Can't Cheat On Wife But Dying Inside

[warner34]

No worries, this really does belong here.

I'm a married 30ish manly man that has developed an appetite for T-girls. Initially a friend gave me a Transformation Magazine as a joke, but guess what.....jokes on him I thought. It REALLY turned me on!

So I joined a PPV site and began my three year trek to current. I spent hours and hours searching, downloading, and burning TS/TV porn to include erotic stories from this awsome site.

By now I can name which girl stars in what movie and what kind of cock another girl has. I have my favs like everyone else but they all do it to me. Is that sad? I just can't help myself.

I've read story after story of guys confessing how they experience their first time married or not. My problem is I love my wife so much that i can never bring myself to cheat on her. Although her love fills me I'm still dying inside. It kills me to never feel what it feels like to have a beautiful woman with a cock.

Are there any other people, male or female, who have remained faithful despite their sexual urges? Please be honest.

 

[Bystander]

well I can't help much except to say I applaud you for remaining faithful. I was in a similar situation and went ahead and satisfied my desires for what I hope remains a one time encounter. I felt pretty bad afterwards for a week or so but I did get over it.

Its a pretty bad situation to be stuck in though and I do understand. It's not your wife's fault because she obviously thought she was marrying a straight guy, but it's not your fault either because feelings are biological reactions we have little control over.

 

[warner34]

Thanks

well I can't help much except to say I applaud you for remaining faithful. I was in a similar situation and went ahead and satisfied my desires for what I hope remains a one time encounter. I felt pretty bad afterwards for a week or so but I did get over it.

Its a pretty bad situation to be stuck in though and I do understand. It's not your wife's fault because she obviously thought she was marrying a straight guy, but it's not your fault either because feelings are biological reactions we have little control over.

Thanks for your story and your insite. It really does help to hear it and really does make me feel better.

Was it an easy decision to make? How did you come about it?

 

[Bystander]

Thanks for your story and your insite. It really does help to hear it and really does make me feel better.

Was it an easy decision to make? How did you come about it?

Nope not easy at all. I had been thinking about it/putting it off for atleast 2 years or so, looking through ads and such online. I finally promised myself to do it once and get it over with. It's hard to explain. It just sorta clicked one day that I was going to do it and I did.

It's really something that you'll end up deciding if you want to do or not. There are risks associated with it and you'll need to decide if it's worth it.

Sorry that was probably not very helpful.

 

[sunandshadow]

Maybe you could get your wife to wear a strap-on, but I don't know whether that would be satisfying to you or not.

 

[Queen Jane]

I take it this isn't a desire that your wife would understand if you told her? Is there a possibility that she'd accept it? Maybe if you were honest with her, she'd be cool with you exploring it further.

I was turned on when my fiancee told me he was bi...

 

[warner34]

SunandShadow / Queen Jane - I have told her that I'd like to try it one day. She merely said "that's interesting". Everytime since when I've brought it up she changes the subject. Recently she expressed her desire to use her Dildo on me. I guess that's something right?

I guess another reason I haven't pushed too much with her is that I don't to share her with anyone. Greedy I know, but that's another reason why.

Bystander - still very helpful. Your insight is valued.

 

[mercada]

Man I am in the same boat as you. I even tried to work around it and mentioned the strap on thing to my wife. she pretty much thought that was disgusting and that was that. Actually she is not adventurous at all. Just plain vanilla sex missionary style.

I'm going crazy over here myself and have no idea what to do anymore.

 

[warner34]

Mercada - Sorry to hear that your wife is not very open. Sounds like your communicating openly though. A few years back I used to leave some porn on the computer so she could see it. Both vids and stories. After a while she asked about them and I answered honestly. I know she secretly looked at them when I wasn't around cause she started with dirty talk during sex. Now a days we share out fantasies as long as everything is between the two of us.

I don't know if that helps but it may be worth a try. I mean let's face it porn get you hot. Doesn't matter who you are. The less exposed to it you are the more it affects you.

It's also the perfect getaway from your real life. Trust me, I know.