Planetbeat1
Taking a break
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I stopped feeling scared but became increasingly confused. Maybe he was just watching out for me? Or was he just simply watching.
My mind and heart raced to find an explanation, any sort of reason to shoo away the truth blinking me in the eye. That's when I ducked, as silly as that sounds, out of view of the camera and the confusion held behind it. I felt safer on the floor, more in control of myself.
But is that what I wanted? To be safe? To be in control? Of course not.
I already knew the answers to those questions, but did he? Could he tell from watching me at my most secure, when I'm home alone dancing around my apartment. Singing and sighing over the touches I've never felt, the desire to be more more more just for him. Better, better, better. Needing to be the best, to be his. His little girl, dancing and singing just for him. If he wanted her to model, why not strike a pose.
So that's what I did.
Heavenly Lilly
