am i bi gay or straight

[chiricano]

I have been reAding a few stories here & find myself turned on to the ones about shemales..im divoceed and have a couple o kids...last year i met a shemale in Panama in a night club...she was quite buetiful and very nice to talk to, i had a few drinks with her and was attracted to her. Before i found out she was trans/g.

I made exuses and left her company...now i cant stop thinking aout her & probably regret not taking it further, i done some reasearch and have read literature here...and if i get the chance again i am sure i would go further.

How would i go about finding a similar shemale in Scotland, as i live in a small town. as i dont think i can wait till i return to centro america next year.

Ps. i still date other girls..but my mind keeps goig back to that night.


is there something wrong with me.










































Am i gay

 

[trb2216]

i don't think you are gay for having these thoughts. a lot of guys (myself included) have these fantasies.

i think you are just curious about shemales, and until you have an experience with one i wouldn't worry about trying to label yourself as gay, straight, or bi.

 

[sarawithacock]

girls who happen to have been born with penises are still girls.

and really, sexuality is a broad spectrum...you are unique.

 

[TightUndies]

Answer this question "Are you gay?"

 

[chiricano]

no im not gay...i dont fancy other guys.....that shemale actually seemed more feminine than normal girls,

 

[Stella_Omega]

So, you like girls. You are not gay.

 

[Safe_Bet]

So, you like girls. You are not gay.

What'da mean? I like girls and I'm gay!

 

[none2_none2]

I don't get this idea that someone who doesn't have female reproductive organs can be more "feminine"? Isn't part of being feminine coping with all the stuff (good and bad) that comes along with being a woman? Doesn't dealing with menstruation, threat of pregnancy, pregnancy itself, hormonal imbalances, female puberty, menopause, etc all part of what goes into the character of a woman? If I were a woman, I'd be insulted by a statement that shemales are more feminine. Isn't womanhood more than just "feeling" like a girl on the inside? It sounds more like a chauvinist attitude that if a girl ACTS like a guy wants her to act, then she is more feminine which is a very shallow way of judging people.

 

[pointless]

The boy was in the hallway drinking a glass of tea
From the other end of the hallway a rhythm was generating
Another boy was sliding up the hallway
He merged perfectly with the hallway,
He merged perfectly, the mirror in the hallway

The boy looked at Johnny, Johnny wanted to run,
but the movie kept moving as planned
The boy took Johnny, he pushed him against the locker,
He drove it in, he drove it home, he drove it deep in Johnny
The boy disappeared, Johnny fell on his knees,
started crashing his head against the locker,
started crashing his head against the locker,
started laughing hysterically

When suddenly Johnny gets the feeling he's being surrounded by
horses, horses, horses, horses
coming in in all directions
white shining silver studs with their nose in flames,
He saw horses, horses, horses, horses, horses, horses, horses, horses.
Do you know how to pony like bony maroney
Do you know how to twist, well it goes like this, it goes like this
Baby mash potato, do the alligator, do the alligator
And you twist the twister like your baby sister
I want your baby sister, give me your baby sister, dig your baby sister
Rise up on her knees, do the sweet pea, do the sweet pee pee,
Roll down on her back, got to lose control, got to lose control,
Got to lose control and then you take control,
Then you're rolled down on your back and you like it like that,
Like it like that, like it like that, like it like that,
Then you do the watusi, yeah do the watusi

Life is filled with holes, Johnny's laying there, his sperm coffin
Angel looks down at him and says, “Oh, pretty boy,
Can't you show me nothing but surrender ?”
Johnny gets up, takes off his leather jacket,
Taped to his chest there's the answer,
You got pen knives and jack knives and
Switchblades preferred, switchblades preferred
Then he cries, then he screams, saying
Life is full of pain, I'm cruisin' through my brain
And I fill my nose with snow and go Rimbaud,
Go Rimbaud, go Rimbaud,
And go Johnny go, and do the watusi, oh do the watusi

There's a little place, a place called space
It's a pretty little place, it's across the tracks,
Across the tracks and the name of the place is you like it like that,
You like it like that, you like it like that, you like it like that,
And the name of the band is the
Twistelettes, Twistelettes, Twistelettes, Twistelettes,
Twistelettes, Twistelettes, Twistelettes, Twistelettes

Baby calm down, better calm down,
In the night, in the eye of the forest
There's a mare black and shining with yellow hair,
I put my fingers through her silken hair and found a stair,
I didn't waste time, I just walked right up and saw that
up there -- there is a sea
up there -- there is a sea
up there -- there is a sea
the sea's the possibility
There is no land but the land
(up there is just a sea of possibilities)
There is no sea but the sea
(up there is a wall of possibilities)
There is no keeper but the key
(up there there are several walls of possibilities)
Except for one who seizes possibilities, one who seizes possibilities.
(up there)
I seize the first possibility, is the sea around me
I was standing there with my legs spread like a sailor
(in a sea of possibilities) I felt his hand on my knee
(on the screen)
And I looked at Johnny and handed him a branch of cold flame
(in the heart of man)
The waves were coming in like Arabian stallions
Gradually lapping into sea horses
He picked up the blade and he pressed it against his smooth throat
(the spoon)
And let it deep in
(the veins)
Dip in to the sea, to the sea of possibilities
It started hardening
Dip in to the sea, to the sea of possibilities
It started hardening in my hand
And I felt the arrows of desire

I put my hand inside his cranium, oh we had such a brainiac-amour
But no more, no more, I gotta move from my mind to the area
(go Rimbaud go Rimbaud go Rimbaud)
And go Johnny go and do the watusi,
Yeah do the watusi, do the watusi ...
Shined open coiled snakes white and shiny twirling and encircling
Our lives are now entwined, we will fall yes we're together twining
Your nerves, your mane of the black shining horse
And my fingers all entwined through the air,
I could feel it, it was the hair going through my fingers,
(I feel it I feel it I feel it I feel it)
The hairs were like wires going through my body
I I that's how I
that's how I
I died
(at that Tower of Babel they knew what they were after)
(they knew what they were after)
[Everything on the current] moved up
I tried to stop it, but it was too warm, too unbelievably smooth,
Like playing in the sea, in the sea of possibility, the possibility
Was a blade, a shiny blade, I hold the key to the sea of possibilities
There's no land but the land

looked at my hands, and there's a red stream
that went streaming through the sands like fingers,
like arteries, like fingers
(how much fits between the eyes of a horse?)
He lay, pressing it against his throat (your eyes)
He opened his throat (your eyes)
His vocal chords started shooting like (of a horse) mad pituitary glands
The scream he made (and my heart) was so high (my heart) pitched that nobody heard,
No one heard that cry,
No one heard (Johnny) the butterfly flapping in his throat,
(His fingers)
Nobody heard, he was on that bed, it was like a sea of jelly,
And so he seized the first
(his vocal chords shot up)
(possibility)
(like mad pituitary glands)
It was a black tube, he felt himself disintegrate
(there is nothing happening at all)
and go inside the black tube, so when he looked out into the steep
saw this sweet young thing (Fender one)
Humping on the parking meter, leaning on the parking meter

In the sheets
there was a man
dancing around
to the simple
Rock & roll
song

 

[Etoile]

I don't get this idea that someone who doesn't have female reproductive organs can be more "feminine"? Isn't part of being feminine coping with all the stuff (good and bad) that comes along with being a woman? Doesn't dealing with menstruation, threat of pregnancy, pregnancy itself, hormonal imbalances, female puberty, menopause, etc all part of what goes into the character of a woman? If I were a woman, I'd be insulted by a statement that shemales are more feminine. Isn't womanhood more than just "feeling" like a girl on the inside? It sounds more like a chauvinist attitude that if a girl ACTS like a guy wants her to act, then she is more feminine which is a very shallow way of judging people.

Interesting that a gay man has come up with this - it's the same party line preached by the Michigan Womyn's Music Festival.

Personally, I don't care if someone with a prostate is more feminine than me. For one thing, I'm secure enough in my own female-ness that I don't need to be "more femme than thou" - I know I'm a girl. If somebody else is MORE of a girl, that's their business. Anyone who is threatened by the femininity of a t-girl has a lot of self-explaining to do...that is, she needs to examine why she feels un-feminine and why she WANTS to feel more feminine. There's really no reason to be intimidated at all.

As for "more than just feeling" and menstruation, blah blah - nope. That's just one way to be a woman. Another way to be a woman is to grow up longing to play with dolls and wear dresses, and suffer in pants playing with trucks. My path, which includes ovaries, is the more common one, but it's not necessarily the only one, or the right one. What matters is the woman you grow up to be, not HOW you grew up to be her. I know transwomen who are every bit as "woman" as I am, even though they grew up with dicks attached. It doesn't insult my woman-ness a bit that their path was different.

 

[emap]

You know gorgeous we should maybe make a new thread with what I am about to say in and make it a sticky. I say it every couple of months it seems.

Are you gay for liking a transwoman until you found out she was born a man? No, liking someone because of how they act and what they look like makes you human and alive.

Running away after finding out she has a dick makes you well chicken actually. You listened to what others have to say, not what you wanted to say, you liked her you probably were thinking about taking her back to your place and fucking her. She probably was thinking the same thing and told you she was born a man because her next question was going to be want to go someplace private.

Sexuality fluxuates through life, sometimes wildly, sometimes not. You can want to find a hunky man to take you back to his place for hot gay sex and the next day think of nothing but finding a hot woman for hot straight sex.

I personally am in the middle though closer to straight than gay, I like women, I like looking at women, I want to sleep with women, but a hunky guy with or without clothes gets me wetter than the hottest woman would.

My own personal quirk, if Megan Fox and Vin Diesel were nude and asking me to join one of them for hot passionate sex, I would pick Vin. I think Megan is uber hot and would really like to have sex with her, I want a man more.

I could swing the other way tomorrow and think men are OK but drool over women. Not likely to happen that fast but possible, more likely that over a period of years to decades your taste in sexual partners alters.

My guy for example, when he was a teenager he wanted a blonde, he started liking brunettes in his early 20's which transferred to redheads later on. Where I come in luckily, later in his life he may wish to have a blonde again, he may want black hair, he does like asian women so probably eventually. It is possible that in another 20 years he will like men in that way, hopefully I'll be with him still so I can watch.

 

[none2_none2]

Interesting that a gay man has come up with this - it's the same party line preached by the Michigan Womyn's Music Festival.

Personally, I don't care if someone with a prostate is more feminine than me. For one thing, I'm secure enough in my own female-ness that I don't need to be "more femme than thou" - I know I'm a girl. If somebody else is MORE of a girl, that's their business. Anyone who is threatened by the femininity of a t-girl has a lot of self-explaining to do...that is, she needs to examine why she feels un-feminine and why she WANTS to feel more feminine. There's really no reason to be intimidated at all.

As for "more than just feeling" and menstruation, blah blah - nope. That's just one way to be a woman. Another way to be a woman is to grow up longing to play with dolls and wear dresses, and suffer in pants playing with trucks. My path, which includes ovaries, is the more common one, but it's not necessarily the only one, or the right one. What matters is the woman you grow up to be, not HOW you grew up to be her. I know transwomen who are every bit as "woman" as I am, even though they grew up with dicks attached. It doesn't insult my woman-ness a bit that their path was different.

I think part of the reason that I think these things is that I came from a household of women. My grandmother raised me. The history of our family has been primarily female -- not due to lesbianism but simply to the lesser longevity of men's live spans and in the case of my dad -- divorce and absenteeism.

What bothered me about his comment was it seemed rather arrogant. People, male or female, sometimes become what they are out of necessity. As a male in a female household, sure I had dolls. My grandma didn't take me out hunting, show me how to fix the car, how to work on plumbing and electrical issues. That stuff is still not my forte -- on the other hand, I did build my own computer and love technical topics. My grandpa was sick for his last few years, & died when I was 7 --grandma was 63. While my mother was only 32, she was bi-polar which only got worse as she got older. My grandmother had to be tough at times to keep us all together.

She didn't have time to be some 24/7 demure creature. Sure she loved to cook, sew, garden, etc. We couldn't keep a washer because the only place for one (the back porch) wasn't insulated. So she washed by hand and hung the clothes out on the line. She also swept and vacuumed. I don't think she loved that part of housekeeping, but she did it. She wasn't into lipstick & perfume, but she did use a pencil to darken her gray eyebrows and would dye her hair to hide the gray. She also loved ear rings, rings, and bracelets. I bet she would have LOVED to have taken a bubble bath, but she never had that kind of spare time. Feminine was her nature as I have old films when I was a baby and grandpa was healthy. She and my mother loved getting all dressed up to go to church - including the old days of wearing hats. I'm simply saying that the life events that followed changed what she had to do. Don't get me wrong, she LOVED and ENJOYED life. I'm sure if grandpa could have come back from the dead, she would have immediately dropped all the "butch" stuff she had to do as head of household.

As to the organs, I have to confess I'm not in your shoes. I would still think that the extra plumbing that comes with biological females has an affect on behavior. I cannot imagine being very feminine at the moment if I had cramps, or headaches. If I were a straight woman, I would also have to remember if I took the pill or was worried that I might get pregnant. Trust me, of the hundreds of men I have been with, I don't recall one every declining sex because they had a headache. I would be more inclined to think that a t-girl would be more like a man in that attitude. Now granted in gay sex, anal sex for the bottom isn't usually on the menu if the guy feels sore, or has other problems at the moment down there that I won't go into. However, as moody as a guy can be (yes guys can get moody), sex usually is something that makes him happier. You simply have to avoid anal penetration at those times. I've never heard a story where a woman said she had a headache and needed an orgasm to feel better.

 

[Etoile]

As to the organs, I have to confess I'm not in your shoes. I would still think that the extra plumbing that comes with biological females has an affect on behavior. I cannot imagine being very feminine at the moment if I had cramps, or headaches. If I were a straight woman, I would also have to remember if I took the pill or was worried that I might get pregnant. Trust me, of the hundreds of men I have been with, I don't recall one every declining sex because they had a headache. I would be more inclined to think that a t-girl would be more like a man in that attitude. Now granted in gay sex, anal sex for the bottom isn't usually on the menu if the guy feels sore, or has other problems at the moment down there that I won't go into. However, as moody as a guy can be (yes guys can get moody), sex usually is something that makes him happier. You simply have to avoid anal penetration at those times. I've never heard a story where a woman said she had a headache and needed an orgasm to feel better.

To use your examples, I shouldn't be a woman. I don't get a period, by choice. That means no cramps. Also, as a lesbian, I don't worry about birth control or getting pregnant. So using those examples, I'm not a woman. Or perhaps I'm "more like a man" in that way?

And no offense, but you're making a wild assumption when you imply that women don't use sex to feel happier. Men are not the only ones who enjoy sex. Having sex is not always a duty for women. You're making a lot of unfounded assumptions about female sexuality here.

As for women needing an orgasm to alleviate a headache, it's simple biology. Many women just don't know it. The redirection of blood flow CAN make a headache feel better. Citations: 1, 2, 3. (And let's be honest here, the cliché of "not tonight honey, I have a headache" is an EXCUSE, not a reason.)

 

[Stella_Omega]

I don't get this idea that someone who doesn't have female reproductive organs can be more "feminine"? Isn't part of being feminine coping with all the stuff (good and bad) that comes along with being a woman? Doesn't dealing with menstruation, threat of pregnancy, pregnancy itself, hormonal imbalances, female puberty, menopause, etc all part of what goes into the character of a woman? If I were a woman, I'd be insulted by a statement that shemales are more feminine. Isn't womanhood more than just "feeling" like a girl on the inside? It sounds more like a chauvinist attitude that if a girl ACTS like a guy wants her to act, then she is more feminine which is a very shallow way of judging people.

From wikipedia;
Femininity (also called womanliness) refers to qualities and behaviors judged by a particular culture to be ideally associated with or especially appropriate to women and girls.

Distinct from femaleness, which is a biological and physiological classification concerned with the reproductive system, femininity principally refers to secondary sex characteristics and other behaviors and features generally regarded as being more prevalent and better suited to women, whether inborn or socialized. In traditional Western culture, such features include gentleness, patience, and kindness.


So, "feminine" is a method of expression. And in fact it's exactly "acting the way a man wants her to act." Feminine has been defined by men's preferences. Everyone likes to dress up-- women have a pattern for dressing up that equals attracting men.

"Female" is the body's sex. I am female but not feminine. I love to dress up-- in black jeans, Doc martins and a tux jacket. My favorite way to look is not about attracting men, but its still the same dress-up impulse.

You've never read that story because you've never read the stories that women write for themselves.

I think part of the reason that I think these things is that I came from a household of women. My grandmother raised me. The history of our family has been primarily female -- not due to lesbianism but simply to the lesser longevity of men's live spans and in the case of my dad -- divorce and absenteeism.

It's astounding to me, really, that you disrespect and disregard the innate strengths of women the way you do, just saying.

 

[none2_none2]

From wikipedia;
Femininity (also called womanliness) refers to qualities and behaviors judged by a particular culture to be ideally associated with or especially appropriate to women and girls.

Distinct from femaleness, which is a biological and physiological classification concerned with the reproductive system, femininity principally refers to secondary sex characteristics and other behaviors and features generally regarded as being more prevalent and better suited to women, whether inborn or socialized. In traditional Western culture, such features include gentleness, patience, and kindness.


So, "feminine" is a method of expression. And in fact it's exactly "acting the way a man wants her to act." Feminine has been defined by men's preferences. Everyone likes to dress up-- women have a pattern for dressing up that equals attracting men.

"Female" is the body's sex. I am female but not feminine. I love to dress up-- in black jeans, Doc martins and a tux jacket. My favorite way to look is not about attracting men, but its still the same dress-up impulse.

ok, if that is the way you want to define feminity [feminine: acting the way a man wants a woman to act], then I guess we are in agreement. By that definition, yes a T-girl could be more feminine because that individual is acting on the whims of what a straight male wants. I guess one could put it in the same category as some straight men who find brides in mail order catalogs (ie from Asia) because they cannot handle American women that tend to want to be equals.

You've never read that story because you've never read the stories that women write for themselves.It's astounding to me, really, that you disrespect and disregard the innate strengths of women the way you do, just saying.

Now that I don't follow at all. For instance, in my 50 years, I think I have only used the "b" word once because I always considered it on the same level as the "n" word. Likewise, while I tend to be a loner, when I do socialize outside the gay male world (which is rather rare anymore), it tends to be with females.

 

[none2_none2]

To use your examples, I shouldn't be a woman. I don't get a period, by choice. That means no cramps. Also, as a lesbian, I don't worry about birth control or getting pregnant. So using those examples, I'm not a woman. Or perhaps I'm "more like a man" in that way?

I guess I figured that short of menapause or something like ovarian cancer or male hormone injections that some gender benders ( those identified as transmen or those that don't quite go that far), that this was a typical experience for the female reproductive system. I knew that perhaps with birth control methods the cycles could be less frequent than the traditional once a month, but that it was something you could not completely eliminate indefinitely.

And no offense, but you're making a wild assumption when you imply that women don't use sex to feel happier. Men are not the only ones who enjoy sex. Having sex is not always a duty for women. You're making a lot of unfounded assumptions about female sexuality here.

As for women needing an orgasm to alleviate a headache, it's simple biology. Many women just don't know it. The redirection of blood flow CAN make a headache feel better. Citations: 1, 2, 3. (And let's be honest here, the cliché of "not tonight honey, I have a headache" is an EXCUSE, not a reason.)

Again, my experiences are somewhat limited. First of all note that the only person in the family that new I was gay, was my dad and not until about 10 years ago. (Long story.) I mention that so that you understand that they didn't think they were discussing sex with a homosexual... I was raised on my mother's side, where sex was kind of taboo to talk about. My paternal grandmother didnt' raise me, but she loved to talk about everything. She had long term live-in boyfriends up until the last one died in her 90's. However, her discussions about sex were more of the nature that women's power was in the fact that men have to have sex and if they didn't get it it lead to psychological damage. So while she never talked about her own sex life, the best description of how she viewed female sexuality was more along the lines of Florence Nightengale -- an act of mercy for men. Her view of homosexuality was that it happened to men who had overbearing mother figures and/or men who encountered women who wouldn't go that extra mile to make a man feel like he was a stud. She believed a woman should be enthusiastic about sex -- not for her own sake, but the sake of her husband/boyfriend and keeping the family together. While that sounds so old fashion, I can see where she came to that conclusion. (Long story.)

My paternal grandmother's daughter (Dad's sister/ my aunt) in her later years would pay younger men to have sex with her (providing pot -- not money). My grandmother didn't see this as my aunt enjoying sex as much as loneliness and need for attention.

I also have other female relatives that were sexually abused by men (with the blind eye of a female relative) at an early age. I won't go into gory details. While they did grow up, marry, and have kids, the profound impact that it made on their lives was still that sex could be used as a very abusive force.

Then there was my dad with all his hookers he would bring home while I was in jr high. (My step-mom had divorced him.) Some people have the mistaken attitude that hookers are sexually liberated individuals. However, from my experiences of talking to them when he wasn't around, it wasn't so much the case that they loved sex-- rather they had to do to get paid. When you have to make money to go to high school, college, or to feed a family, or just pay the rent or food bills, I would think orgasm really isn't considered an occupational benefit.

So as you can tell, my understanding of female sexuality wasn'the limited to nuns in a convent, but neither did it consist of regular Jane Doe's who were neither puritans nor a sex addicts or a sex workers.

 

[lightsaver]

I have been reAding a few stories here & find myself turned on to the ones about shemales..im divoceed and have a couple o kids...last year i met a shemale in Panama in a night club...she was quite buetiful and very nice to talk to, i had a few drinks with her and was attracted to her. Before i found out she was trans/g.

I made exuses and left her company...now i cant stop thinking aout her & probably regret not taking it further, i done some reasearch and have read literature here...and if i get the chance again i am sure i would go further.

How would i go about finding a similar shemale in Scotland, as i live in a small town. as i dont think i can wait till i return to centro america next year.

Ps. i still date other girls..but my mind keeps goig back to that night.


is there something wrong with me.










































Am i gay

Is something wrong with you and are you gay?
Depends....is there something wrong with being gay, la, la, la?
I think there is something slightly monotonous about that long gap in between your last two sentences....

How do you define the term, "gay" is something you have to comprehend and ACCEPT within yourself.

Why did you come to this forum? For the stories?
The alternative 'ambience'? Do people who are completely straight (not that I have a definition for that) come to sites such as these?

A final note,
As for the people in this thread who made the thread all about them instead of answering you - that is a gay trait.

*yes, that is my attempt at humour*

 

[chiricano]

whaaaa u guys & girls are way above me, maybe i worded the question wrong, I think im probably sexually curious after 18years in a marriage that was going nowhere now im free, and in the past few years have been enjoying the things i had been missing..like chatting up women and generally having a good time.

but to get back to shemales i will look that lovely girl up on my next trip, and take it further if im lucky..i was attracted to her , maybe feminine was the wrong word, what i probably meant was that she was beautiful, a real Shakira look alike with a lovely latino ass.

No way would i want to suck her cock or let her fuck my ass, but would make love to her like i would Shakira.
Ived shagged a few girls anally before and enjoyed it.
but think she was into me to fuck her not her to fuck me..maybe i mean she was a submisive shemale

i didnt know shemales were into fucking guys!

Im new to this forum and not as literate or experienced as you guys, but thanks for all your replies.

and when it does happen i will let you all know...maybe turn it into a story..ha ha

Merry xmas to you all

 

[Etoile]

A final note,
As for the people in this thread who made the thread all about them instead of answering you - that is a gay trait.

*yes, that is my attempt at humour*

It didn't work, I'm afraid.

 

[lightsaver]

It didn't work, I'm afraid.

Si, no bueno.

I got some grreat veggie pizza though! Help yourself!

I'll laugh either way.

 

[Etoile]

OH GOD I want pizza. For some reason the 20" of unplowed snow on my street has made me want pizza. I think just because I would never ask somebody to try to drive here to bring it to me...knowing that I can't call up a pizza when I want it makes me want it even more.

(Okay, admittedly this is WAY off-topic. But hey, welcome to Lit?!)

 

[modius13]

So, "feminine" is a method of expression. And in fact it's exactly "acting the way a man wants her to act." Feminine has been defined by men's preferences. Everyone likes to dress up-- women have a pattern for dressing up that equals attracting men.

"Female" is the body's sex. I am female but not feminine. I love to dress up-- in black jeans, Doc martins and a tux jacket. My favorite way to look is not about attracting men, but its still the same dress-up impulse.

Well, I guess that makes me all sorts of confusing... I'm a relatively new t-girl. I love dressing up. Anything from super girly to jeans and a tank top. I'm attracted to girls more than guys (though I do know a couple guys I wouldn't mind snogging if wasn't so shy). I will, with much glee, break out the chaps and leather jacket and welding mask and play with the mig welder at school. I also sew.

 

[Stella_Omega]

Well, I guess that makes me all sorts of confusing... I'm a relatively new t-girl. I love dressing up. Anything from super girly to jeans and a tank top. I'm attracted to girls more than guys (though I do know a couple guys I wouldn't mind snogging if wasn't so shy). I will, with much glee, break out the chaps and leather jacket and welding mask and play with the mig welder at school. I also sew.

Not confusing at all-- multidimensional. it's a very, very good thing!

 

[lightsaver]

OH GOD I want pizza. For some reason the 20" of unplowed snow on my street has made me want pizza. I think just because I would never ask somebody to try to drive here to bring it to me...knowing that I can't call up a pizza when I want it makes me want it even more.

(Okay, admittedly this is WAY off-topic. But hey, welcome to Lit?!)

True its a lot to ask but again, true = makes you want it even more!
You make perfect sense to me. Although......
I do consider veggie pizza a bonafide food group and may be biased in my opionion.

Wah-hoo!

Stay warm and thank you for the welcome!

(what's your fave veggie combo for pizza? = my idea of a great thread!)

 

[sarawithacock]

On the topic of femininity...acting feminine...well as a gay woman who was born transgendered I'm not all that interested in doing anything to attract men. And the only acting I've ever done happened when I was trying to be a someone I wasn't...when testosterone was numbing my mind and body.

The true definition of trying to be the person you really are (as in what is most natural and unaffected and true) is quite the opposite of trying to be what someone else thinks you should be.

Being born transgendered is as a biological as hair color, eye color, skin color..and just as varied and unique. I know that nurture, how we grow up and our experiences as children have a significant effect on who we are as individuals...but I am a gay, transgendered woman because of how I developed in the womb....and I am frequently too hard and judgmental of myself because my Dad was a controlling, emotionally manipulative person. Heck my sister got the worst of it and she grew up all straight and "normal".

Like most people in the world, trans girls and guys can get caught up in trying to be accepted...to be included...to be normal. To some extent there is nothing wrong with that...but then again what the fuck is normal? We all find our way however we are born and it could take a life time for some to know them selves or to accept themselves.

I've often felt blessed to have been forced to dig through all the bullshit and find out who truly I am. And it's not just a feeling...like a whim passing on the breeze...it's reality of complex emotions, thoughts and physical facts.

forever and ever, amen.