The Isolated Blurt BDSM Thread

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Hey Etoile, so sorry to hear about your kitty.

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. :rose:
 
Thanks K, that's what I'm looking for. I'm not into prayer but I am superstitious, so crossed fingers are all I want.
 
Put up signs. Looked a little. Cried a lot. Distressed that I cannot find the fur we collected from him earlier when I knew this would happen someday. Finding myself very resistant to telling people I know IRL because I'll cry. Including my mom, so I haven't said it on twitter. I'm a wreck inside if I think about it. Trying to achieve peace. See, fuck, I'm crying now. I just want to know what happened to my kitty. It's harder for not knowing.
Powering up the locator beam, crossing fingers, toes, eyes (figuratively - too hard to type otherwise!) that your kitty gets back home soon!

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Someone used the word fractal today. It apparently does not mean a bone in your foot, or an issue with high political interest.
 
Not looking forward to this two-hour drive home, but will be glad to get there once it's over.
 
So when (and why) did "vajay-jay" become the pc word of the world?

Seriously. I was looking at my pasty skin in a 2 piece swim suit for the first time in two years, and remembered a conversation with a coworker my age. The comment was along the lines of her boyfriend asking her if after taning in the yard her "vajay-jay" would still be white.

I kind of looked at her like she had 3 heads because I don't understand why we can't use a more grown up word. Hell I would have respected "down there" more than "vajay-jay"
 
So when (and why) did "vajay-jay" become the pc word of the world?

Seriously. I was looking at my pasty skin in a 2 piece swim suit for the first time in two years, and remembered a conversation with a coworker my age. The comment was along the lines of her boyfriend asking her if after taning in the yard her "vajay-jay" would still be white.

I kind of looked at her like she had 3 heads because I don't understand why we can't use a more grown up word. Hell I would have respected "down there" more than "vajay-jay"

but vajay-jay is fun to say :p


Blurt: I've realized half the reason I've been so needy is just because I miss physical contact in general. I can't get any sort of actual intimacy, so I'm just demanding distance playtime. Overwhelming dulled nerves, so to speak. Maybe now that I've realized that, I can stop pestering my poor man :p
 
There is a poster over in talk who has my soon to be ex Husdom's initials as part of her username. Every time I see a post I can't help but wonder if it's one of his other women... Really fucks with me...
 
There's a thread a Fet theorizing that service-submissives are just being taken advantage of by spoiled brat immature wannabe doms that is pissing me off way more than necessary. :rolleyes:
 
There is a poster over in talk who has my soon to be ex Husdom's initials as part of her username. Every time I see a post I can't help but wonder if it's one of his other women... Really fucks with me...

{hugs}

It probably isn't.

But you could always message her and find out.

That way, if it is, it messes with her head too.

Really sorry things have not worked out for you.

There is life, even BDSM life, after divorce xxx
 
Note to self: know what wears you down like a floor sander? Utter chaos!!! :eek:





Hmmmm... Maybe we should hang out... :D

I just need people to get their heads out of their asses.

You'd think that in my industry they would have delt with worker's comp cases more, but I swear I seem to be the first to have to deal with any of this. And their learning that McD policy doesn't match up. Which fucks me, but the next person will have an easier time. :rolleyes:

I just hate being told everything is in order, then payday, not recieving a check, and being told it's because I didn't make a call that I didn't know I had to make, because I was told every thing is in order. :mad:

Beat some people for me? I might not stop if I start.
 
I just need people to get their heads out of their asses.

You'd think that in my industry they would have delt with worker's comp cases more, but I swear I seem to be the first to have to deal with any of this. And their learning that McD policy doesn't match up. Which fucks me, but the next person will have an easier time. :rolleyes:

I just hate being told everything is in order, then payday, not recieving a check, and being told it's because I didn't make a call that I didn't know I had to make, because I was told every thing is in order. :mad:

This sounds as if it's encouraging your restful and full recovery. Congrats!

Beat some people for me? I might not stop if I start.

Hmmm...it's down to a giant version of the coffee stirrer paddle thingees, or maybe a plastic bag of frozen Mcnuggets.
 
just a rant..

not really sure just WTF else I can try to kick start someone I have been trying to get out of first gear for pretty much 2 years.. most guys would call a female with this low a sex drive "frigid".. I have gone from "getting it" at least once a day to once every 6-8 weeks.. Viagra gives him more headaches (which indicates it is NOT ED), I have purchased toys (never needed them b4 him), I have learned to play well with self (like I do when I am single) & yes in the therapist's office he makes it all out to be wonderful.. so wonderful I feel guilty wanting affection/touch/sex..

He is a fetish photographer, a rigger, my level kinkster..
Problem is sexually we are opposite ends of the spectrum..
I wait naked in bed while he wanders the web, surfing images..
by the time he comes to bed he falls directly asleep.
Like as soon as he closed the windows all intrest shuts off too..
I know leaving would be best for my sanity,
But my mind tells me I am an ungrateful bitch if I do..

Then I remember all the excuses.. the headaches, the stress from work, too hot, too cold, the back pain, the chores needing done, the new landscaping equipment needing to be tested, the neighbours that dropped in & needed help, the house repairs, the shed repairs, the overtime, need to go into town for things, the website updating & on it goes..

as much as I want to toss my arms up & say "screw me or I'm leaving" I just can't make an idle threat.. I don't know how to walk away from someone without a catalyst, no sex isn't enough on it's own.

Every other male in my life has broken my rule of infidelety.. not him..
he surfs for hours but never chats or flirts.. never puts up any flags..
He is as loyal as they come but I would get more attention from a dog.


I know I am not a whale or ugly.. but I do know I am not model material for websites.. unless they are BBW ones or ones for amazons..

I just wonder if he doesn't find me sexually stimulating why the fuck did he ask me to move in with him? Am I just a trophy he wanted? was I just to see if someone would actually move 2 hrs away from everyone to be with him? Am I just so used to being with horndogs that I can't see him for the gentleman he is??

1/3 of me wants to leave & deal with the stress living on my own again will bring but allow the sexuallity I need to be found. 1/3 of me wants to stay & live financially free but find a way to deal with the issues at hand, the last 1/3 is playing devils advocate for both sides...

is it really that hard for some to show affection, kiss & hug a partner and have sex at least once a week?? especially when I bend to his schedule, dress up to intice him, offer toys, do all the household chores I can before he gets in from work & do pretty much everything but say "fuck me" anymore because that is "pressuring him".. I can only sit & wait so freaking long..
 
This sounds as if it's encouraging your restful and full recovery. Congrats!

I know. I was really upset yesterday. I don't understand why they can't get things in order for me. There is always some one dropping the ball some where.

I don't know if reality hasn't hit me, or if I just have faith that things will be sorted, but I'm not upset like I was before. I'm angry, but not down.

Hmmm...it's down to a giant version of the coffee stirrer paddle thingees, or maybe a plastic bag of frozen Mcnuggets.

The nuggets would hurt more. :)
 
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I know its a bit cheeky to just wander back in, but I really need all the positive thoughts/crossed fingers/prayers I can get for an ultrasound I have tomorrow.
Hope you're all ok
 
I know its a bit cheeky to just wander back in, but I really need all the positive thoughts/crossed fingers/prayers I can get for an ultrasound I have tomorrow.
Hope you're all ok
 
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