LGBTQIA+ Daily Vibe II

Had a couple of long weekends with friends on the boat. Long drive home tonight and we’re both so tired. My job is to keep him awake.
Wind blasted but happy
Wearing whatever is still clean
Listening BBC 2 on the radio
It is always sweet to get home an just sleep off a fun trip!
 
Spent the last 2 days in the hospital again. Throat abcess that is also affecting my vocal cords. I sound like I've been smoking 5 packs a day for 40 years. I still can't swallow anything solid, and 2 days earlier I couldn't breathe from the swelling. I will say, drinking lidocaine was pretty low on the list of things I hadn't considered. My throat bloody hurts and looks like it has a cantaloupe wedged in it. My arms look like pin cushions from all the IV pokes.

Mood: scared
Wearing: hospital gown
Listening too: the beeping of hospital equipment
 
Leaving Portland in a day, on my way to wander in the woods for a while.
Feeling strangely disconnected, but stuff will shuffle into place once I'm surrounded by the quiet of trees an mountains.
Just want to say Love to my friends here. 🌹

Listening to: background music I don't know
Wearing: tee an pants
Mood: weird an anxious
 
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Feeling strangely disconnected, but stuff will shuffle into place once I'm surrounded by the quiet of trees an mountains.
Just want to say Love to my friends here. 🌹
Love returned!

There's no better place to reconnect than among trees and mountains. I've never spent much time in Oregon (3 weeks in Newport, back when it was a sleepy little fishing village) but I have hiked in the Cascades, up near Seattle, and in the Olympics. Some of the most beautiful places on earth. Tell the trees that I say hello. They will know me.
 
So this was interesting on a YT about a petition in the UK linked here "Should trns people sign government petitions?
but this guy added this cmment
'So, point of interest - I had testicular cancer a few years ago. It was very easy as far as "Cancer" goes - I had one surgery to remove the offending little bugger and have had no problems since. But while I was going through the prep phases for this surgery, I wasn't just offered a prosthetic replacement for it, it was pushed on me...pretty hard. I told the Doctor I didn't see the point of a prosthetic replacement, and he told me that a lot of men develop dysphoria and the prosthetic is a standard measure to prevent it, because it's easier to put it in when they remove the real one than do a second surgery when you come back complaining of dysphoria. Makes sense.

But I also never actually agreed to it. I was sounding out my options, and was very careful not to. And never got asked again until, minutes before my surgery, my surgeon told me that I'd agreed to a prosthetic and I corrected him. I ended up going with it, because I was repeatedly, strongly, warned that the dysphoria was common and serious.

So, first thing to note there - I got offered gender affirming care as a cis guy without even asking for it.Second thing to note - these prosthetics get stitched in, and it hurts, and after finally speaking to a specialist he was just like "Oh yeah over half the guys who get them have that complaint". Despite it never being mentioned before.

So, I'm in constant (and I do mean constant - I can feel this thing every second of every day for a few years now) pain because I got borderline pressured into gender affirming care I didn't really care about one way or the other and meanwhile trans people aren't entitled to it?Make that make sense? Anyone?


Yeah.... doctor knows best. Usual BS where the medical profession still see themselves as god-like. Yet another reason why I was glad I went to Thailand for my surgery.
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Leaving Portland in a day, on my way to wander in the woods for a while.
Feeling strangely disconnected, but stuff will shuffle into place once I'm surrounded by the quiet of trees an mountains.
Just want to say Love to my friends here. 🌹

Listening to: background music I don't know
Wearing: tee an pants
Mood: weird an anxious
You know, another ecosystem that heals can be found in remote (non-touristy) parts of the coast. I recently wandered around the remote beaches and tidepools of southern Oregon and northern California for a week. I really needed that.

It was smokey in parts if the Sierras in northern California, but I got above it at the highest elevations.

Hope you also benefit from your travels.
 
Ooo, here's an interesting comment from Insta
'Men treat trans women publicly the way they treat cis women privately'

Mood: physically shattered, but mentally, only tired
Listening to: pigeons, white noise
Wearing: lets see... work pants because they're clean, green T and knickers.
 
I listen to a short piece on the radio ( becoming my preferred medium these days! ). The article talked about Notman, a pioneering photographer from Canada, overlooked by history. I googled when I got home and found Transcestors - McCord Museum, that casts more light on Notman's work, documenting trans & cross-dressing people in the 1890s. Worth a ten minute read!

Mood: Content
Listening to: Jackdaws
Wearing: normal July but with a fleece - it's colder and raining.
 
Hope not the UK - we suck for trans right now
I thought about it, I do have friends there, plus a bit of property and a house in the north. I have 1 surgery here at the end of September. I am looking for another bottom surgeon, I am planning on having it done in Korea. I have a few friends there I haven't seen in a while. I figure a month in Korea would do me good.
 
Hope not the UK - we suck for trans right now
In Tucson, we defy the current right-wing wave of oppression. It feels so good to go downtown or another gathering place on a Friday or Saturday night and experience all the diversity of expression. I felt the same thing in Portland, Oregon recently.

Diversity. Inclusion. Screw the right-wing control freaks.

Wearing: nothing (just got out of the shower, and it's 100 degrees F outside)
Mood: hopeful
Listening to: the sound of my refrigerator running on solar power.
 
I thought about it, I do have friends there, plus a bit of property and a house in the north. I have 1 surgery here at the end of September. I am looking for another bottom surgeon, I am planning on having it done in Korea. I have a few friends there I haven't seen in a while. I figure a month in Korea would do me good.
I thought vaguely about moving to Canada a couple of years back. Maybe I could still but I'd need to take an axe to my sticky roots.
tbh the anti-trans thing here is all hot air atm. Like everywhere else it's being used as a distraction. Hateful though... Canada *sigh*
 
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