MelanieFiona
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- Oct 22, 2017
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Hi there
This is my very first post as you can see.
I am not sure where to start so I would rather post my brief story.
I am a 47yrs old male and I have been married with my wife for 20+ years now. I have never been sexually attracted to her and our sex life has been practically inexistent in the last 10 years or so. I met women online for most id this time but did not have a real relationship until a year ago. My wife has always been very dominant srxually speaking and that was probably the main thing that killed it for me. Amon other things she repeatedly asked me to allow her to use a strap-on on me but I could not stand the idea. I am not sure if I would be totally opposed to this if I was with someone else but in short, our sexual chemistry went over time from a 5-6 (on a scale from 1 to 10) to a solid 1 or 0.
We are still married mainly for kids and financial reasons and we both got our own separate lives.
So...
A year ago I met a girl online who is also married with kids and we met and we hit it of pretty well sexually. She is a bit far from where I am ( takes a good 4-5 hour drive) and we managed to see each other every three weeks or so. She told me from the very beginning that she likes it rough. Like choking and slapping and hair pulling but I did not pay attention to it until recently when she told me black on white that this kind of treatment turns her on. On our last encounter I tried to be rough with her but I guess that was nowhere near close to what she was looking for. She told me pretty much I am allowed to do anything as long as I dont't leave visible marks on areas of her body that are not typically clothed - like neck, face and hands.
The best I could do was pulling her hair and slap her ass a few times while in doggy. I guess being rough is not my style - I never felt the need to do that with any of my 100 or so partners that I had so far.
I really like this girl and I would love to indulge into what she wants but I am afraid that I will be too fake to the point she will end up being turned off instead of being turned on. I am thinking of drinking liquour which may get me a bit on the wild side rather than smoking weed (which is mostly what I've done when seeing her as she is very into 420). But I am afraid that I would have to drink way too much to let myself wild and I would be afraid to get so drunk to the point of seriously harming her.
I am probably not a dom for sure but neither a sub since all the proposals to ahve things done to me have turned me off big time.
At this point I am not sure if I should even try doing rough stuff to her or just keep being lovey and vanilla while knowing that she will sooner or later look for someone else to get her kick.
Sorry if this is too long, any insight or advice is appreciated.
This is my very first post as you can see.
I am not sure where to start so I would rather post my brief story.
I am a 47yrs old male and I have been married with my wife for 20+ years now. I have never been sexually attracted to her and our sex life has been practically inexistent in the last 10 years or so. I met women online for most id this time but did not have a real relationship until a year ago. My wife has always been very dominant srxually speaking and that was probably the main thing that killed it for me. Amon other things she repeatedly asked me to allow her to use a strap-on on me but I could not stand the idea. I am not sure if I would be totally opposed to this if I was with someone else but in short, our sexual chemistry went over time from a 5-6 (on a scale from 1 to 10) to a solid 1 or 0.
We are still married mainly for kids and financial reasons and we both got our own separate lives.
So...
A year ago I met a girl online who is also married with kids and we met and we hit it of pretty well sexually. She is a bit far from where I am ( takes a good 4-5 hour drive) and we managed to see each other every three weeks or so. She told me from the very beginning that she likes it rough. Like choking and slapping and hair pulling but I did not pay attention to it until recently when she told me black on white that this kind of treatment turns her on. On our last encounter I tried to be rough with her but I guess that was nowhere near close to what she was looking for. She told me pretty much I am allowed to do anything as long as I dont't leave visible marks on areas of her body that are not typically clothed - like neck, face and hands.
The best I could do was pulling her hair and slap her ass a few times while in doggy. I guess being rough is not my style - I never felt the need to do that with any of my 100 or so partners that I had so far.
I really like this girl and I would love to indulge into what she wants but I am afraid that I will be too fake to the point she will end up being turned off instead of being turned on. I am thinking of drinking liquour which may get me a bit on the wild side rather than smoking weed (which is mostly what I've done when seeing her as she is very into 420). But I am afraid that I would have to drink way too much to let myself wild and I would be afraid to get so drunk to the point of seriously harming her.
I am probably not a dom for sure but neither a sub since all the proposals to ahve things done to me have turned me off big time.
At this point I am not sure if I should even try doing rough stuff to her or just keep being lovey and vanilla while knowing that she will sooner or later look for someone else to get her kick.
Sorry if this is too long, any insight or advice is appreciated.
