Leahaven

[NancyPan]

I am following with interest, my interest being primarily Robbie’s plight, because of course I identify with him. However, I am reluctant to comment because I know the narrative you are conveying is about 3-4 weeks in the past. Very curious about the present!

 

[whenagain]

I have put links on every post for the Date-with-Alex posts directing the reader to the next post. I know it must be very difficult to keep track of what is happening with so many posts in between. I hope it helps.

You’re so good to us thirsty readers.

 

[LeaHaven]

I am following with interest, my interest being primarily Robbie’s plight, because of course I identify with him. However, I am reluctant to comment because I know the narrative you are conveying is about 3-4 weeks in the past. Very curious about the present!

Hello NancyPan. Hello Everyone.

I am not going to try to keep this thread up to date anymore. Doing so is a job, and I don't need another job. I'm already working over 50 hours a week, and I have two guys living with me in this household. The only way I can find enough private time to write a post is to get up really early in the mornings. But that is costing me too much lost sleep. Also, the quick updates do not give an accurate picture and cause too many people to see things that aren't there...like the idea that Travis was running my household or I was not considering Robbie's well-being. And then I spend more time trying to explain what I didn't explain in the original posts. As they say in the business world, "There's never time to do it right, but there's always time to do it again."

There is so much I want to share. I love your feedback and comments and suggestions, they are invaluable to me, but there is only so much time in the day, and my life has gotten very busy. It's so ironic. When I joined Literotica, Robbie was the only guy in my life, and we were hardly talking to each other. I had all the time in the world to participate in these forums back then. But because of that participation and reading and learning in these forums, now my life is too busy to participate in the very forums I've come to love.

From now on, I will write when I can, and I will make that writing as informative and enjoyable as possible. I hope you can understand.

 

[SlutAddicted]

Too many compliments?

Hmm...I didn't notice anything

I love it when a dominant woman soaks up the compliments secure in the knowledge that they are all her due, especially from a submissive man. To be obsequious to a dominant woman is a pleasure and a privilege. To spoil her in every way she enjoys is the submissive man's raison d'être.

 

[9to5]

I will miss you but I do understand how busy life can be with the boys and work. you need to enjoy that first.
whatever you post here Im sure all will enjoy any updates you get time for. I have been loving every comment you make here. Glad you started this and learnd to enjoy what your doing with the guys

 

[NancyPan]

Hello NancyPan. Hello Everyone.

I am not going to try to keep this thread up to date anymore. Doing so is a job, and I don't need another job. I'm already working over 50 hours a week, and I have two guys living with me in this household. The only way I can find enough private time to write a post is to get up really early in the mornings. But that is costing me too much lost sleep. Also, the quick updates do not give an accurate picture and cause too many people to see things that aren't there...like the idea that Travis was running my household or I was not considering Robbie's well-being. And then I spend more time trying to explain what I didn't explain in the original posts. As they say in the business world, "There's never time to do it right, but there's always time to do it again."

There is so much I want to share. I love your feedback and comments and suggestions, they are invaluable to me, but there is only so much time in the day, and my life has gotten very busy. It's so ironic. When I joined Literotica, Robbie was the only guy in my life, and we were hardly talking to each other. I had all the time in the world to participate in these forums back then. But because of that participation and reading and learning in these forums, now my life is too busy to participate in the very forums I've come to love.

From now on, I will write when I can, and I will make that writing as informative and enjoyable as possible. I hope you can understand.

Perfect! IMO, this is what you should do. You do not “owe” anyone here a report. Share what you want when you have time and you think it’d be fun, or if yo want feedback/thoughts on a particular issue. Posting here should not be a burden or obligation, rather something that is a fun resource.

 

[whenagain]

Hello NancyPan. Hello Everyone.

I am not going to try to keep this thread up to date anymore. Doing so is a job, and I don't need another job. I'm already working over 50 hours a week, and I have two guys living with me in this household. The only way I can find enough private time to write a post is to get up really early in the mornings. But that is costing me too much lost sleep. Also, the quick updates do not give an accurate picture and cause too many people to see things that aren't there...like the idea that Travis was running my household or I was not considering Robbie's well-being. And then I spend more time trying to explain what I didn't explain in the original posts. As they say in the business world, "There's never time to do it right, but there's always time to do it again."

There is so much I want to share. I love your feedback and comments and suggestions, they are invaluable to me, but there is only so much time in the day, and my life has gotten very busy. It's so ironic. When I joined Literotica, Robbie was the only guy in my life, and we were hardly talking to each other. I had all the time in the world to participate in these forums back then. But because of that participation and reading and learning in these forums, now my life is too busy to participate in the very forums I've come to love.

From now on, I will write when I can, and I will make that writing as informative and enjoyable as possible. I hope you can understand.

This totally makes sense. Have fun, stay safe and say hi when you can!

Thanks for sharing your journey and helping us understand our own.

And you know, all the boners you induced, intentionally or not.

 

[Artfan2]

... I am a professional, a career woman who works in a conservative business setting with very wealthy clients. I am knowledgeable and respected in my field. I am viewed as a devout Christian woman, a loving and faithful wife with a wonderful and caring husband. I am a person of utmost morality, demure and reserved and shy around people, even those I have long known.

But eighteen hours earlier, that shy and faithful wife was eagerly sucking a stranger's cock in a parking garage. A cock that was grotesque and sinister in its appearance. A cock whose size alone makes it seem selfish and malicious. A cock that, for some strange reason, this married, Christian woman finds praiseworthy and deserving. There in my office I was surrounded by the "normal" world, but I couldn't stop thinking about the cock. It was like it was a separate person from the guy attached to it. I didn't have a date with Alex last night. I had a date with his mean, arrogant, ugly cock.

This sounds like such an unrestrained carnal adventure.

 

[64Teddybear]

From the thread, "Cunnilingus while she is watching porn"

I love it to!!!

 

[LeaHaven]

This is an update I just HAD to post....

Guess who just busted his ass in the garage.

Robbie. He tripped over his own stupid thing in the floor, and lucky for me, I was right there to see it. I said, "Robbie! How could you not see it?"

 

[LeaHaven]

This sounds like such an unrestrained carnal adventure.

I should be ashamed of myself

 

[JennyCapricorn]

I should be ashamed of myself

No you damn well shouldn’t!

 

[Artfan2]

This is an update I just HAD to post....

Guess who just busted his ass in the garage.

Robbie. He tripped over his own stupid thing in the floor, and lucky for me, I was right there to see it. I said, "Robbie! How could you not see it?"

Those who live by the sword will perish by it.

 

[Toro1886]

I should be ashamed of myself

yeah for not doing it earlier! ;-p

 

[LeaHaven]

This place never ceases to surprise me.

When I started in these forums, I really had no idea what I was doing. I would unwittingly "hijack" threads without realizing that I was hijacking the thread. It upset people, and they let me know. I asked questions and made comments that showed my inexperience and naivete'. I had never heard of "cuckold." I had never heard of "FLR." On so many topics it was common for me to write, "I don't know that that means." Some people thought I was stupid, and they let me know. One guy actually sent me a message to tell me that these forums are for older people, and I was not welcome here. I had been getting that feeling already. So I left the forums. I came back seven months later to delete my account, but I found that I had received a comment in a thread that completely understood my situation. It totally changed my view of these forums, and I stayed. That was like, sixteen or seventeen months ago.

I recently posted that I would no longer attempt to keep this thread current. I received DM's, and every single one was sincere and heartfelt. The courage in some of those messages touched me. Many start with "I am just like Robbie..." and they tell me feelings they've never told anyone. They tell me that my thread is like a safe place or a view into a world that they would love to live, but they wouldn't dare talk about. In one case, someone created an account "just to send you this message." It took a lot of courage for him to come out of the shadows and send me that message.

Ever since I started this thread, I have received messages from guys who just want to get it off their chest and say, "I'm just like Robbie." Some of those messages have begun exchanges where these guys talk about their most closely guarded secrets. Those exchanges reminded me of the times when I was living at home, and I would lie in bed at night thinking about things I knew I shouldn't be thinking about.

To be honest, I thought my thread was just fun and games. I thought people only read it for the titillation. I didn't think anyone would really care much if I stopped posting completely (that was never my intent. I enjoy the fun and games). Oh gosh, was I wrong.

So now what? First of all, I never intended to quit this thread. I don't want that. I was only planning to post less often. So let's try this. I am going to go back to writing as fast as I can and posting it with very little, if any, editing. It will be messy, and I won't like it, but it may be the best solution. Please bear with me. This whole thread has been nothing more than an experiment.

But one last thing...this isn't the Internet I am used to. I am used to trolls and assholes and vicious attacks. All of you have been so supportive and encouraging and understanding and sincerely concerned about our well-being. I can't tell you how much I appreciate it, and I DO listen. I can't thank you enough.

Oh, and one more last thing....never, ever be afraid to comment or send me a DM. Your messages are my lifeline, my guidance into this new world. It might take me days to respond, but I try to always respond. It's not an obligation. I want to.

 

[LeaHaven]

No you damn well shouldn’t!

I don't. I was only kidding. I should have said so.

 

[9to5]

so glad you got to learn more about this and knowing its ok
this is a fun kink for some and a way of life, some like me a life to be wishing it was us. Robbie should be proud of what he does for you.
we are living a life thru you and Robbie.
enjoyed your thoughts and update

 

[NancyPan]

This place never ceases to surprise me.

When I started in these forums, I really had no idea what I was doing. I would unwittingly "hijack" threads without realizing that I was hijacking the thread. It upset people, and they let me know. I asked questions and made comments that showed my inexperience and naivete'. I had never heard of "cuckold." I had never heard of "FLR." On so many topics it was common for me to write, "I don't know that that means." Some people thought I was stupid, and they let me know. One guy actually sent me a message to tell me that these forums are for older people, and I was not welcome here. I had been getting that feeling already. So I left the forums. I came back seven months later to delete my account, but I found that I had received a comment in a thread that completely understood my situation. It totally changed my view of these forums, and I stayed. That was like, sixteen or seventeen months ago.

I recently posted that I would no longer attempt to keep this thread current. I received DM's, and every single one was sincere and heartfelt. The courage in some of those messages touched me. Many start with "I am just like Robbie..." and they tell me feelings they've never told anyone. They tell me that my thread is like a safe place or a view into a world that they would love to live, but they wouldn't dare talk about. In one case, someone created an account "just to send you this message." It took a lot of courage for him to come out of the shadows and send me that message.

Ever since I started this thread, I have received messages from guys who just want to get it off their chest and say, "I'm just like Robbie." Some of those messages have begun exchanges where these guys talk about their most closely guarded secrets. Those exchanges reminded me of the times when I was living at home, and I would lie in bed at night thinking about things I knew I shouldn't be thinking about.

To be honest, I thought my thread was just fun and games. I thought people only read it for the titillation. I didn't think anyone would really care much if I stopped posting completely (that was never my intent. I enjoy the fun and games). Oh gosh, was I wrong.

So now what? First of all, I never intended to quit this thread. I don't want that. I was only planning to post less often. So let's try this. I am going to go back to writing as fast as I can and posting it with very little, if any, editing. It will be messy, and I won't like it, but it may be the best solution. Please bear with me. This whole thread has been nothing more than an experiment.

But one last thing...this isn't the Internet I am used to. I am used to trolls and assholes and vicious attacks. All of you have been so supportive and encouraging and understanding and sincerely concerned about our well-being. I can't tell you how much I appreciate it, and I DO listen. I can't thank you enough.

Oh, and one more last thing....never, ever be afraid to comment or send me a DM. Your messages are my lifeline, my guidance into this new world. It might take me days to respond, but I try to always respond. It's not an obligation. I want to.

Leah, Thank you for this! As you know, I am one of those males who is “like Robbie.” I am fortunate to have a wife who understands that I need her authority and we have been in an FLR for some time.

I am not surprised that many “males like me” are reaching out to you. You’ve demonstrated understanding and acceptance. There really is not a safe place online for open discussion of FLR and male submission to FemDom. Too many Pro Dommes and scammers have tried to monetize this “need” and/or take advantage of desperate submissive males.

I very much want your relationship with Robbie to succeed, and for you to learn to enjoy all the benefits due a Superior Woman.

In our marriage, every day starts with me on my knees to kiss my wife’s ass and my thanking Her for being my Queen. People need to see that this lifestyle works and that people in otherwise “normal” lifestyles practice FLRs.

 

[liqueur]

But one last thing...this isn't the Internet I am used to. I am used to trolls and assholes and vicious attacks. All of you have been so supportive and encouraging and understanding and sincerely concerned about our well-being. I can't tell you how much I appreciate it, and I DO listen. I can't thank you enough.

Speaking for myself, and I'm sure many others, I am equally grateful

I have received messages from guys who just want to get it off their chest and say, "I'm just like Robbie."
...

I'm awful lot like Robbie...

Oh, and one more last thing....never, ever be afraid to comment or send me a DM. Your messages are my lifeline, my guidance into this new world. It might take me days to respond, but I try to always respond. It's not an obligation. I want to.

And if things were different, I could fall in love..

 

[liqueur]

In our marriage, every day starts with me on my knees to kiss my wife’s ass and my thanking Her for being my Queen. People need to see that this lifestyle works and that people in otherwise “normal” lifestyles practice FLRs.

I don't know if “people” need to see it or not, but I do. It's the way I'd like to live.

 

[LeaHaven]

so glad you got to learn more about this and knowing its ok
this is a fun kink for some and a way of life, some like me a life to be wishing it was us. Robbie should be proud of what he does for you.
we are living a life thru you and Robbie.
enjoyed your thoughts and update

9to5, I saw your post 2 or 3 days ago, and I have been trying to respond ever since.

When I read your words, "Robbie should be proud of what he does for you," I wondered, "proud?" It caused me to think about our relationship and take stock of where we are.

Robbie is proud of what he does for me, but it's so hard to explain what that looks like. And so thinking about that, I kept wondering, "Where did the change in our relationship occur? Where exactly was the transition?"

I didn't have to think for long. It was the moment on our way to church when he told me he was wearing the cage. Up until then, the idea of Robbie wearing a cage was a novelty, a game. It was a "maybe." But when I learned that he had voluntarily locked his manhood in a prison, knowing that I held the key, you could feel my authority filled the car. The uncertainties between us instantly disappeared. I held dominion. Robbie was my submissive. It was real now, and we were never going back.

As the preacher gave his sermon, Robbie reached his hand across for mine and waited. He was making a request to hold my hand. I allowed it.

 

[LeaHaven]

I very much want your relationship with Robbie to succeed, and for you to learn to enjoy all the benefits due a Superior Woman.

I know that, NancyPan, and I know you are not alone. That's why I am still here.

 

[LeaHaven]

I don't know if “people” need to see it or not, but I do. It's the way I'd like to live.

I wish you could liqueur. I am sure with time some things between us will come to be less exciting, but we have found what works for us, and it is abundantly clear that it will always work for us.

 

[liqueur]

I wish you could liqueur.

Thank you

 

[liqueur]

I didn't have to think for long. It was the moment on our way to church when he told me he was wearing the cage.

For me, the fact that that first moment was intimately connected to church was in itself so very hot. Especially given the strict religious and traditional (read: patriarchal) upbringings you both had.

That sacred sacrilege. It gets me every time.