VelvetDarkness
Polysyllable Whore x
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Master was telling me some of his more depraved fantasies last night. Things escalated as we tried to out-squick each other and Master joked that one day he'd have me eat his shit just to teach me a lesson.
"Thank goodness I trust you not to do that." I said.
"So you think you've got limits now?" He replies.
"Well I know I could never eat your shit. You couldn't make me do it."
"But if you have ceded your limits to me, you don't get to make those decisions. You should be able to say 'I would do anything Master' and trust that I wouldn't make you eat my shit."
"But if I know I could never do it, to say 'I would do anything' and hope that I only get asked to do things that I would have consented to anyway, makes the whole thing meaningless."
"Exactly. You have given yourself to me. There are no half measures. If I set scat as a task for you, you as my property are bound to obey."
"I know I simply couldn't do it. That is the one salient truth to me. To say 'I would do anything' when I know without question that some things are physically and/or mentally beyond me as a slave just feels stupid."
Cue a circular discussion that we haven't resolved yet.
I have a strong faith in my TPE slavery and this flippant discussion has unsettled me and made me question exactly how far my submission goes. There are still some things that I simply couldn't do but I never really considered before quite how far Master could move the goalposts if he wanted to. I don't see the point of saying that my slavery is total when I know that there are still some things that I would have to refuse to do. When I point out to Master that some things would damage me psychologically if I were forced to do them he says that isn't the point. I think it is. I think it falls under his duty of maintenance of his slave and concern for my basic welfare. He insists that this is a completely separate issue. Either I am his property to use however he wishes or I am not.
Incidentally, eating shit was just a handy hypothetical here. It's not a relevant or prescient issue and I still believe that Master has no interest whatsoever in any form of scat.
Thoughts?
P.S. Can I please just head off the 'what if he asked you to kill someone?' comments before they start? I am talking purely in terms of personal service to my Master. If he ever asked me to do something that fell completely outside my moral code I would refuse. I'm a decent human being, not an automaton.
"Thank goodness I trust you not to do that." I said.
"So you think you've got limits now?" He replies.
"Well I know I could never eat your shit. You couldn't make me do it."
"But if you have ceded your limits to me, you don't get to make those decisions. You should be able to say 'I would do anything Master' and trust that I wouldn't make you eat my shit."
"But if I know I could never do it, to say 'I would do anything' and hope that I only get asked to do things that I would have consented to anyway, makes the whole thing meaningless."
"Exactly. You have given yourself to me. There are no half measures. If I set scat as a task for you, you as my property are bound to obey."
"I know I simply couldn't do it. That is the one salient truth to me. To say 'I would do anything' when I know without question that some things are physically and/or mentally beyond me as a slave just feels stupid."
Cue a circular discussion that we haven't resolved yet.
I have a strong faith in my TPE slavery and this flippant discussion has unsettled me and made me question exactly how far my submission goes. There are still some things that I simply couldn't do but I never really considered before quite how far Master could move the goalposts if he wanted to. I don't see the point of saying that my slavery is total when I know that there are still some things that I would have to refuse to do. When I point out to Master that some things would damage me psychologically if I were forced to do them he says that isn't the point. I think it is. I think it falls under his duty of maintenance of his slave and concern for my basic welfare. He insists that this is a completely separate issue. Either I am his property to use however he wishes or I am not.
Incidentally, eating shit was just a handy hypothetical here. It's not a relevant or prescient issue and I still believe that Master has no interest whatsoever in any form of scat.
Thoughts?
P.S. Can I please just head off the 'what if he asked you to kill someone?' comments before they start? I am talking purely in terms of personal service to my Master. If he ever asked me to do something that fell completely outside my moral code I would refuse. I'm a decent human being, not an automaton.
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