Allesandria
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- Joined
- Feb 25, 2012
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Being afraid
I married the first man I slept with and was with him for 24 years until he left me four years ago. On a whim a few months back I put a profile up on a dating site and an old acquaintance found me and expressed a great deal of interest. After over four years of celibacy, it didn't take much to get me persuaded to ride the pony. I think the only reason I let it get that far was because I had met him before and didn't feel like I was putting myself in danger by meeting some stranger.
Problem is, he's moved on to other women as he loves the thrill of the chase, and I'm sitting here thinking, what, do I wait until some man decides to approach me? I have no idea how to go about "putting myself out there," as some of the folks here talk about. Part of me wants to, and part of me is very, very afraid to put myself out there. I've ended up taking down my profile on the dating site.
I've had some really lovely chats with Literotica folk here and on Yahoo and have had some lovely hot cyber encounters. But in real life? Not a chance.
Sigh. I know I probably "could" change this regret, but honestly, I don't know if I'm going to be able to, nor am I at all sure *how* to.
I married the first man I slept with and was with him for 24 years until he left me four years ago. On a whim a few months back I put a profile up on a dating site and an old acquaintance found me and expressed a great deal of interest. After over four years of celibacy, it didn't take much to get me persuaded to ride the pony. I think the only reason I let it get that far was because I had met him before and didn't feel like I was putting myself in danger by meeting some stranger.
Problem is, he's moved on to other women as he loves the thrill of the chase, and I'm sitting here thinking, what, do I wait until some man decides to approach me? I have no idea how to go about "putting myself out there," as some of the folks here talk about. Part of me wants to, and part of me is very, very afraid to put myself out there. I've ended up taking down my profile on the dating site.
I've had some really lovely chats with Literotica folk here and on Yahoo and have had some lovely hot cyber encounters. But in real life? Not a chance.
Sigh. I know I probably "could" change this regret, but honestly, I don't know if I'm going to be able to, nor am I at all sure *how* to.