Prision Rape- My Fear My Fantasty

[Missouribiguy]

Ok, this is a bit of weird subject, but ...

I admit this, I have never seen a episode of General Hospital. However, one of the current storylines had a character who went to jail, got beatened, and raped. Since I have heard of it, I have dwell on it alot, both in a state of fear and in fury of fantasty.

I admit, I had have the fantasty of going to jail/prison, and having a cellmate who uses me. Definately don't want to be beaten, so I might be more willing to suck his dick and let him fuck my ass. However, the same thought is my fear, as it's like "what if he just a guy who wants to dominate me anyway" That mean, he can really hurt me or something like that.


Anyway, do you guys think I am being a bit psycho about this, or do I have a good reason to feel this way?

 

[rosco rathbone]

Read the book Fish, you'll love it.

 

[Safe_Bet]

No. I think you're being a bit "in the wrong forum". Try BDSM. That's a better place for rape fantasies, regardless of gender roles.

 

[Missouribiguy]

Yeah, how do you move it?

 

[Stella_Omega]

No. I think you're being a bit "in the wrong forum". Try BDSM. That's a better place for rape fantasies, regardless of gender roles.

Not really. The hetero is pretty well entrenched. I get a pass because of being just female enough. I haven't seen many gay men talk in the BDSm forum.

In the GLBT world, of course, some of us would like to pick and choose if we're vanilla or kinky. Being gay trumps BDSM in the hetero world.

Ok, this is a bit of weird subject, but ...

I admit this, I have never seen a episode of General Hospital. However, one of the current storylines had a character who went to jail, got beatened, and raped. Since I have heard of it, I have dwell on it alot, both in a state of fear and in fury of fantasty.

I admit, I had have the fantasty of going to jail/prison, and having a cellmate who uses me. Definately don't want to be beaten, so I might be more willing to suck his dick and let him fuck my ass. However, the same thought is my fear, as it's like "what if he just a guy who wants to dominate me anyway" That mean, he can really hurt me or something like that.


Anyway, do you guys think I am being a bit psycho about this, or do I have a good reason to feel this way?

You aren't the only guy with this fantasy, don't worry about that. It sounds like you have a couple of crossed wires, hmm? A bit of a submissive bottoming streak? being scared turns you on a little?

I always think this fantasy is a case of the eyes being bigger than the mouth, you know-- like, you're wondering how much stamina you would really have.

In any case, here's a prison fantasy I did a long time ago; http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=376223

and here are a couple of good hot stories for you; Brian And The Frat Boys

and Short Time

 

[Missouribiguy]

Not really. The hetero is pretty well entrenched. I get a pass because of being just female enough. I haven't seen many gay men talk in the BDSm forum.

In the GLBT world, of course, some of us would like to pick and choose if we're vanilla or kinky. Being gay trumps BDSM in the hetero world.

You aren't the only guy with this fantasy, don't worry about that. It sounds like you have a couple of crossed wires, hmm? A bit of a submissive bottoming streak? being scared turns you on a little?

I always think this fantasy is a case of the eyes being bigger than the mouth, you know-- like, you're wondering how much stamina you would really have.

In any case, here's a prison fantasy I did a long time ago; http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=376223

and here are a couple of good hot stories for you; Brian And The Frat Boys

and Short Time

While it is a fanasty, I just wish I would stop thinking about it. Hell, I don't even watch General Hospital. I mean, if it happened on Days of Our Lives or The Young and The Restless, then it would.

Mostly, i am trying to figure out why I dwelling on it?

 

[HerLittlePiggy]

It isn't rape if you beg.

Seriously, rape fantasies are one of the most common fantasies to have. Its normal so don't fret.

 

[Stella_Omega]

While it is a fanasty, I just wish I would stop thinking about it. Hell, I don't even watch General Hospital. I mean, if it happened on Days of Our Lives or The Young and The Restless, then it would.

Mostly, i am trying to figure out why I dwelling on it?

Because it gets you off.

 

[Missouribiguy]

It isn't rape if you beg.

Seriously, rape fantasies are one of the most common fantasies to have. Its normal so don't fret.

I know it is. Hell, I have the fantasties of me being the rapist as well. Always turn me on that way.

 

[Missouribiguy]

Because it gets you off.

Yes it does. I admit that the guys who played the characters are far from bad looking. If I were the rapist, I definately be the dominate, yet somewhat gentle type. You know, the guy who rapes, but wants you to enjoy it as well.

I definately would call it the more submissive thing if I did go to prison. It's a bit stupid for me to fight some guy wanting to me to suck his cock. I would be far from giddy, but I definately wouldn't be crying "I'm not sucking that today".

By the way, here's a good bondage rape gay vid I found:
http://xhamster.com/movies/548291/tied_hostage_gets_banged_hard.html

Enjoy!

 

[Missouribiguy]

Bump for the video.

 

[Missouribiguy]

A bit of a change of subject, what is your favorite rape fantasties?

 

[woman_inside]

That a man rents my ass out to be raped. Gang rape and pimping fantasy in one.

 

[none2_none2]

Personally, I guess I don't have the fantasy to get raped. I never physically liked bottoming, and penises aren't a big erotic thing for me.

At a mental level, I would add that I don't like loosing control. I think between feeling powerless as a kid as well as seeing people with mental illness loosing control, I could never fathom surrendering control in anything. How that affects me:


1) I would never take drugs or get drunk. I always thought it was stupid, but I also
just couldn't fathom being at the mercy of others if I blacked out or didn't keep my wits about me and did something I would later regret.

2) If I get depressed, I fight it as I've seen how emotional issues can help one loose control.

3) I couldn't fathom loosing control in sex. (When I first started m2m sex, I thought i had to bottom because I wasn't hung. Not only was it not pleasurable, it felt unnatural -- almost like being mechanically straight, but emotionally gay to where I despised having sex with the gender I wanted to love me.)

I would add that there is more to not wanting to loose control. You also can loose control getting overwhelmed with strong emotions such as anger, sex drive, etc. For instance, I remember years ago, I had a fuck buddy who was very compatible sexually. He loved to have me fuck him. Back in those days I was young, horny, and strong, so it was no big deal for me to carry him into the bedroom, and go for it. He was a big, muscular, hairy guy, but I had the strength to pick him up. Anyway, for some reason one day, I was super charged. Anyway, I had fucked him about 3 or 4 times that day. He was taking one more nap before he had to leave for work. Anyway, I was horny and got a little aggressive. For some reason I saw "fear" in his eyes, like I had fucked him one too many times and he couldn't take it. Anyway, I immediately pulled out and balled like a baby; I may be a top, but I "need" the bottom to want ME to be inside him.

He said something that bothered me that I have never forgotten. He said that there is an element of sex that is about "taking" pleasure for yourself from the other person in order to "get off". His comment made sex sound so selfish, but it would be naive to say that isn't a component of truth to what he said.

There have been times that I have had very aggressive dreams that were sexual and/or physical in nature. For instance when an ex of mine told me 2 years into the relationship that he had never loved me. For years, afterwards I had very dark dreams about him. The only time I could allow such desires to surface was when "I" felt wronged -- in reality or even in complete imagination.

For instance, I couldn't dream of raping or hurting another guy unless that perception of being wronged was there first. As I get older, I try to surpress any such dreams as I feel that it reflects on me as having a very dark, disturbed mind. Don't get me wrong, I'll never go postal. However, I still don't like dark fantasies.

Though I'm pretty much an open book on this forum, I think I'll keep these to myself. I guess my point is, that I would be VERY careful about what is fantasy and what is reality. There are somethings that are best left alone. I'm no prude, but you have to be very careful with anything involving rape or physical violence. If you really want to go down such path, make SURE you know your limits and the limits of whomever you try it with. I would never advise doing this with a stranger -- not matter how hot he is.

Case in point, I knew about a gay guy who was murdered. I didn't know him that well, but he used to cruise one of the parks I went to. He was a great guy to talk to, he loved talking about Amtrak, etc... He was no small man. Anyway, all of a sudden he stopped showing up at the park, and I asked others about him. Someone told me that he picked up some younger man and took him home. This young guy said he was into bondage. So he let the young man tie him up. Then when he was all tied up, the guy bludgeon him to death and stole his wallet. That was just sick, and I hope they caught the guy who did it.

MObiguy, keep in mind that such stuff doesn't happen only in big, impersonal US cities on the coast. I believe this guy was from St Joe, MO. So proceed with caution if you wish to act out your fantasies. Personally, I think it's a Pandora's box.

 

[Missouribiguy]

Personally, I guess I don't have the fantasy to get raped. I never physically liked bottoming, and penises aren't a big erotic thing for me.

At a mental level, I would add that I don't like loosing control. I think between feeling powerless as a kid as well as seeing people with mental illness loosing control, I could never fathom surrendering control in anything. How that affects me:


1) I would never take drugs or get drunk. I always thought it was stupid, but I also
just couldn't fathom being at the mercy of others if I blacked out or didn't keep my wits about me and did something I would later regret.

2) If I get depressed, I fight it as I've seen how emotional issues can help one loose control.

3) I couldn't fathom loosing control in sex. (When I first started m2m sex, I thought i had to bottom because I wasn't hung. Not only was it not pleasurable, it felt unnatural -- almost like being mechanically straight, but emotionally gay to where I despised having sex with the gender I wanted to love me.)

I would add that there is more to not wanting to loose control. You also can loose control getting overwhelmed with strong emotions such as anger, sex drive, etc. For instance, I remember years ago, I had a fuck buddy who was very compatible sexually. He loved to have me fuck him. Back in those days I was young, horny, and strong, so it was no big deal for me to carry him into the bedroom, and go for it. He was a big, muscular, hairy guy, but I had the strength to pick him up. Anyway, for some reason one day, I was super charged. Anyway, I had fucked him about 3 or 4 times that day. He was taking one more nap before he had to leave for work. Anyway, I was horny and got a little aggressive. For some reason I saw "fear" in his eyes, like I had fucked him one too many times and he couldn't take it. Anyway, I immediately pulled out and balled like a baby; I may be a top, but I "need" the bottom to want ME to be inside him.

He said something that bothered me that I have never forgotten. He said that there is an element of sex that is about "taking" pleasure for yourself from the other person in order to "get off". His comment made sex sound so selfish, but it would be naive to say that isn't a component of truth to what he said.

There have been times that I have had very aggressive dreams that were sexual and/or physical in nature. For instance when an ex of mine told me 2 years into the relationship that he had never loved me. For years, afterwards I had very dark dreams about him. The only time I could allow such desires to surface was when "I" felt wronged -- in reality or even in complete imagination.

For instance, I couldn't dream of raping or hurting another guy unless that perception of being wronged was there first. As I get older, I try to surpress any such dreams as I feel that it reflects on me as having a very dark, disturbed mind. Don't get me wrong, I'll never go postal. However, I still don't like dark fantasies.

Though I'm pretty much an open book on this forum, I think I'll keep these to myself. I guess my point is, that I would be VERY careful about what is fantasy and what is reality. There are somethings that are best left alone. I'm no prude, but you have to be very careful with anything involving rape or physical violence. If you really want to go down such path, make SURE you know your limits and the limits of whomever you try it with. I would never advise doing this with a stranger -- not matter how hot he is.

Case in point, I knew about a gay guy who was murdered. I didn't know him that well, but he used to cruise one of the parks I went to. He was a great guy to talk to, he loved talking about Amtrak, etc... He was no small man. Anyway, all of a sudden he stopped showing up at the park, and I asked others about him. Someone told me that he picked up some younger man and took him home. This young guy said he was into bondage. So he let the young man tie him up. Then when he was all tied up, the guy bludgeon him to death and stole his wallet. That was just sick, and I hope they caught the guy who did it.

MObiguy, keep in mind that such stuff doesn't happen only in big, impersonal US cities on the coast. I believe this guy was from St Joe, MO. So proceed with caution if you wish to act out your fantasies. Personally, I think it's a Pandora's box.

The rape thing is a dark fantasty of mine as well, and no I don't want to live it out, staged or not. I personally prefer the idea that I am having hot consensual sex with the person I am with, man or woman. I still want to be control with the situation, even if I do bottom.

Sorry to hear about that guy you knew. But, it does prove a point you can't really trust people, online or not. I'm pretty much a antisocial asshole when I come to think about it.

I do have bondage fantasties, but I would prefer to do it with someone I trust than some stranger off the street.

Where are you from anyway?

 

[smallncute]

I have a story on such a theme...

Not my best story but....

It is called "the prisoner within"

It is about a female being sent to jail.....

Miranda

 

[Bystander]

I'm not big on fantasies of being outright raped but I do fantasize about being in a completely submissive situation where I'm told what to do etc and I do it, at times with hesitation, so maybe mild coercion is involved. I equate rape with pain and suffering, neither of those appeals to me much although I can see the lure of it.

 

[Missouribiguy]

I'm not big on fantasies of being outright raped but I do fantasize about being in a completely submissive situation where I'm told what to do etc and I do it, at times with hesitation, so maybe mild coercion is involved. I equate rape with pain and suffering, neither of those appeals to me much although I can see the lure of it.

Probably where I am coming from in my "rape" fantasties. I'm not so much forced to it as I am coerce into it.