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Truth and Sincerity of Me

Truth and Sincerity of Me



Bloodied tears
Line the withered soul
Raining down
With silver strings of nectars dew
As I venture forth
To begin my life a new

For on this morning
The sun will rise
A final time
To the last days of a wasted life
Crying as the denied
By the love of lies
As I have been
Forever blind

But as the dawn breaks
The vast horizon with stolen light
It will fill the darkness of my bleeding heart
As the golden rays will weave
Over veiled eyes to believe
And it shall with all its glory
Bring forth
The hope of life

And upon my silken skin
Traced by the will of its touch
With its sacred holy caress
Its warmth will heal and mend
My scorned and reckless soul
While it withers away
The last lies of him

As for once
I too shall rise
Beyond the feeble child
The craven implement of my mind
To the gracious breath of freedom
With the burden of chance
To find acceptance of self
And the love of life
To rise in truth
As the master of my mind

And as this dawn approaches
Beaming through the shadows of life
And on the very darkness of this night
I await that wanton sunrise
To gentle still my fearful mind
And dry my wasted tears
For the heart will heal
Given time

For sorrow will no longer
Stand as master
And hold sway to my trepid soul
As now I venture forth
To a whole new promised land
With faith to find
What I lost so long ago
As now I rise above my broken soul
Stronger and wiser than I have ever been
With a belief that should have always held
To the truth and sincerity of me

just for everyone to know

I am going to be gone a bit ...will check in as I can ...as I find new home and get internet back! ...keep writing and be well everyone ill read and post as I can

Forever Unspoken

Forever Unspoken


As I lay my head down
upon my borrowed bed
I weep for the truths
that were never said

Paled by a future
that could not be foreseen
As the wills of love to see
the darkened walls of my now
broken destiny

Gingered ties bound the heart
so course and unrefined
Fraying from the very start

Each little strand
piercing like a thousand pinpricks
to the lies of life
for two naive lovers unwilling to talk

The deceptions and misconceptions bred into life
by unwilling words never spoken
The voice of reason silenced and it's conception

A fool am I to know what this has done
in my now and forever
stolen love

For then the whores came
as if from the kingdom of heaven
and laid their claim
to everything the heart held sacred

In a moment's time
without a seconds hesitation
they devoured the truth and trust
that took a century in the making

The whispers of love
given and gifted so willingly to them
Only prolonged by the depths of the minds deception
And gave way to the bitter acceptance
In the betrayal of the heart
As the truths remain in the silence of time
And forever unspoken

Free Frim Pain

Free From Pain



There is a fire
In the depths of my self-centered oppression
That feels only pain
It is the power in my soul
That keeps me sane

When the world turns and festers
When it breaks down to die
As the barriers of life begin to corrode inside
I will fucking survive

Let the Furies rage with the hands of fate
Let them incinerate with the fires of hell
This misguided veil of life and love
To the abyss splayed in my damned soul
For I will burn above them all

This year has been
The darkest of my days
My soul has bled with every tear I shed
And my heart has paid
A thousand times again

Yet some truths remain
Within my only friends
Let them be as the breath of life
Forever fueled
And free from pain

Only You Can Fly

Only You Can Fly


If I could go back in time
Tell my younger self a tale
Advice to make it through this hell
Oh the tale I could tell

Weave the stories of our life
Simple and true about a jaded bird
A craven little creature that never flew
And the adventures of a fool

But in the end
The only advice I could give
Begins within

For life is short
And the world is cruel
Hateful in its self riotous pride
And un-relentless at its best
Without mercy and without end

You will taste the steel
From every dagger of life
From one hand to the next
By friend and foe, alike

Your heart will bleed
A thousand bloody tears
To the whispers of love
As you lay down your soul
Time and time again
For a wishful lie believed

And you, you alone
Will caress your destiny
On the edge of a broken blade
You will feed it your flesh and vain
To ease your timid ways
But that won’t end the pain

If you can’t face the truth
Don’t hide behind the lie
Never let your dreams die
For only you can fly

Live Again

Live Again



I used to write with fevered rage
Words flew from my finger tips
As lightening shooting from my veins
Spewing from my heart and soul
As my only saving grace

I wrote of love and life
Spoke of dreams and the wills to believe
Spoke of death as if a gift to the dead
Of memories of fallen friends
Spoke the truth of sorrow from my broken heart
As it smoldered the desires of tomorrow
With all of my wills of life left denied

Never once
Have the words not flowed
To the emotions of life
And the acts of time
As they have been
Forever,
My bloodline

Yet here I sit
With the poison of my mind
And I look at my empty screen
I wonder in truth
What it is my soul has to say
As the words have gone away
They have become complacent to the pain

As I have had no other words
But those to the hate of life
The hate of love
And the hate of lies
With my heart to die

They say I will heal
That my heart will mend
That I will love again
But I don’t think they can comprehend
The pain and longing of my broken soul
Will truly never mend

I wish not to feel
The burning stings of a lover’s lies
Nor do I care to feel again
The pain of a thousand tears
That has reigned as the blood support
To my wasted years

I no longer wish to be
Played as that naïve fool
Wishing upon a lie to believe
What could never be

Yet I know
The truths will come
And I will write again
When my words return
With my will to live again

You are Two

You are Two


In my mind
I walk a dream
And I fear
What it could mean

Trapped in a prism of pain
I walk my mental maze
And the memories fall like acid rain

One by one they fall
As if to drowned my bubbled wall
From the fractions of forgotten times

I race and run with furies rage
In fear of what I may find
In the depths of my broken mind

When low and behold
I stumble upon where it all began
That painted cardboard box
With its white tethered walls of shame
Reminisces of its aged structured frame
As what once was my ancestral home

I gentle my hand upon its splintering windowpane
As the slivers of wood pierce flesh with bloody pain
To brace my fall as I stand against the broken ledge
And cast my gaze through this mirrored maze

There I see her
This feeble childlike version of me
Sitting with her back pinned to the wall
Cloaked in her blanket of despair
Drawing her life in sketches
Line after line
Inked with the blood of time
Caressing each bloody line

How I wish to call to her
Reach through this shattered window of her soul
To cry out her name
As if to tell her not be afraid

But my words fall upon deaf ears
As no sounds are made
Not a whisper
Nor murmur does part the silence of my tears
How I scream and cry
And rage with the furies of love
But no voice is heard

Trapped in this prism of pain
I watch the crimson hues of sacred blood
Run from every line
As the parting of her life begins

How I wish to tell her
Of the great many things
This craven child will do
How some will be wrong
And only welcome the pain to life
But some will be true
And just in every right
Tell her the strengths of her broken soul
And weakness she will always know

But there will come a time
When she will tempt the wills of fate
And the separation of flesh and mind
Will be complete

I watch as the tears of her timid heart
Begin to form behind the bloodied dreams
That she wills to believe
In that sweet acceptance and need

How she will trap herself
In the years yet to come
She will be that empty void of two
Each one lying dormant to the other
Devouring without mercy
To the pains of life
But I pray she will know
One day she will speak as one

Of all the things I wish I could say
None would be as important as
To part this window of pain
Let life invigorate
With passion as its fuel
To the world lost inside of you
For you will never be true
If you are two

Lover's Set Free

Lover's Set Free



Still your mind for a moment in time
Close your eyes in trust
And let me take you
As a muse to a lover’s destiny
To feel with me
The passion of fantasy

Picture for me
A forest of wanton dreams
Under a canopy of leaves
Stand with me amongst the trees
Embrace the nocturnal night
As the storm ascends the sky

Feel that midnight air
The sinuous breeze empowering to the flesh
Hear the crackling of the thunder
Amongst the misted midnight storm
See the lightening the electric veins of power
Shattering from the clouds up high
Feel its electricity in the depths of your soul
With its tempered rains to assert its passions
And sheer wanton control of your mind

Be still in this moment
Gentle with trust to my caress
Feel for me
My feathered fingertips to trail your manly chest
Let me tease your yearning flesh
So sensuous
So soft
Gentle with caress

Let me trace upon your soften skin
With my fevered lips
Trailing with tender succulent kisses
As I hold back your caress
Let me taste your salted flesh

While I tempt your waking darkness
As we dance in lust
Fierce
Raw
Unrestrained
Let passions rage
Awaking like a devil’s dream
Feel the storm reign free
To your sweet ecstasy

Release your mind upon the precipices
That animalistic necessity where control is lost
When your mind and soul ceases to be
And you are nothing more
Than a raging heartbeat of hungering need

Take from me
The sheer supremacy of will
Feel the depths of intensity
As we are a heartbeat of need
Become what you are destined to be
The passion and desire
Of lover’s set free

Define our Place

Define our Place


Tell me kind people
The secrets of your soul
Tell me of the lies you hold

What dreams do you hide?
What desires do you deny?
Be so bold I pray you so
And tell me if you will
What truths do you find?

We are the self-proclaimed saviors
The implements of design
The timid tools to block and blind
For we and we alone
Hide the heart to our minds

Our successes
Our failures
Built on the precipice of fear
As the condemner
And the condemned
To refuse the world to see
The truths in our self-secured prisons
In the glory of power and pain
We hide
All we are inside

We are without doubt
The first of our own destruction
That lies in the depths of our minds
We are the creators of our own lies

As we are
The human race
Destined as one
To define our place

Fuel the Pain

Fuel the Pain


Be not gentle
This malicious day
Be not timid and placid
In your wanton ways
Let me feel for you
Your deepest pain

Listen
Shhhh
Listen

The soul cries
In union of desires
As a whore on her knees
Begging
Fucking
Please

To the whims
Of that leathered caress
The control of its lasting kiss
Welted on silken soft alabaster skin
To engrave its name

That sharp crack
That sudden snap
That simple second of instant grace
With impulse to beg for passions rage

Let it taste of flesh
The salted brine of human sin
Succulent
Sweet
In the devil’s game

The bloodied wills of shame
And the desire to please
Are all the same
Let us fuel the pain

And Life Again

And Life Again


And so my dream begins
My wanton dreams of him

The vultures of the night
Carry forth his words
Held as whispers in the wind
Gentle and course
As he plays my waking sins

He speaks of lust
That rage beyond passions sake
To the wills of him
While he seduces without mercy
The whore in my head
And I destined to forget
That of virtue in all its right
As I alone willingly
Bend a knee

Yet his words surge true
To the wanton wills of love
Claiming the fool in my stead
He is poison and fire
The profanity of my mind
In the wavering depths of my soul
To all the secrets I hold

I pray he hears me now
In the whispers of my dream
For the truth of my heart
Has always been
Deeper than any human bond
And stronger than any broken dream

For one so true
To the virtue of love
I would lay down my soul
Through life and death
And life again

Well guys looks like I am back to the world of living / writing heh lots to catch up on since I have been gone!!! You guys have been very busy little writers I see!

My Broken Soul

My Broken Soul



I remember the day
You came to me
In a dream conceived
Your words flew across the ivory screen
Chained with malice and pain
There was no lace to soften their silvered sting

I knew that day
When your words touched me
When they bled my mind
From the devil’s blasphemy
For not even he could undo
What we have done
For the likes of you

I felt it that day
Through the candied wills of shame
As you crawled through my pain
And gave me my name

You played my soul
That wanton whore in heat
Bound and sealed
Veiled on my self-sanctified crucifix
Bleeding from the wounds of life
And sin itself

You carved your crimson thrown
From the brimstone of my soul
With the truth of a touch I would never know
You laid our darkened ecstasy
From the secrets we told

I heard the truths of your soul
As your voice sliced the stillness of the night
And silenced the demons of my heart
Forever in the truth of trust
You claimed my broken soul

Lover's Soul

Lover's Soul


There is but one
And will be but only one
With the right of means
To hold sway over my timid mind
Only one with the rights to bind
The weighted heart of me

There will be
No more lies to love
No more broken dreams
For my heart will be
Forever and always
True to me

Age and reality
Have finally come home
That ticking clock of life
That stops for no man
Woman or child
And it never turns back
No matter what you have done

The damage of my mind
My craven soul
The self-inflicted battle of lies
To hide in the seclusion of my life
Nestled like a babe in the womb of death
Tied and bound in the prison of time

Now the necessity of need
Burns inside of me
Dissipating in a volcano of ash
Gusting amongst the winds of a breath
To burn with the depths of my dreams
That begs of eternity

The truth of a desire to love
And to be loved in return
To feel for once
The depths of life I have denied
As I am no longer
The craven child of my mind

The vexation of my wills
Stands strengthened by the sensations of time
To live as I am
With the ferocity of my lover’s soul

Victim to Life

Victim to Life


Look true this day
See what the lies have done
To my now self-loathing ways

I was the virgin sacrifice
In the rituals of old
For those strong of faith
Untouched by the likes of love

My heart
My flesh
My soul and mind
Given to reprieve
for the sin of life

I cried
As the world laughed at my side
I begged
To the despair of every lie
I kneeled
When love left me to die

And as I fell
In the darkest pit of time
My trust paid the final price
As the victim to life

Last and Final Tale

Last and Final Tale


I remember well
The happy tales of old
That fevered the mind of a child
Listening with vigor
As the late night stories were told

And so they began
Once upon a time
Those Disney dreams
That spoke of a love so true
That the heart would always win
And vanquish every foe

Such sacrifices were made
Given in life and death itself
That stood unparalleled to the heart
And opposed every evil the world could compose
For that one true kiss of love
That would forever hold true

But dreams deceive
The naive fool willing to believe
And the heart cries
When the story of life
Becomes the lie

Words painted with a silver tongue
With their honey glazed whispers
Slice through the soul of love
To compromise those willing to believe
Yet they hold no blade
Their scares still remain

On the verge of flesh they take
With such vigor and hate
That words cannot define the pain
When your dreams become the scorn of life
And your heart is left
Alone, to die

When you stand on the precipice
Of love and life
And realize
Your dreams are nothing more
Than a lie

This is my life
As the story goes
My timid heart splayed as a whore
Holding my childlike dreams
Willing to believe
The beating drums of broken words
In my last and final tale

Sinner's Soul

Sinner's Soul



My immortal soul
I give to thee
With all my opposing empathy

Take from me
The evil of my wanton soul
With all the aching pain it holds

A million lies a day
I have lived
To keep my secrets buried within

They stand as one
Fierce as the devil’s reign
Lurking in the shadows of my shame
And I
I am but
A flawless victim to their claim

There is no forgiveness
From this demandable plague
Tormenting my mind
As their retribution is justified

And as the breath of life
Is drawn from my cherried lips
I offer to you every ounce of evil
Fostered inside of me

For this very moment
The truth is brought to light
Consoled only by misery
And the fear of my longing heart
Where there lies the answer

And on the eve of judgement
I kneel before my corrupted fate
To bargain for my self-lusting ways
Begging on the doorsteps to hell
For sweet redemption from the pain
As I am but a sinner’s soul

Sinseria said:

Sinner's Soul

My immortal soul
I give to thee
With all my opposing empathy

Take from me
The evil of my wanton soul
With all the aching pain it holds

A million lies a day
I have lived
To keep my secrets buried within

They stand as one
Fierce as the devil’s reign
Lurking in the shadows of my shame
And I
I am but
A flawless victim to their claim

There is no forgiveness
From this demandable plague
Tormenting my mind
As their retribution is justified

And as the breath of life
Is drawn from my cherried lips
I offer to you every ounce of evil
Fostered inside of me

For this very moment
The truth is brought to light
Consoled only by misery
To my longing heart of despair

On the eve judgement
I kneel before my corrupted fate
To bargain for my self-lusting ways
Begging on the doorsteps to hell
For sweet redemption from the pain
As I am but a sinner’s soul

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Powerful and dark

Piscator said:

Powerful and dark

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heheh I'm still sleepy was trying to change despair to fear and couldn't figure out why it just gave me quote and not an edit option

thank you Sir for your comments! much appreciated!

Forever Please

Forever Please

The masochist’s heart
So soft and sincere
Gentle with grace
To hold back the fears

Pleading to the mind
Timid with yearning tears
A craving hunger to dark to feed
In the devotion of a soul
Crying to the need

Sweet the sensuous comforting kiss
The soothing power of pain
Purging with every lasting strike and sting
Drawn on welted flesh
For the wrath of men unknown

The longing of a lonely heart
To feel for once beyond the timid dream
That longing touch of desire
To know with all the truth you possess
You’re not alone

Consumed by denial
In the raw emptiness of faith
Lies the will of a craven heart
Pleading with that crimson sting

Loving on bended knee
For that sweet acceptance
With hope
To forever please

Let Me Love

Let Me Love



Time
The nemeses of my mind
Creeping and crawling
As age drawls near
And yet I pray
I truly pray for so much more

The will of desire
Beholding my flesh and soul
Crossing the brink of extinction
Waiting
Wanting
For that demon fiend
He who will come
To tame my broken dreams

Let me be free
To feel his guiding hand
In the depths of my yearning soul
And paint our darkened ecstasy
Across the stormy skies
From wanton land to the lusting seas
Let time stand still
And be the salvation of need

Such darkness I have known
In the span of my life
Lost in the ages as an offering
Denied by time

For this barren heart
Has always been
Alone
Waiting for him

I pray you now
Cast me down
Oh gracious time
Cast me down
With the gift of life
And let me love

Lies of Love

Lies of Love


I live by words
In the bond of life
Every one a sacred oath typed in pose
By the flames of an empty heart
And dreams unknown

And upon my lips
My life secrets
Burn so deep from the fires of hell
To the wills of my wasted dreams

They are the depths of my soul
The will to every need
And all my heart has ever known

Shattered in agony
Amongst the precious world
As my greatest sin
And my greatest strength
They are the fire to my faith

People say
That time will mend
They say
That I will love again
But the heart knows true
The scorn of my broken bed

Collared to my lips
My rosary of pain
Sanctified in blood
To the lies of love

If You Believe

If You Believe




Somewhere inside the soul
Flickers a ray of hope
To some forgotten dream
That lives on inside of me

And like faith
To the promise of life
My virtue will see
All that it was meant to be

The truth to a dream
Is never free
The power of a soul
Can only bleed
If you believe

The Test of Time

The Test of TIme



There is an emptiness
Holding my dreams
Bound on the verge of life
As the savior
To my lost soul

The crimson stings
Line my wounded heart
Welted and bruised
Sliced with the daggers of life
And it bleeds as the damned
To the devil’s lies

I splay my hated soul
In line and verse
I cry to every last word
As I write of things
My dreams will to know

My heart begs as a lover’s toy
In that endless searching
For a truth to the lie
For the security of his arms
To fill my voided life

The glance from his eyes
The demure stature in his pose
The feel to his touch
Gentle and strong to make me hole
The thrust of his will
To feel alive
The grace of his heart
To fill my own

In the desire of a dream
To be as one held amongst the stars
To live and be more than alive
With the faith to fight back the fears
That true love could be

But truth and time
Stands as the nemesis of my lie
For the longing wills of a promise
Are silenced by wishful words
Never spoken

The sheer agony of pain
Will keep my timid ways
And so I will remain
Gifted to the void of life
To stay complacent and sane

Bound with a promise to me
That sweet acceptance to be
Forever afraid as the craven soul
And always alone

For it is the only way
My heart will survive
The test of time

Rejection of You

Rejection of You


Goodbye my longing soul
I no longer have the strength
To keep your faith
Now we must
Part our ways

For the truth to life
Has made faith to find
I am that horrible lie

I have ventured the depths of destiny
I have crawled and pleaded
Across the sands of infamy
For every touch of love I could never find
And I am still denied waiting for that lie
Merely to die

I have traversed
That growing grapevine that never ends
I have cried alone amongst its forked bends
As I carried my heart in hand
To find no peace in the belief of eternity

It turns and bends with every willing step
Each fractured branch has taken a piece of my soul
Bit by broken bit defining my life
With the poison nectar of its sugared fruits
Staining my lips crimson red
With the hate of self

What little remains
Fills my empty heart with contempt
Breaking all faith to love

Lost within my shattered soul of two
I find my every truth held
With the rejection of you