I know now that Robbie is much happier that I am no longer pretending he is good in bed. He's not good in bed, and my acknowledging that and acting on that arouses him. I don't really understand it, but that doesn't matter. I accept it for what it is, and it works for us. We both like how this blunt honesty between us has turned out.I know for myself that it was a few specifically humiliating instances that led to my kinks. I wasn’t aroused at the time but they lingered in my mind as years went on, and in the end felt more honest than times women tried to placate my insecurities: