embarrassedBut
Experienced
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- Mar 29, 2018
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I've actually been writing down these stories for years. I say I write them down because I have trouble saying that I wrote them. It's not just that the content embarrasses me but because I don't have any control over the story. A scene will start playing out in my head. It will repeat until I get on my computer and write it down. Then the next scene will play out until it gets written down. Plot twists come as a surprise to me. It consumes significant amount of my time.
I've been writing these stories and never intended for anyone else to read them. A couple of years ago, I was writing my third story when I mentioned it to some friends. They encouraged me to try to publish them. They cited locations where I could do this under a pseudonym. It had to be that way because the explicit sexual content embarrasses me. Most of what I found are cites that appear to sell editorial services. I want to know how interesting my stories are.
I have 3 stories; 4 if you count one that is a short spin off of one of the 3. 2 stories cannot be published here; the involve 40 year relationship that start when the characters are under 18. In truth, all of the stories have that but The Shopkeeper doesn't have it until a long, long way into it. The parents of those characters don't meet until chapter 5.
What scares me about my stories are the main characters. A lot of time, the story is written from the perspective of a female character. I am a man; what do I know of being a woman? How are women going to react to my portrayal of them? One of the stories that can't be published her involves a main character that is a lesbian woman. I gloss over details of their sexual encounters. But even without that, I am writing something for which I know nothing.
My characters actually live in my imagination. I submit chapter 1 of a story only to have it rejected. I could kind of fix the age problem by hiding the age of a character. Chapter 2 and 3 were impossible to fix. I had a couple of ideas but my characters got together and discussed the changes. They rejected all of them. And for good reasons.
I have these thoughts on my mind but I have no one to discuss them with. I thought I would post here and see what others have to say.
I've been writing these stories and never intended for anyone else to read them. A couple of years ago, I was writing my third story when I mentioned it to some friends. They encouraged me to try to publish them. They cited locations where I could do this under a pseudonym. It had to be that way because the explicit sexual content embarrasses me. Most of what I found are cites that appear to sell editorial services. I want to know how interesting my stories are.
I have 3 stories; 4 if you count one that is a short spin off of one of the 3. 2 stories cannot be published here; the involve 40 year relationship that start when the characters are under 18. In truth, all of the stories have that but The Shopkeeper doesn't have it until a long, long way into it. The parents of those characters don't meet until chapter 5.
What scares me about my stories are the main characters. A lot of time, the story is written from the perspective of a female character. I am a man; what do I know of being a woman? How are women going to react to my portrayal of them? One of the stories that can't be published her involves a main character that is a lesbian woman. I gloss over details of their sexual encounters. But even without that, I am writing something for which I know nothing.
My characters actually live in my imagination. I submit chapter 1 of a story only to have it rejected. I could kind of fix the age problem by hiding the age of a character. Chapter 2 and 3 were impossible to fix. I had a couple of ideas but my characters got together and discussed the changes. They rejected all of them. And for good reasons.
I have these thoughts on my mind but I have no one to discuss them with. I thought I would post here and see what others have to say.