"Writer's Block" and Depression/"Madness"

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Here are excerpts from an interesting essay. Some bits clamour very loud and true for me. I recently read an insightful book on the psychic pain of writing and began to understand why I have had such difficulty for the past few months in finishing my novel (begun last Nov.).

Rather than simply (or simplistically) look at writers/artists as neurotics, or the usual 'writer's block' advice, I think there is more substantive thought here than I've read so far on this board. Or maybe not to some of you.

I'll have more to say later if a discussion catches on with this. - Perdita

BLOCKED - Why do writers stop writing? by JOAN ACOCELLA, The New Yorker, Issue of 2004-06-14 and 21

"Yesterday was my Birth Day,” Coleridge wrote in his notebook in 1804, when he was thirty-two. “So completely has a whole year passed, with scarcely the fruits of a month.—O Sorrow and Shame. . . . I have done nothing!” It was true. Most of the poems for which he is remembered were written when he was in his mid-twenties. After that, any ambitious writing project inspired in him what he called “an indefinite indescribable Terror,” and he wasted much of the rest of his life on opium addiction.
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Coleridge is one of the first known cases of what we call writer’s block. Sometimes, “block” means complete shutdown: the writer stops writing, or stops producing anything that seems to him worth publishing. In other cases, he simply stops writing what he wants to write. He may manage other kinds of writing, but not the kind he sees as his vocation. (Coleridge turned out a great deal of journalism and literary criticism in his later years, but he still saw himself as disabled, because he wasn’t writing serious poetry.) Writer’s block is a modern notion. … it was not until the early nineteenth century that creative inhibition became an actual issue in literature, something people took into account when they talked about the art. That was partly because, around this time, the conception of the art changed. Before, writers regarded what they did as a rational, purposeful activity, which they controlled. By contrast, the early Romantics came to see poetry as something externally, and magically, conferred. In Shelley’s words, “A man cannot say, ‘I will compose poetry.’” Poetry was the product of “some invisible influence, like an inconstant wind,” which more or less blew the material into the poet, and he just had to wait for this to happen. In terms of getting up in the morning and sitting down to work, a crueller theory can hardly be imagined, and a number of the major Romantic poets showed its effects. Wordsworth, like Coleridge, produced his best poetry early on, in about ten years. Poets, in their youth, “begin in gladness,” he wrote, when he was in his thirties, in “Resolution and Independence.” “But thereof come in the end despondency and madness.”

After the English Romantics, the next group of writers known for not writing were the French Symbolists. Mallarmé, “the Hamlet of writing,” as Roland Barthes called him, published some sixty poems in thirty-six years. Rimbaud, notoriously, gave up poetry at the age of nineteen.
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In the United States, the golden age of artistic inhibition was probably the period immediately following the Second World War, which saw the convergence of two forces. One was a sudden rise in the prestige of psychoanalysis. The second was a tremendous surge in ambition on the part of American artists—a lot of talk about the Great American Novel and hitting the ball out of the park. Some of those hopes were fulfilled. The fifties were a thrilling decade in American literature (Norman Mailer, Saul Bellow, Ralph Ellison, Eugene O’Neill, Tennessee Williams). But, as the bar rose, so did everyone’s anxiety, and the doctor was called. Many, many writers went into psychoanalysis in those years, and they began writing about the relationship of art and neurosis. Early on, in 1941, came Edmund Wilson’s book “The Wound and the Bow,” which reinvoked the ancient Greek formula of the mad genius.
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Not everyone agreed that writers were mental cases, but a number of psychoanalysts did, and their loudest spokesman was Edmund Bergler, a Viennese émigré who in the forties and fifties put forth what is probably the most confident theory of writer’s block ever advanced. First of all, he coined the term. (Formerly, people had spoken of “creative inhibition” or the like.) Second, he proclaimed its cause: oral masochism, entrapment in rage over the milk-denying pre-Oedipal mother. Starved before, the writer chose to become starved again—that is, blocked. Bergler claimed to have treated more than forty writers, with a hundred-per-cent success rate. That didn’t mean that the writers became like other people. “I have never seen a ‘normal’ writer,” Bergler reported. Even if their work was going well, this was often “entirely surrounded by neuroticism in private life”—squalid love affairs, homosexuality, etc. They had recompense, however: “the megalomaniac pleasure of creation . . . produces a type of elation which cannot be compared with that experienced by other mortals” (italics his).
In today’s psychology of writer’s block, as in today’s psychology in general, the focus is less on the unconscious than on brain chemistry. Blocked writers are now being treated with antidepressants such as Prozac, though some report that the drugs tend to eliminate their desire to write together with their regret over not doing so. Others are being given Ritalin and other stimulants, on the theory that their problems may be due to the now fashionable condition of attention deficit disorder.
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In talk therapy, the trend these days is cognitive-behavioral therapy, which teaches you to revise your thoughts and preconceptions in order to change the behavior that issues from them. Apart from one-on-one treatment, there are a number of cognitive-behavioral books for blocked writers—for example, “Break Writer’s Block Now!,” by Jerrold Mundis, a novelist. Mundis also has a set of four audiocassettes that, for seventy-seven dollars, will talk you through his technique. ... Mundis’s manner is very cheerleadery, in the way of motivational training, and his Web site, where you can order the tapes, reads like a subway ad for a baldness cure. Still, some of his advice is good, at least for beginning writers.
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From the nineteen-twenties at least through the fifties, American literature was awash in alcohol. Tom Dardis begins his book “The Thirsty Muse: Alcohol and the American Writer” (1989) by noting that of the seven native-born Americans awarded the Nobel Prize for Literature five were alcoholics: Sinclair Lewis, Eugene O’Neill, William Faulkner, Ernest Hemingway, and John Steinbeck. As for problem drinkers who didn’t get the Nobel Prize, Dardis assembles an impressive list, including Edna St. Vincent Millay, Hart Crane, Thomas Wolfe, Dorothy Parker, Ring Lardner, Djuna Barnes, John O’Hara, Tennessee Williams, John Berryman, Carson McCullers, James Jones, John Cheever, Jean Stafford, Truman Capote, Raymond Carver, and James Agee. A number of these careers ended early, and badly. When an alcoholic writer stops writing, do we call this block or just alcoholism?
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Long before the nineteen-fifties—indeed, starting with Freud’s 1910 book on Leonardo da Vinci—psychoanalysts were pondering creative block, and what they saw there, as elsewhere, was unconscious conflict. According to this line of thought, the artist trawls his unconscious for his material, but every now and then, in that dark estuary, he encounters something so frightening to him that he simply comes to a halt, and no one ever knows why.
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Writing is a nerve-flaying job. First of all, what the Symbolists said is true: clichés come to the mind much more readily than anything fresh or exact. To hack one’s way past them requires a huge, bleeding effort. (For anyone who wonders why seasoned writers tend to write for only about three or four hours a day, that’s the answer.) In the same interview in which Anthony Burgess sneered at crybaby Americans, he concluded by saying that a writer can never be happy: “The anxiety involved is intolerable. And . . . the financial rewards just don’t make up for the expenditure of energy, the damage to health caused by stimulants and narcotics, the fear that one’s work isn’t good enough. I think, if I had enough money, I’d give up writing tomorrow.”

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Interesting. Creativity, in my case writing, is very much a mixed blessing. It's also an intergal part of who I am. I couldn't live if I couldn't create.

But I also get writer's block. It scares the hell out of me. I think the best way for me to get past it is for people whose opinions I really respect to tell me that my work is good. This is because I'm actually very insecure and don't believe that I can view my own work objectively.
 
Gawd, 'Dita

Such a lot of ink.

So far, my depressions have been separate from my writing in any causative way, thank goodness.

Do you identify with any of this, Perdita? I read your nude day thing, it was sophisticated and oblique and very knowingly horny. You were certainly in control of it. Delightful and very naughty.

This article sounds so tragic, cosmically tragic, as though to write were to only have ten years to live.

cantdog
 
Re: Gawd, 'Dita

Cant, yes I do identify with some basic points above. I'm working on my own post to the subject (takes time). No, my severest depression episodes were never associated with writing, always with loss (and hormones). Writing has always helped me, and has always been the most personally satisfying thing I do (rated above being a mom). Still, like most things that help me, it's so fucking hard to do at times. (Taking the meds is the easiest thing I do, though of course I'd rather not.)

My nun story is not a contest entry, just a humourous piece. My contest story may not get submitted; it's been one of those painful things to write, been stuck on the 'climax' for a few days now.

anon, Perdita
 
I wrote on another thread that when I get depressed I stop writing. I become physically unable to write. Combine this with the common disorder of only being able to write when inspiration hits and you get prolonged writer's block. I've gone years when the only thing I've written is a single play, and others where I've done half of the first part of a novel, a full Henry V sized play and many short stories depending on the fluctuations in depression and inspiration. It's a delicate thing.
 
I was reading Natalie Goldberg’s book, Thunder and Lightning: Cracking Open the Writer’s Craft and discovered the cause for the writer’s block over my novel. Re. The author, she seems to me to be in her fifties, has written several books, leads writing workshops, and paints. She has practiced Zen Buddhism half her life.

The book begins, “I have not seen writing lead to happiness in my friends’ lives”, and so she suffers over whether she should ‘teach’ or encourage writing. Yet she loves to write: “But when I write a book I surrender not to the liberal travels of my restless thoughts but to the design of the work itself. … Writing a book is my one chance to experience freedom, to cut loose by succumbing to the discipline of form. It is my one chance to touch something holy … independent of my human ego.” (That resonates with me, I understand it intimately.)

At the end of her preface, called Warning!, she says, “If you want to know what you’re made of, if you want to stand on death’s dark face and leave behind the weary yellow coat of yourself, then… Please enter.”

Goldberg speaks of her original desire to control her mind through sitting zazen—Zen meditation. She relates it to her desire to write well: “I never gained control of my mind—how do you dominate the ocean?—but I began to form a real relationship with it. Through writing and meditation I identified monkey mind, that constant critic, commentator, editor, general slug and pain-in-the-ass, the voice that says, ‘I can’t do this, I’m bored, I hate myself, I’m no good… But as I wrote longer, went deeper, I realized its true purpose: monkey mind is the guardian at the gate. We have to prove our mettle, our determination … before it renders the hidden jewels… our own human core and heart. … The nearer I get to expressing my essence, the louder, more zealous the belittling voice becomes. … I never gained the upper hand. Instead I’ve learned to maneuver in the territory. ”

The bulk of the book continues with writing tips, techniques, anecdotes—all enlightening and inspiring. The book ends with a chapter that moved me intensely. Goldberg house-sat for a friend in Marin for a few weeks, with plans to write a book. She had an epiphany that tore her apart. Here are relevant passages after she explains how she spent all day writing but then could not sleep at night.

“Between my writing self and my human self a Grand Canyon had formed. I wrote abundantly and suffered terribly.” She takes a break one mid-afternoon to go for a walk. “I could actually see the wind that moved the tops of trees. Pure air had never seemed so alive.” Then she breaks down sobbing and a line from Kerouac (of all people, haha) comes to her: Accept loss forever.

Well, that did me in. It’s my life and sorrow—loss. I reached an unexplored core of it in writing my novel. I don’t want to go there, am still fighting it, but if I don’t I won’t finish the book I believe I was meant to write, that I believe all my writing over the past five decades has led me to write.

What gives me hope is this bit, as Goldberg continues: “I can’t explain it, only writing opens us wide so that our individual suffering becomes universal suffering. … I had one purpose: to write, but through that one act the whole inner world opened to me. I was living out of an intimate reality with myself.”

Here’s the book’s last sentences: “Writing is an immediate mirror: it reports back to you. You can’t fool anyone, especially yourself. … It’s an opportunity to unite the inner with the outer, both being the same anyway, only in illusion two. A great challenge, a great practice. A large way.”

Well, I hope someone gets this. If not, forgive the space I've taken up.

Goodnight and anon, Perdita
 
'Dita, I love that Bergler quote so much I immediately added it to my sigline.

If I ever figure out why I go into writer's block I figure that I will then have the cure for it. In other words, it is not bloody likely.
 
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