Helpless

[alexhidel]

Just recently discovered the BDSM type stuff with a new girlfriend. Nothing big really, just some bondage, but found that feeling vulnerable can be a turn on. She's found a few of my week points and we've been exploring that. Like when she found out that I feel vulnerable and exposed without socks, she started making me go barefoot. And then we got into tying each other up.

Here recently she found something else to exploit. I tripped on throw rug in her living room one night when we were messing around. My glasses were knocked off and landed...somewhere. I'm more or less blind without them. Just a blur of shapeless colors. When this happens I don't just feel vulnerable, I feel helpless. Being so dependent on my glasses, losing them is a very, very scary. Unable to see where they landed, I start crawling around, feeling for them with my hands. At which point she says "Oh, I was wondering how much you can see without your glasses." When my hand finally brushes against them, she knocked them away. Now had that happened with anyone but her, I would have freaked. But I didn't. Even being tied up I had never felt so helpless and at her mercy. Not to mention much more intimate. I never thought I could get turned on by something I had been afraid of. Kind of like a blind fold that I couldn't take off. Don't know if others have gotten into something like that with their g/f or b/f.

 

[myinnerslut]

i am pretty horribly blind without my glasses. like you, i felt vulnerable and helpless without them, freaked out when i didnt have them on, and very guarded about when i chose to take them off.

the first day i met my Master, we went to my room where he began brushing my hair. my glasses were getting in the way of the brush. without a second thought i removed them and laid them on the bed beside him.

he knew how reliant i was (am) on them, and we both recognized it as a big sign of trust.

 

[alexhidel]

Cool, someone who can relate! Does he ever take them from you or do you pretend you have lost them, or maybe lost them for real? I don't think I would get the same feeling if I knew where mine were or could get to them.

 

[Homburg]

I saw them laid on the bed and was immediately struck by it. It was a powerful, if subtle, moment.

 

[Etoile]

Mini-hijack: MIS, I just saw your "red hot penis power" link in your sig. Oh my lord that was some good stuff!

 

[ImOnIt]

oh my god, i snorted. she is talking mad shit lol, or i have no idea what shes saying.

'a mouth full of sperm and a rectum full of sperm, but wont buy me a $3 plate of shrimp'

 

[myinnerslut]

yeah, its good stuff. i was just considering taking it out of my sig though. its been there for a while

to the OP: if i lost my glasses i would freak out. complete and total break down, as i am truly non-functioning without them. Master has had me lay in bed and take them off though. i believe he was trying to get me to be less reliant on them. i instantly felt vulnerable, as well as nervous. scared to be so helpless. im terrified of going blind, which with my eyesight seemed a possibility for a while.

 

[Etoile]

yeah, its good stuff. i was just considering taking it out of my sig though. its been there for a while

Glad I caught it then. The wife is listening to it now. She keeps giving me The Look. Wide-eyed terror, that is.

 

[myinnerslut]

Glad I caught it then. The wife is listening to it now. She keeps giving me The Look. Wide-eyed terror, that is.

Master and i watched it at the same time, and neither of us could stop laughing. thats how the sig line evolved in the first place

 

[alexhidel]

to the OP: if i lost my glasses i would freak out. complete and total break down, as i am truly non-functioning without them. Master has had me lay in bed and take them off though. i believe he was trying to get me to be less reliant on them. i instantly felt vulnerable, as well as nervous. scared to be so helpless.

Losing mine is one of my biggest fears. The sinking feeling the second you realize they are gone, the panic while trying to find them, the fear of not being able to find them or worse, find them broken. Really I don't know whats scarier, losing my glasses or having them taken from me, knowing that the person who has them has so easily rendered me helpless. I think my mistress likes to watch me struggle to find them and hear me plead to get them back.

 

[graceanne]

yeah, its good stuff. i was just considering taking it out of my sig though. its been there for a while

to the OP: if i lost my glasses i would freak out. complete and total break down, as i am truly non-functioning without them. Master has had me lay in bed and take them off though. i believe he was trying to get me to be less reliant on them. i instantly felt vulnerable, as well as nervous. scared to be so helpless. im terrified of going blind, which with my eyesight seemed a possibility for a while.

I routinely misplace mine. It's less of an issue now that the kids are old enough to help me look for them, but when no one can find them I'm pretty much crippled the rest of the day. I have to sit on the couch and wait for someone to find them. It's very frustrating, and I, too, feel very vulnerable. I can't even go to the car without them. I've never realized, but it's a sign of my trust in K that I routinely remove them for sex. I can't see my feet without them, and my crappy depth perception is even worse (I walk into walls and stuff) without them because I have a lazy eye.

One of the things that keeps me from totally freaking out is when I was a little girl I used to blindfold myself and pretend I was blind, then practice doing stuff without sight. I can do a lot of different things without being able to see. I can find specific clothes by how they feel, I actually do dishes better without my glasses because I'm relying on my touch and not my eyes (which don't work well even with the glasses). If I'm careful I can move around the house, etc.

 

[MisterSir]

Misplaced mine this morning, I couldn't remember what I did with them last night and I can safely say I haven't panicked like that in years. I can just about get around the house without them by using my hands, but since everything's a blur (i.e. see the ribbon in gracie's signature? I have my computer on my lap, I'm less than two feet away from it, and without my glasses it's a splodge of yellow) it's far from an easy life.

On a note related only in that it's about the eyes, the last time I was at the opticians I was told that this age (early twenties) is the general age at which a person's eyes stop getting worse, and there's no danger of it deteriorating naturally until I went blind. Any of that correlate with your experience?

 

[satindesire]

Don't mind my hijack, I just wanted to say that when Mister brushes my hair, it's the most wonderfullest cuddliest feeling in the whole world.

 

[Homburg]

Misplaced mine this morning, I couldn't remember what I did with them last night and I can safely say I haven't panicked like that in years. I can just about get around the house without them by using my hands, but since everything's a blur (i.e. see the ribbon in gracie's signature? I have my computer on my lap, I'm less than two feet away from it, and without my glasses it's a splodge of yellow) it's far from an easy life.

On a note related only in that it's about the eyes, the last time I was at the opticians I was told that this age (early twenties) is the general age at which a person's eyes stop getting worse, and there's no danger of it deteriorating naturally until I went blind. Any of that correlate with your experience?

With mine, yes. My eyes have largely stabilised. I regularly go years between check-ups. They have gotten somewhat worse, and will continue to as I age (this is normal), but it was not the rapid decline I had from 10-20.

My astigmatism has gotten worse, and my last pair of glasses wasn't set right to account for that. But it was the first time it needed to be dealt with, and I don't think I answered the right questions.

Regardless, your eyes do tend to get worse as you get older, but it is generally not until you hit your 40's or so.

 

[Cattypuss]

On a note related only in that it's about the eyes, the last time I was at the opticians I was told that this age (early twenties) is the general age at which a person's eyes stop getting worse, and there's no danger of it deteriorating naturally until I went blind. Any of that correlate with your experience?

My short-sightedness was getting worse so rapidly in my mid-teens that I was geting a new prescription every three months or so. Scary times.

I am VERY short-sighted, but my eyes are pretty much the same now (at 41) as they were when I was 20-ish.

I wear those contact lenses that you wear 24/7 for a month and then throw away and replace. I've been wearing them for several years now and the novelty of waking up in the morning and being able to SEE still hasn't worn off lol.

It's like my own private little daily miracle

 

[graceanne]

Misplaced mine this morning, I couldn't remember what I did with them last night and I can safely say I haven't panicked like that in years. I can just about get around the house without them by using my hands, but since everything's a blur (i.e. see the ribbon in gracie's signature? I have my computer on my lap, I'm less than two feet away from it, and without my glasses it's a splodge of yellow) it's far from an easy life.

On a note related only in that it's about the eyes, the last time I was at the opticians I was told that this age (early twenties) is the general age at which a person's eyes stop getting worse, and there's no danger of it deteriorating naturally until I went blind. Any of that correlate with your experience?

My doctors have been saying this for years. And they keep getting worse.

I can say that K and my sisters eyes stopped getting drastically worse in their twenties.

 

[alexhidel]

I routinely misplace mine. It's less of an issue now that the kids are old enough to help me look for them, but when no one can find them I'm pretty much crippled the rest of the day. I have to sit on the couch and wait for someone to find them. It's very frustrating, and I, too, feel very vulnerable. I can't even go to the car without them. I've never realized, but it's a sign of my trust in K that I routinely remove them for sex. I can't see my feet without them, and my crappy depth perception is even worse (I walk into walls and stuff) without them because I have a lazy eye.

One of the things that keeps me from totally freaking out is when I was a little girl I used to blindfold myself and pretend I was blind, then practice doing stuff without sight. I can do a lot of different things without being able to see. I can find specific clothes by how they feel, I actually do dishes better without my glasses because I'm relying on my touch and not my eyes (which don't work well even with the glasses). If I'm careful I can move around the house, etc.

That was something I didn't do as a kid. My fear of not being able to see was too strong to do that. When I was young I could identify with the chick on Scooby Doo because I was just like her without my glasses. Or that Lord of The Flies movie where the mean kid takes away that one kid's glasses. I actually had nightmares about something like that happening to me. Scenes like that in movies scare me more than any kind of horror flick.

I'd say I leave my glasses on during sex about half the time. Sometimes it's nice to see her face while we're going at it but it does break my concentration if they get knocked off.

Still kind of puzzles me how something that has scared me for as long as I can remember now has a kind of erotic pull.