the captians wench
sewing wench
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- Jun 16, 2005
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Yah, it's WORK getting to that point. The payoff is that the people you do have around you are gold. Maybe some of the others might have a light bulb at some point. Maybe you might feel comfortable giving them a long kind explanation at some point and the light goes off. Maybe not - and you don't owe that.
That last bolded bit has been the hardest for me to accept.
I've receintly decided to just stop comunication with my dad. He's just toxic, loads of drama. It was very hard for me to get to that point, and to do it with out feeling guilty. My mom had to point out to me that I just because he's my dad doesn't mean that I owe him anything. I don't owe anyone anything, and if they are a toxic force, I owe it to myself to remove them. It was very hard to get to that point, but I'm better off for it.
Bunny, when I was dating a couple (well technecly I was dating him and his wife just was involved from time to time, but we kind of functioned like one family) I was very tempted to bring them to family gatherings just so people would fuck off. My aunt likes to start rumors about me, I think to detract from the failures of her kids and herself. She had my family convinced I was secretly dating women. She once told my mom, "if you only knew what your daughter really does, it would just kill you". My mom brought it up to me, laughing, saying "if she only knew what I know you do, it would blow what she thinks is going on out of the water". *giggles*
My mom isn't the most openminded person, but she's always suported me. Well except when I decided to run off and spend 9 days in another country with a man I'd never seen face to face before. She still throws that in my face as the craziest thing I've ever done. But then she admits that I don't give her much else to work with. She's also not very suportive of the idea of me moving to Ireland, but she would also be the first one to help me fill out the paperwork if I needed it. She's just good people.