gailwright
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- Aug 7, 2016
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The question mark indicates that I don't even know if I'm using an appropriate term for what I want to discuss. (I still can't get over how wonderful it is to be able to talk about sexual and gender matters with precisely the right people!!!)
Anyway, I have been "dressing" to varying degrees (always in the privacy of my home--alone, or sometimes for a man) for several years. I like to dress in heels (classic pumps, generally 3"), thigh-hi's (generally nude), thong or panties, short skirt or capris, some sort of top, and wig. I have very little makeup experience--other than lipstick and mascara. (I mention that only to give you a sense of the limited amount of feminine stuff I tend to acquire.)
When I dress, I feel amazingly feminine--and want to much to pleasure a man!!!
But, what I really want most of all is to have a man love me and want to feminize me to be his girlfriend (or more). That, of course, has never happened.
Instead, I wind up feeling degraded and stupid--like a guy who dresses in women's clothing! (Duh!!! ) I then decide I never want to engage in that farce again and I "purge" by throwing away (discreetly) every single remnant of femininity I had acquired.
I then feel better, go a few months looking for a girl for myself, followed by a gradual reemergence of my urges for femininity, dressing, and (to be indelicate about it) cock! I resist these urges, but finally give in and begin to acquire feminine things again, only to repeat the process following some particularly upsetting experience.
My first question is, do other gurls do this--especially, do they do it OVER AND OVER???!!!
Second, any opinions/analyses regarding what this ought to be telling me?
The only other thing I can add is that I drool over stories in which a man falls in love with a feminine guy and compels him to femininze (always at the lover's expense) to become the female love of his life.
I really appreciate any input you might care to give. Feel free to Private Message anything personal to you!!!
Thanks!!!
Gail
Anyway, I have been "dressing" to varying degrees (always in the privacy of my home--alone, or sometimes for a man) for several years. I like to dress in heels (classic pumps, generally 3"), thigh-hi's (generally nude), thong or panties, short skirt or capris, some sort of top, and wig. I have very little makeup experience--other than lipstick and mascara. (I mention that only to give you a sense of the limited amount of feminine stuff I tend to acquire.)
When I dress, I feel amazingly feminine--and want to much to pleasure a man!!!
But, what I really want most of all is to have a man love me and want to feminize me to be his girlfriend (or more). That, of course, has never happened.
Instead, I wind up feeling degraded and stupid--like a guy who dresses in women's clothing! (Duh!!! ) I then decide I never want to engage in that farce again and I "purge" by throwing away (discreetly) every single remnant of femininity I had acquired.
I then feel better, go a few months looking for a girl for myself, followed by a gradual reemergence of my urges for femininity, dressing, and (to be indelicate about it) cock! I resist these urges, but finally give in and begin to acquire feminine things again, only to repeat the process following some particularly upsetting experience.
My first question is, do other gurls do this--especially, do they do it OVER AND OVER???!!!
Second, any opinions/analyses regarding what this ought to be telling me?
The only other thing I can add is that I drool over stories in which a man falls in love with a feminine guy and compels him to femininze (always at the lover's expense) to become the female love of his life.
I really appreciate any input you might care to give. Feel free to Private Message anything personal to you!!!
Thanks!!!
Gail