Am i a weirdo freak?

[Amimessedup1]

So, I've been married for 25 years, got hitched right after college. When I met my wife I was a virgin technically. She had 5 or 6 lovers before me in high school and was honest about it. Didn't bother me much, always a little jealousy though, but she never got into any details.

Later in life I experienced a few performance issues. Never been a big stamina guy but for whatever reason, during 1 period I was a minute man at best. One night it particularly frustrated her and I got defensive and asked about her expectations.

She told me that one of her ex's averaged 20-30 minutes and never failed to get her to climax. I was a little stunned, but also ashamed and ate it and pushed it down deep inside.

Over the last 10 years though I have found myself thinking about that. Imagining what their sex was like. I found my jealousy replaced by arousal. It had grown and grown and now I think about it constantly to the point its the main thing that gets me off. I fantasize that she often thinks of him and how good sex with him was.

We have a tame but OK sex life, not as frequent as when we were young, but ok. My wife has never made me feel inadequate at all. But still these fantasies and wild made up thoughts of my wife yearning for an ex persist, and now it has spread to fantasies of her having sex with my friends, getting her intoxicated and sharing her, something she would never do.

Am I just fucked in the head? Is their any way to break this chain?

 

[lifeis2short2b]

Sounds like a great idea. Your wife who probably forgot how great her sex life was should be reminded that guys last longer than a minute. Never mind friends that can be awkward. There are numerous guys on this site who can fulfill her needs. Ummm I mean yours

 

[HumpDayHoratio]

So, I've been married for 25 years, got hitched right after college. When I met my wife I was a virgin technically. She had 5 or 6 lovers before me in high school and was honest about it. Didn't bother me much, always a little jealousy though, but she never got into any details.

Later in life I experienced a few performance issues. Never been a big stamina guy but for whatever reason, during 1 period I was a minute man at best. One night it particularly frustrated her and I got defensive and asked about her expectations.

She told me that one of her ex's averaged 20-30 minutes and never failed to get her to climax. I was a little stunned, but also ashamed and ate it and pushed it down deep inside.

Over the last 10 years though I have found myself thinking about that. Imagining what their sex was like. I found my jealousy replaced by arousal. It had grown and grown and now I think about it constantly to the point its the main thing that gets me off. I fantasize that she often thinks of him and how good sex with him was.

We have a tame but OK sex life, not as frequent as when we were young, but ok. My wife has never made me feel inadequate at all. But still these fantasies and wild made up thoughts of my wife yearning for an ex persist, and now it has spread to fantasies of her having sex with my friends, getting her intoxicated and sharing her, something she would never do.

Am I just fucked in the head? Is their any way to break this chain?

Two ways to approach this.

First off…she picked you, not him. So you’ve got something in spades over your “rival” so to speak.

Second…do you WANT to break the chain? Twenty five years is a rarity these days, so I’d proceed with caution. Be careful of what you ask for…you just might get it.

Feel free to DM me if you’d like me expound on these thoughts. For reference, we’ve been married 31 yrs and together like 33. Went through something similar, so I understand your thought process.