I feel a little silly confessing this, but what the hell. Here's the story.
I play an online 3D game called Red Light Center (similar to Second Life, so I'm told). I've been in the game for about 18 months, playing as a man, even though I am a woman in real. I started out as a power bottom boy, but as my confidence grew, I morphed into a dom top. I mostly top other men, but I will bottom for the right partner. On rare occasions, I play with women, or even rarer, with T-girls. It's all good with me.
About 4 months ago, I joined a BDSM family in the game. I started out as a slave (which surprised a lot of people, lol), but after a couple of months, I changed to a Dom. I've never practiced BDSM in real, but my best friend (and brother) in the game is a gay man who actively lived the lifestyle for 20 or more years, so I have a good teacher.
For reasons I won't go into (unless you just really want to know), I'm considering changing my avatar to female. My "dad" in the game has been in search of a dominant female to join the family (which is all gay men right now) for a while, so he's happy to know that I may fill that role for him. He wants to be certain that I'll be happy in the role, though, before I commit to the change.
My problem, however, is that I'm not sure I can do it. (Fucked up, right?) I have become so comfortable with playing a man in the game that I'm not sure whether I want to play a woman. When I watch gay porn, I usually identify as the top. When I watch straight porn, I usually identify as the man. When I watch BDSM, I usually identify as the (male) Dom. Only sometimes do I identify as the sub (male or female). And while I am attracted to women, lesbian porn does little for me. I'm just really picky about the women I'm attracted to. (Lesbian porn is probably made for straight men, anyway.)
So I don't know. I'm trying to think of different dominant female characters that I can identify with that I find sexy. Sharon Stone in Basic Instinct and Angelina Jolie in Mr. and Mrs. Smith come to mind. But when I think of a Dominatrix all decked out in buckles and leather and chains, I get a little turned off. Does anybody have some pointers that could help me envision this? I am open to suggestions and will answer any questions. Thanks!
I play an online 3D game called Red Light Center (similar to Second Life, so I'm told). I've been in the game for about 18 months, playing as a man, even though I am a woman in real. I started out as a power bottom boy, but as my confidence grew, I morphed into a dom top. I mostly top other men, but I will bottom for the right partner. On rare occasions, I play with women, or even rarer, with T-girls. It's all good with me.
About 4 months ago, I joined a BDSM family in the game. I started out as a slave (which surprised a lot of people, lol), but after a couple of months, I changed to a Dom. I've never practiced BDSM in real, but my best friend (and brother) in the game is a gay man who actively lived the lifestyle for 20 or more years, so I have a good teacher.
For reasons I won't go into (unless you just really want to know), I'm considering changing my avatar to female. My "dad" in the game has been in search of a dominant female to join the family (which is all gay men right now) for a while, so he's happy to know that I may fill that role for him. He wants to be certain that I'll be happy in the role, though, before I commit to the change.
My problem, however, is that I'm not sure I can do it. (Fucked up, right?) I have become so comfortable with playing a man in the game that I'm not sure whether I want to play a woman. When I watch gay porn, I usually identify as the top. When I watch straight porn, I usually identify as the man. When I watch BDSM, I usually identify as the (male) Dom. Only sometimes do I identify as the sub (male or female). And while I am attracted to women, lesbian porn does little for me. I'm just really picky about the women I'm attracted to. (Lesbian porn is probably made for straight men, anyway.)
So I don't know. I'm trying to think of different dominant female characters that I can identify with that I find sexy. Sharon Stone in Basic Instinct and Angelina Jolie in Mr. and Mrs. Smith come to mind. But when I think of a Dominatrix all decked out in buckles and leather and chains, I get a little turned off. Does anybody have some pointers that could help me envision this? I am open to suggestions and will answer any questions. Thanks!
