scotluvsoral
Literotica Guru
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Dripping
Clean
Standing
Wet
Naked
Chilly
Fluid
Trickling
Still
Inspiring
Thoughtful
And
Alone...
But not lonely.
Lovely...and glad you are not lonely
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Dripping
Clean
Standing
Wet
Naked
Chilly
Fluid
Trickling
Still
Inspiring
Thoughtful
And
Alone...
But not lonely.
I don’t much feel like doing anything today.
It’s what many people would consider “nice” outside,
But all I want to do is curl up in bed and not move
Because maybe then I could pretend I don’t exist
Which would be easier
Than going out and trying.
I put makeup on a couple days ago.
It felt like a big deal,
Because it was.
It was the first time in over a month
I spent a moment on my looks,
To swipe on eyeshadow and mascara.
What made it a big deal was
I wasn’t going out.
I was staying in.
I wanted to feel pretty or whatever
For me.
For myself.
That’s how I feel today,
Laying in bed
Doing nothing but letting my thoughts wonder
While watching mindless television shows.
I feel like this day was for me
For myself.
For my lazy mental health.
So I’m not going to judge myself anymore for it
I’m just going to keep laying here
And enjoy my feeling pretty or whatever.
Are you actually listening
When I tell you the secrets
That fill my dreams
And flow out of my heart
Into your ears?
Do you care
That my whole world
Seems to be crumbling
As the cage
Of my mind tries desperately
To hold together what it can?
Did you know
That this isn’t me
You see everytime
You look deep into my eyes,
But rather, the waif who has taken up residence
Inside an otherwise strong body
In order to hide herself from reality?
Would you follow
If I told you the truth
About everything
And what’s inside me
Itching at the walls to escape
The cage it was placed in
Years ago?
The thing is, Panda Express, I know the value of a hug.
I need one.
Rather desperately, actually.
And not a virtual one, but a real life one.
No offense to all of you who offer them,
They’re a nice gesture, but just don’t really cut it when my body aches to be held.
I need A hug from someone who really cares about me
And will take the time to see that I need to be embraced completely
And maybe cry
And feel safe there
To allow myself to weep into someone else’s arms
As they are wrapped around me
And I maybe don’t feel so alone
In this pit.
So although I know the value of a hug,
I hope what my fortune cookie is insinuating tonight
Is that I will receive the hug I yearn for
Some time this week...
The thing is, Panda Express, I know the value of a hug.
I need one.
Rather desperately, actually.
And not a virtual one, but a real life one.
No offense to all of you who offer them,
They’re a nice gesture, but just don’t really cut it when my body aches to be held.
I need A hug from someone who really cares about me
And will take the time to see that I need to be embraced completely
And maybe cry
And feel safe there
To allow myself to weep into someone else’s arms
As they are wrapped around me
And I maybe don’t feel so alone
In this pit.
So although I know the value of a hug,
I hope what my fortune cookie is insinuating tonight
Is that I will receive the hug I yearn for
Some time this week...
I feel like a used plastic bag
Thrown out the window of a moving car
Once useful to hold shopping
But now rejected and floating on the breeze, not wanted by anyone.
I feel like the empty aluminum can
Once my contents made someone very happy
But now I am nothing but remnants
And a nickel worth of recycling.
I feel like a tired dish sponge
Always looking for more to soak up
But no longer being completely adequate
Knowing the day will come when the bin calls.
I feel like the butterfly in a net
Caught by a small child,
Beauty unbelievable in the naked eye and under a microscope,
Struggle futile as the end draws nearer with capture.
I feel like a bubble popping
The termination of my life imminent,
Yet I can still be a happiness
To the bather through my existence and end.
I feel like a used plastic bag
Thrown out the window of a moving car
Once useful to hold shopping
But now rejected and floating on the breeze, not wanted by anyone.
I feel like the empty aluminum can
Once my contents made someone very happy
But now I am nothing but remnants
And a nickel worth of recycling.
I feel like a tired dish sponge
Always looking for more to soak up
But no longer being completely adequate
Knowing the day will come when the bin calls.
I feel like the butterfly in a net
Caught by a small child,
Beauty unbelievable in the naked eye and under a microscope,
Struggle futile as the end draws nearer with capture.
I feel like a bubble popping
The termination of my life imminent,
Yet I can still be a happiness
To the bather through my existence and end.
I feel like a used plastic bag
Thrown out the window of a moving car
Once useful to hold shopping
But now rejected and floating on the breeze, not wanted by anyone.
I feel like the empty aluminum can
Once my contents made someone very happy
But now I am nothing but remnants
And a nickel worth of recycling.
I feel like a tired dish sponge
Always looking for more to soak up
But no longer being completely adequate
Knowing the day will come when the bin calls.
I feel like the butterfly in a net
Caught by a small child,
Beauty unbelievable in the naked eye and under a microscope,
Struggle futile as the end draws nearer with capture.
I feel like a bubble popping
The termination of my life imminent,
Yet I can still be a happiness
To the bather through my existence and end.
http://forum.literotica.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=2067395&stc=1&d=1554146718
I feel like a used plastic bag
Thrown out the window of a moving car
Once useful to hold shopping
But now rejected and floating on the breeze, not wanted by anyone.
I feel like the empty aluminum can
Once my contents made someone very happy
But now I am nothing but remnants
And a nickel worth of recycling.
I feel like a tired dish sponge
Always looking for more to soak up
But no longer being completely adequate
Knowing the day will come when the bin calls.
I feel like the butterfly in a net
Caught by a small child,
Beauty unbelievable in the naked eye and under a microscope,
Struggle futile as the end draws nearer with capture.
I feel like a bubble popping
The termination of my life imminent,
Yet I can still be a happiness
To the bather through my existence and end.
Sometimes I feel sad, when I read how you seem to be feeling.
But I also like reading your posts. Is that weird.
I’ve come to a place where there are many paths.
It has taken me a long time at this fork to make a decision,
And although this route is one that looks simple to traverse,
It is actually full of more pitfalls than it seems,
And I always reserve the right to turn about and hike back to the beginning to start over again.
I enjoy my time here sharing quips,
And yet I am also somehow feeling burdened.
I appreciate and delight in reading every comment,
Every compliment,
Every thought,
Every anecdote,
But the obligation to return,
The need to say something back,
Has started to feel like anxiety.
The fact that I haven’t said much in reply for days now is stacking up like my hyperbole does sometimes... and it’s bothersome.
So, as I have said, I have picked a path for now.
I reiterate the “I am here for me” today.
I will continue to post and be present when I have time.
I am not going to allow the perceived stress of replying to everyone who comments here interfere with my mental space any more.
If you say something I want to reply to, I will.
If you start an intriguing conversation or I do, I hope you’re up for some good discussion.
With that, I’ll leave you with my ruminating question of the day:
How am I supposed to be me for a bit
If I am still finding myself?
http://forum.literotica.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=2067453&stc=1&d=1554231592
With that, I’ll leave you with my ruminating question of the day:
How am I supposed to be me for a bit
If I am still finding myself?
I’ve come to a place where there are many paths.
It has taken me a long time at this fork to make a decision,
And although this route is one that looks simple to traverse,
It is actually full of more pitfalls than it seems,
And I always reserve the right to turn about and hike back to the beginning to start over again.
I enjoy my time here sharing quips,
And yet I am also somehow feeling burdened.
I appreciate and delight in reading every comment,
Every compliment,
Every thought,
Every anecdote,
But the obligation to return,
The need to say something back,
Has started to feel like anxiety.
The fact that I haven’t said much in reply for days now is stacking up like my hyperbole does sometimes... and it’s bothersome.
So, as I have said, I have picked a path for now.
I reiterate the “I am here for me” today.
I will continue to post and be present when I have time.
I am not going to allow the perceived stress of replying to everyone who comments here interfere with my mental space any more.
If you say something I want to reply to, I will.
If you start an intriguing conversation or I do, I hope you’re up for some good discussion.
With that, I’ll leave you with my ruminating question of the day:
How am I supposed to be me for a bit
If I am still finding myself?
With that, I’ll leave you with my ruminating question of the day:
How am I supposed to be me for a bit
If I am still finding myself?
As you peel another layer off an onion...is it still an onion?
No, it shallot be an onion any longer. All the onion stuff leeks out.
I’ve come to a place where there are many paths.
It has taken me a long time at this fork to make a decision,
And although this route is one that looks simple to traverse,
It is actually full of more pitfalls than it seems,
And I always reserve the right to turn about and hike back to the beginning to start over again.
I enjoy my time here sharing quips,
And yet I am also somehow feeling burdened.
I appreciate and delight in reading every comment,
Every compliment,
Every thought,
Every anecdote,
But the obligation to return,
The need to say something back,
Has started to feel like anxiety.
The fact that I haven’t said much in reply for days now is stacking up like my hyperbole does sometimes... and it’s bothersome.
So, as I have said, I have picked a path for now.
I reiterate the “I am here for me” today.
I will continue to post and be present when I have time.
I am not going to allow the perceived stress of replying to everyone who comments here interfere with my mental space any more.
If you say something I want to reply to, I will.
If you start an intriguing conversation or I do, I hope you’re up for some good discussion.
With that, I’ll leave you with my ruminating question of the day:
How am I supposed to be me for a bit
If I am still finding myself?