a child. Divorce is certainly in my future, as I desperately want to finally be happy - to find "the one". But as I get finances in order so that I can adequately care for myself and my daughter, I am still married to my husband.

I don't like to label myself as a cheater - but I know that's what I am. It's not something I make a habit of or something I take lightly. I don't get off on cheating. More so than physical - I've emotionally cheated a few times. I know every "cheater" has their reason and mine really falls to finding a connection.

So back to the friend I made on here...
He disappeared for several months and reappeared back tonight. He assumed I had divorced by now - I wish I had, but no. When he found out I was still married, this is the reaction I get:
"...you disgusting leech of a selfish excuse for a woman. Seriously. You should be thrown in hell. It makes me sick that people like you even exist."
(There was more but you get the point...)

What people who aren't in situations like mine don't understand is that life sucks. (I sure we all know that). Life puts us in situations that aren't black and white. Life makes us choose between seeing something as 50% good or 50% bad. Sometimes you make choices that aren't perfect but are what you have to do to keep your head above water. And yes, the stabing pain of loneliness feels like you're drowning.

So am I really that awful? I know cheating is wrong, but when neither party is in love and are just moving through the motions, is what I'm doing that bad? And mind you, I'm the bread winner this house so I'm not exactly "leeching". But maybe I am...maybe I'm just a horrible person that really does deserve hell - or at least "friends"like this guy.

(Stepping off my soapbox) Thanks for letting me vent....

You just do what you need to do to take care of yourself and yours.

The guy sounds like he had his own problems he was trying to transfer to you.

One day you will find your "one" and you'll be amazed at how well you can breathe again.

I'll always be here if you want to vent, talk, or just a cyberHUG

Take care of yourself my little friend. *BIG HUG*

 

[DiJiT]

No you are not awful at all. You are making the best of a tough situation and when you can do better, you will do better. This guy sounds unhinged and certainly not worthy of you. Don't give him another thought. He is making excuses for his own shortcomings.

Couldn't have said it better myself......and I tried.

 

[StacyLeigh]

New Year

Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event. Big or small. Something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope.

http://i1279.photobucket.com/albums/y531/stacyleigh824/1296294D-AE94-4615-AC5D-87D8314861B7.png_zpsvbl9du8n.jpeg

 

[touristen]

Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event. Big or small. Something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope.

http://i1279.photobucket.com/albums/y531/stacyleigh824/1296294D-AE94-4615-AC5D-87D8314861B7.png_zpsvbl9du8n.jpeg

hope u feel better today...after this pic, I do...

 

[DiJiT]

Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event. Big or small. Something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope.

http://i1279.photobucket.com/albums/y531/stacyleigh824/1296294D-AE94-4615-AC5D-87D8314861B7.png_zpsvbl9du8n.jpeg

There is always hope for change. Hope for something brighter. Hope for something that will take our breath away and make our lives complete.

.....Pandora made sure of that.


Lovely pic Kettle. Luv Ya lil buddy

*BIG HUG*

 

[Mebtaz2000]

Beautiful words from a beautiful girl.

 

[InTheFade]

Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event. Big or small. Something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope.

Hope is crack for the brain. Always the last thing you experience before disappointment.

More than an event. It's a series of events.

You look good.

 

[morninwould]

I think Pope Gregory invented the Gregorian calendar so he decided when the new year began.

But I'm sure you could invent your own calendar. Like a Chinese calendar. The year of Stacy. You could be a calendar girl. I'm sure lots of dudes on here would follow it.

 

[marcus32]

Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event. Big or small. Something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope.

http://i1279.photobucket.com/albums/y531/stacyleigh824/1296294D-AE94-4615-AC5D-87D8314861B7.png_zpsvbl9du8n.jpeg

Fantastically stated. My feelings exactly...though even more on point in this situation.

 

[ChuckN1970]

Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event. Big or small. Something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope.

http://i1279.photobucket.com/albums/y531/stacyleigh824/1296294D-AE94-4615-AC5D-87D8314861B7.png_zpsvbl9du8n.jpeg

I think you are on the new road already and just starting.

Remember life is not a sprint but more like a marathon.

Some miles are great and some miles you feel like giving up but just have to push through it.

Hope you had a good weekend before the Monday's start.

Very sexy picture

 

[Kingforaday]

So this isn't an "am pic" post - it's personal - but I feel like this is my own little spot in these threads so here I come to vent.

I became friends with a man over a year ago through these forums. He and I became very close and I shared personal details of my life with him. One of these being that I'm married and the other being that I have a child.

For those of you who have befriended me over the past couple years, this is not news to you as these are not details that I hide. In short, my marriage is crap. There are several things that led to this situation but in the end we live like roommates and are far from being in love. Life is expensive and complicated - especially when you have a child. Divorce is certainly in my future, as I desperately want to finally be happy - to find "the one". But as I get finances in order so that I can adequately care for myself and my daughter, I am still married to my husband.

I don't like to label myself as a cheater - but I know that's what I am. It's not something I make a habit of or something I take lightly. I don't get off on cheating. More so than physical - I've emotionally cheated a few times. I know every "cheater" has their reason and mine really falls to finding a connection.

So back to the friend I made on here...
He disappeared for several months and reappeared back tonight. He assumed I had divorced by now - I wish I had, but no. When he found out I was still married, this is the reaction I get:
"...you disgusting leech of a selfish excuse for a woman. Seriously. You should be thrown in hell. It makes me sick that people like you even exist."
(There was more but you get the point...)

What people who aren't in situations like mine don't understand is that life sucks. (I sure we all know that). Life puts us in situations that aren't black and white. Life makes us choose between seeing something as 50% good or 50% bad. Sometimes you make choices that aren't perfect but are what you have to do to keep your head above water. And yes, the stabing pain of loneliness feels like you're drowning.

So am I really that awful? I know cheating is wrong, but when neither party is in love and are just moving through the motions, is what I'm doing that bad? And mind you, I'm the bread winner this house so I'm not exactly "leeching". But maybe I am...maybe I'm just a horrible person that really does deserve hell - or at least "friends"like this guy.

(Stepping off my soapbox) Thanks for letting me vent....

This is neither a church enhanced by the perceived superiority of a minority nor should it be a venue for passing judgement. It is also a place that's not void of idiots too insensitive to understand that behind the words and images are real people, with real feelings.

Keep your head on straight, looking forward...and make 2015 a better year.

 

[StacyLeigh]

Thank you King You've always had my back.

This is neither a church enhanced by the perceived superiority of a minority nor should it be a venue for passing judgement. It is also a place that's not void of idiots too insensitive to understand that behind the words and images are real people, with real feelings.

Keep your head on straight, looking forward...and make 2015 a better year.

 

[monoblanco]

A beautiful pic to start off the new year!

Thanks for sharing, Stacy. Gorgeous as always

Here's hoping 2015 brings you what you're looking for.

 

[bigwoody8]

lol "everybody look at my boobs and now agree with my personal shit"

wasnt aware this was a teenagers myspace page

its funny though lol "+1" "aww bb i agree with whatever you say anyone who doesnt like you is a douche" no idea how people honestly get off on these things. you have a daughter too? i raised mine (two beautiful girls) myself. and I tend to have little respect for people in your self-admited situation. but you do you lol. and i'm glad you can find so much assurance in little quips of text from horny boys who just want to see more tits lol.

I tend to be known as the "nice girl" but seriously FUCK OFF.

It's pretty funny that the last time you posted, "Melissa", was to the personal ad of the same asshole who said these things to me. So you either know him and are sticking up for him or you're him.... Either way, grow the fuck up.

ahh, shes a stable one too. surprise!

get off the internet if you can't take literally one person disagreeing with you. really? gonna go get your threadfull of mindless zombie agreeing boys on me now? lol

i wish the best for your daughter. she sounds like a precious gift and dont let anyone take that from you. But look at yourself. is this the woman you want her to grow up into? To learn from and idolize?

I wish you well (even though you just told me to fuckoff lol) and hope that you too one day can "grow the fuck up"

Well that's pretty weird. Stacy lays it all out for everyone, admits what she's done, etc. Maybe she didn't tell the whole story, but the small part she did show us from the guy clearly shows he's off his rocker. All the sudden this "Melissa" shows up out of nowhere (13 posts in 7-8 years?) and defends him for reasons unknown.

It's pretty obvious Melissa is not real and is most likely that "J" person from the personal thread that was mentioned. Why else would she/he be personally attacking Stacy and the job she's doing as a mother? That's a pretty fucking weird thing for a complete stranger to come here and do.

So Mr. J... it's probably time to leave her alone. She didn't do what you were hoping she would do. Bummer, dude. Stop harassing her on a message board and move on.

and Stacy... it's been a long time since we've talked, but I gotta say... you pick some weird, shady dudes to have connections with. Or maybe it's the same guy from back when you and I talked more and he just keeps using different names. Either way... please be careful. The internet is a strange place. I think you need a new rule. Video chat with everyone within the first week of talking to them haha. that way you know who's who and keep this and other guys from fucking with you.

Sincerely,
Guy who is somehow able to simultaneously enjoy pictures of boobs and recognize when people are being douche bags without said boobs altering his opinion.

 

[StacyLeigh]

Thanks BW for your insight. Yes, you know a bit more than most about the guys I've come across and I do seem to be a magnet for creeps. I'll be more careful from now on

Regarding the "video chat rule", I would like it noted that you lived right the street from me and I never met you.... Maybe you're one of these shady characters

Well that's pretty weird. Stacy lays it all out for everyone, admits what she's done, etc. Maybe she didn't tell the whole story, but the small part she did show us from the guy clearly shows he's off his rocker. All the sudden this "Melissa" shows up out of nowhere (13 posts in 7-8 years?) and defends him for reasons unknown.

It's pretty obvious Melissa is not real and is most likely that "J" person from the personal thread that was mentioned. Why else would she/he be personally attacking Stacy and the job she's doing as a mother? That's a pretty fucking weird thing for a complete stranger to come here and do.

So Mr. J... it's probably time to leave her alone. She didn't do what you were hoping she would do. Bummer, dude. Stop harassing her on a message board and move on.

and Stacy... it's been a long time since we've talked, but I gotta say... you pick some weird, shady dudes to have connections with. Or maybe it's the same guy from back when you and I talked more and he just keeps using different names. Either way... please be careful. The internet is a strange place. I think you need a new rule. Video chat with everyone within the first week of talking to them haha. that way you know who's who and keep this and other guys from fucking with you.

Sincerely,
Guy who is somehow able to simultaneously enjoy pictures of boobs and recognize when people are being douche bags without said boobs altering his opinion.

 

[porkyrocket69]

We must leave this terrifying place tomorrow and go searching for sunshine
F. Scott Fitzgerald

(an oldie that usually doesn't stay long as it's often pulled down)

http://i1279.photobucket.com/albums/y531/stacyleigh824/04EFE39B-6449-4474-BFC6-57368C6FD3BC_zpsoi5pkgqw.jpg

You are absolutely gorgeous...
PUL..Are you a camera? Because every time I look at you, I smile.

 

[porkyrocket69]

pics

We must leave this terrifying place tomorrow and go searching for sunshine
F. Scott Fitzgerald

(an oldie that usually doesn't stay long as it's often pulled down)

http://i1279.photobucket.com/albums/y531/stacyleigh824/04EFE39B-6449-4474-BFC6-57368C6FD3BC_zpsoi5pkgqw.jpg

You are absolutely gorgeous...
PUL..Are you a camera? Because every time I look at you, I smile.

 

[porkyrocket69]

You are absolutely gorgeous...
PUL..Are you a camera? Because every time I look at you, I smile.

Here...let me post this twice....

 

[DiJiT]

Hey Stacy!!

Sent you an e-mail.......Yeah, I know, but I'm hopeful with this one.

 

[bigwoody8]

Thanks BW for your insight. Yes, you know a bit more than most about the guys I've come across and I do seem to be a magnet for creeps. I'll be more careful from now on

Regarding the "video chat rule", I would like it noted that you lived right the street from me and I never met you.... Maybe you're one of these shady characters

I am the shadiest

I moved to North Austin. But we can definitely meet. I'm not sure why we didn't. I can't remember, but it was probably my fault.

 

[VIPER2121]

Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event. Big or small. Something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope.

http://i1279.photobucket.com/albums/y531/stacyleigh824/1296294D-AE94-4615-AC5D-87D8314861B7.png_zpsvbl9du8n.jpeg

Lovely!

 

[jinx4u]

Well guess who gave me a tiny little 1% hope a day ago